Thursday, December 31, 2009

Bye Bye 2009, Hello 2010

Ow boy, 2010 is just around the corner. And I'm so excited!!
Have been waiting for this day for ages!
Well, as usual, we'll be celebrating our new year with Nick's family.
Cause it's his birthday on 1st of Jan.
Lucky boy!!
But there's a slight diffrence this year.
Of course I will not be sobbing throughout the night like the past 2 years.
Instead, I'll be hooray-ing and shouting with my gangs.
This is gonna be so fun!!!
A little plan changed.
So... Mega will be the spot for us to usher in 2010.

Now, the problem is, what present should I buy for Nick?
It's always tough to buy a present for a guy.
I mean... What do guys like??
Girls of course!
I wish I could find him a girlfriend and stuff her in a present.
Taadaa... Hahaha...
I can imagine my aunt holding a pan in her hand chasing me around.
Ouch!
*giggles
I won't have the nerve to do that.
Maybe few more years from now. = P
Well, will just browse around the mall later.
Hopefully I'll find something for him.
If not... Forget it!
I'll just bake him a cake.
Hahaha...
I know. Cheapskate rite?

Hmm... school will reopen soon.
Soooo reluctant to go.
Gosh...
Skip school on the first day??
My wicked mind is so overpowering my weaker side~

Yesterday was the hardest night for me to fall asleep.
I crave for porridge, toufu and cabbage.
Hahaha... I know I'm silly to think of that.
But I couldn't help it!!

Well well, will be making new steps tomorrow.
Dad promise to buy a shoe for us. Finally!
Had been mumbling him for months!

D played new songs~~
Yeah!!!
Here come's the craze again!

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

New Year Resolutions

Haha...
There's tons of resolutions accumulated for the past few years.
And many of them slip right off my mind.
I think it's time to really work things out.
And AIM them.

1) 'Overhaul' myself = P
Many dissatisfaction about myself.
Will do something about it.
We'll see... *giggles*

2) Seek forgiveness.
Mostly from my family.
Had a really bad year, experienced serious mood swings.
Which affected my parents a lot, cause of my attitude.
I'm sorry... Couldn't help holding back those heartaches.
And I resorted to release my anger towards my family.
My friends,
If you guys are reading this, just to let you guys know I'm terribly sorry.
KerLee, ShiYun, Bao, WeeShean, Jen, etc etc...
I've been a terrible friend this year
And I'm sorry if I've offended you guys.
For all the quarrel and dispute we had, I'm sorry!

3) Change my attitude.
This is the most challenging of all.
I can't help it.
It's who I am.
But I'll change.
Will stop all the loud laughing and shouting.
Be more gentle (crossing my fingers!)
If I still can't change,
Well.... It'll be in my 2011 new year resolution list. Again!

4) Try to stay away/avoid love.
Of course I can't stop myself from falling in love.
But, even if I do fall in love with someone,
I will not show any sign of it or tell anyone.
Maybe only my besties will know.
But I have much more bigger problem with my psychology now.
I better solve that first before venturing into a new relationship.

5) Vacations!!!
Australia will be the first on my list.
New York will be second.
Hopefully I'll be able to go to these 2 places.
And hopefully my STPM doesn't clash with my sis's graduation.
Otherwise.........
Don't wanna think about it!

Hope to have a great year in 2010.
Joanne, 2 more days and the spell will break!!!
Bare with it!!

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Something Stupid Call Love

Well, it's been half a year now.
And I'm still alive!
Lols...
Being single ain't that bad after all
Just a little sobbing occasionally.

Something troubled me these few days.
Seek help from Bao and A
I'll take it as a joke or prank
Anything it is...
I really hate that sort of feeling
'A' had been helping me out a lot.
Thanks to him.
What he commented was something that will not happen.
I mean 'he' wouldn't miss me.
And if really have 'xin shi' to tell me,
he should have find other people right??

Somehow I wish my heart will break evenly
Too bad it doesn't
Most of it went to him.
I hope it'll come back.

I can't deny that I don't love him anymore.
Just that he doesn't belong to me
And I have no rights to do anything.
Just taking everything easy.
No frust....
No whatsoever

I'll allow my mind to run wild these few days.
And maybe get back normal during new year.
Maybe my love will come back to me
Only heaven knows~

=P

Missing him for another 6 more days and that's it!

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Malacca Trip... Or Should I Say, Unlucky Trip?

Went to Malacca on Thursday. Man.... I'm really that unlucky when it comes to travelling. Upon reaching Malacca, a heavy downpour invited us with open arms. It didn't rain as heavy earlier. I was like..... Am I the unluckiest person in the world or what?? I'm so not fated to be a traveller this year. Everywhere I go, it'll definitely rain! But it's okay. Cause next year will reach in a few more days time = )

Reach Malacca around 2.30pm. I'm so not gonna sit that bus company anymore...!!! So idiot. They brought us to this kampung toilet where there's only 2 available toilets out of 4. And the worst part is.... It's dark, it stinks and there's a big hole at the door. A person walk pass can just peep into the hole and see you doing business. I complained it to A.

A : Nice maa....
J : Nice??!!! U go try la!!
A : Hehe... I nevermind... I guy ma....

=.= Arggghhh.... Complained to the wrong person. Didn't do much on the first day. Just hang out with my cousins and my cousins' cousin, Denise. What a chicky girl...!! But she's cute. Oh ya, we had santa claus that night. There were christmas carolling and I had so much fun. Dancing and fooling around with the santa claus. And not forgetting those cute looking guys..!!! *Drool!* Manage to take a picture with the 'young and damn freaking light' santa claus. = P Massaged with A at night. So happen he's on vacation too. That fella really knows how to make people laugh. And he owes me 2 A's'. So gonna 'sayang' him!!!

Second day, went around Dataran Pahlawan Mall. Met up with WeeShean there. So miss her T.T Hehehe.... Nothing great, nothing cheap. Walk out of the mall within an hour. Took picture at a few historic places. It was in the history book but I forgot what's the name of those places. ( I dumb my history knowledge during form 5)
Went to Jonker Street after that. It was still bright. Not much stalls at that time. But we still manage to get some souvenirs. And luckily we did! Went there again at night. It was raining cats and dogs!!! We hardly able to look thoroughly. But we still manage to eat the famous laksa! Yummmooo....

Third day which is today. And it's still raining. Somehow I felt that it rained because of me. Like... I brought the rain to Malacca. Which ruined my trip T.T Well... Everything is fated.

And I'm mad of that dumb bus driver. Stupid!!! He didn't know the way to reach bus station!!! How dumb dumb is that??!! June and I was very happy to see th EC Mall sign. Cause it's quite near to the bus station already. Then.... the bus driver went straight instead of turning right. Dungu!!! He drove all the way and turned into 'San Tai Zi'. I and my sis kept grumbling. We were like... 'What the heck he's driving into this housing area. He later U-turned out and on the main road again. And he nearly made another wrong exit!!! Stupid!!! Luckily a girl pointed the way to the bus station for him. And we reached safely!!! STUPIDEST BUS DRIVER I EVER MET!!!! Mom said we should consider lucky we reach kuantan.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Yes!

Finally.... I've got back my internet access.
So... Little updates.
Actually not that little but kinda lazy to type everything down.

First of all, June reached Malaysia! Sweet! Shopped around KL. Thanks to Jess. And her driving.... Urghh....It's a good thing I didn't eat much that morning. Otherwise I'll throw up and stink the whole car. Eww~~ *giggles*

So... Brought June to EC Mall. The only new thing in Kuantan. What do you expect?! This is Kuantan. Nothing much to see. She got bored quite fast. So... We'll be heading to Malacca tomorrow.Hell know where she wants to go next week. She couldn't stay firm...

1 thing had been bugging me these few days! Went for movie with Jen and Bao. Damn..!!! I was so pissed off, angry, furious of the people I saw. They surely know the perfect timing to ruin my mood!!! Went to TC after that. Gosh.... He's friends!!! I feel like digging a hole in the sand and bury myself, suffocating to death!!!! That's how I felt! That's how annoying it is to see someone I hated deeply!! Damn..... Arghhhh.....~~~!!!!!!

It's raining again. Hopefully it'll not rain in Malacca. I want to go to Jonker Street!! Crossing my fingers!

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Sweet!

Mum had been rushing up and down yesterday. Because of June's return from Australia. We were quite disappointed in the beginning when she told us that she won't be able to come back for 2010 CNY. But now, she says she can come back for a month from next week onwards. So.... Mum have to check the net, check for dates, change her flight, add extra money.... etc etc etc.

At first, she told mum that she will be fine even though she can't come back. After much persuasion from mum, she decided to come back. Hahaha... She lied to my mum! But for a good cause. She said that she'll have friends to accompany her cause she worries mum had to fork out more money and arrange time to pick her up from KL. After mum said that its okey and don't mind paying the extra cost, she blah out everything. If she doesn't come back to Malaysia, she'll be ALONE. All her roommates are coming back. Silly girl! Mum don't mind about money. What worries mum is her safety. By the way, mum don't have to pay a single dollar for her studies. That's why mum is allows her to come back every year.

Will be going down to KL next Wednesday. Thought of shopping around on Thursday. Looks like we have to change plans. Have to pick June up at 3.30pm. Hmmm... Very well, shop other time then.... Hopefully dad allows us to spend another extra night. Boy..!! Can't wait for it. But somehow I have a feeling that June will not have time to buy goodies for me T.T it's a little too rushing for her. Ahh well, next year then.. HooHoo... Going to Australia~~ Lalala....

Hmm... Mum thought of moving in to the new house earlier. Since we're having an extra worker and extra pair of hands(June!) Giggles... But definitely we couldn't make it in time to move in before christmas. Cause the iron grill just finish installed yesterday, finally! Mum will be choosing the lightings today. Hopefully it'll be done by next week. Owh, must go Ikea during this trip. I must lay my hands on those cute cookie cutters. Mum promised! Yeah... Finally able to make my very own gingerbread man. And must shop aroung for ingredients. Cause Kuantan is so 'cha' in the sense that, you will never find or get the things that you want.

Christmas is just around the corner. Will be baking with June till my oven burst into flame! = ) Had copied many recipes from the net to try them out. Hopefully they work. HoHoHo... Merry christmas! Dashing through the snow~ Sigh.. Malaysia no snow XD

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Hard Decisions...

My mind had been wondering around for the past few days.
Not knowing what I'm thinking.
Everything sort of pop out at the same time.
Makes me strain my mind for nothing.
In the end, I couldn't come to any decision.
Having sleepless nights because of that.

I want to go for hols.
Somewhere out of here.
I'm sick of tuitions already!

Hmm... Digging out all of my fav. movies during my childhood.
Gonna watch Edward Scissorhands..

Friday, November 27, 2009

Sneak peaks!

Hmm.... Having tuitions all day long had made me sick sick sick! Having flu, sorethroat, cough, etc... Kinda tiring and exhausted with all the 'rushing here, rushing there'. Gonna jump into the deep blue sea sooner or later.

Went to Megamall last night. Poor maintainance!!! Each toilet room was dark!!! Stupid! I had to pee in the dark! I mean... How do you expect people to do their 'business' in the dark??? Come on..!!! Common sense larh~

But there's something good happened there yesterday. Saw him~ *shy smile* I can't believe he's there and was quite near to me. I didn't even dare to look at him. Still felt the 'childhood embarrassment'!!!

Saw him again today during breakfast. He was having his tuition break. *giggles*

= )

p/s: joanne stopped listening to that song already! It only lasted for a week!

Monday, November 23, 2009

This Is Bad!

Finally! I have the time to blog this post. 8 hours of tuitions again today. I could die if everyday is TODAY!

So, this is the bad news. June might not be able to come back for next year's CNY. *sniff* Which means.... Next year's CNY will be dull, boring and URGHHH..... Alyssa and Amabel wont be back too. Looks like I'll be spending my CNY with Jess only.

I was really looking forward for June to come back.(Cause I want all the goodies! = P) I thought of calling her to buy liquor for me!!! Looks like I have to forget about those stuffs. Sighhh....

Any good news?? Nahhh.... Plain boring! I didn't even have time for movies. There's so many mov. I wanted to watch desperately!

Oh ya, there's a good news after all! I'll be moving out! Hopefully before Christmas! Iron grill is finally fixed. (Took them months!) Will be shopping around for furnitures and some electrical appliances. Can't wait for it! So far we have bought bedsheets and curtains only. And we haven't pack our things yet. Gotta sort out my things after all my tuitions. So many rubbish and 'unwanted stuffs'. Yay...!!! I'm finally moving to a place without a single memory of him!!! MY SANCTUARY!! Woohoo...!!! Can't wait for it! It's fun to move to that area. Cause it'll be like.... 10 steps away from my house to Koala's house. Just thinking of it makes me jump up and down.

6 hours of tuitions tomorrow! Attack!!!!!

My life isn't that bad after all = P

p/s: I didn't listen to that song anymore. Miss the tune so so so so much!

Saturday, November 21, 2009

6 down.. 2 more to go!

I hate today... 8 hours of tutions. 2 more hours to go later.

Today's weather is pretty chill. Or should I say "It's freezing cold!" Wore my sweater the whole day. My fingers were nearly frostbitten.It was really that cold! Guess what? The temperature at my tuition centre is 16degree! Hell cold!

But I still love this weather. Suits my sleepy mode! Yeah... I was drowzy in my econs. tuition. The bad part of it is, I couldn't concentrate well. Everything teacher says..... I was like "What?" Pathetic!

Went for the 4 hours maths class in the morning. Guess who I saw? My first crush. Giggles! But we didn't talk. It'll be a total embarrassment! My friends looked at me when he passed by in front of me. I stared back at them. So obvious they are teasing me!!! I sat at a pretty good angle whereby I get a clear look of him from the place I sit. No... I did not peep at him the whole time! Just occasionally = P I can't believe I liked him for like... 6 years? Chuckles! Naive~!

Chat for a while with NaNa just now, after our econs. tuition. How much we missed crapping with each other! Though we're from different school, we talked a lot during our form 4 & 5 acc. tuition. She asked me the same question as others who haven't seen me in ages. How's ur relationship with XX? Haha.... Same answer. "We broke up" Some say it's a good thing (My former teacher say so = P). Some say it's a waste (cause it's a 2 years relationship). For me, life goes on as usual. (Being optimistic!) I miss NaNa. I'm her only friend who calls her NaNa. ^^

p/s: I didn't have the time to listen to that song! Sobs... Will do it tonite!

Friday, November 20, 2009

Hols Is In Da House!

Yipesss!!!
This is the happiest moment of my life.
No school!!!
How great is that!!!
Today is my last day of schooling for 2009.
Yay...!!!
But it was a busy day.
Thanks to those PBSM certs!!!
KerLee and I was printing them for hours!
Bored to death!
And we went round the school to look for our teacher.
Damn....
She's like playing hide and seek with us.
One minute she's there.
Next minute, she's gone.
We couldn't find her in the end.
We just leave those stuff on her table with a note.
= P
Saw him at the canteen today.
So darn cute!
Too bad he's younger than me!!!
And is a Malay!
Sobs....
Well, a little fantasy will not hurt much.
Giggles!!

Today is the last day for me to get a good rest.
I don't even dare to think of tomorrow.
8 hours of tuitions!
Can someone just kill me??!!! T.T
3 weeks of tuitions.
Argh....
It's a torture!!!
Hope these weeks goes by in a blink of eye. (I wish!)
Then I'll be heading to Malacca for hols.!
Woohoo...!!!

June will be back in exactly 7 weeks from now.
I'm waiting for the goodies!!!
I hope she doesn't but anything common anymore.
The last time she bought back Nougats and TimTam.
I can get those stuffs at Kuantan la, sister!
I can't waiting to lay my hands on Honey-ed Macadamian Nuts!
Yummmooo~~~

p/s: Still listening to it = P

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Rainy Dayss...

Looks like monsoon season is here.
Yeappp!!!
LOVEEEE it so much.
Reminds me of those days when June and I will fold paper boats.
*giggles..
We'll be wet from head to toes.
Dancing and fooling around at our backyard.
Like it when we're all drenched.
We usually get sick the next day = P

Well, since we don't have any snow in Malaysia.
Monsoon season is the only cold and chill time we'll get.
Sighh...
Home alone-ing now.
Miss my sisters so much.
Sobsss....

Haven't been to school for three days since Tuesday.
lolss...
I'm that lazy!!!
Got a little nagging from my parents, of course!
School to me is like jail.
There's no freedom.
But I'll be going to school tomorrow.
Is our last day.
Gonna snap pictures!!!!
Chhheeezzzzz.......
= )

Had been doing silly stuffs at home recently.
Salsacise and aerobic.
Just to shake those stubborn fats off my body.
But it's tiring!!!
I'm all poofed out after every session.
I look dumb dumb doing so.
haha...
But, who cares?!
No one is seeing me.
I make sure all windows are closed before I do so!
It'll be embarrassing if outsiders see me in that situation.

p/s: I'm still listening to that song~~ Lurve it!

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Aaaaahhhhhhhhh........~~~!!!!!

I can't get that music out of my head.
Somehow, it got stuck in my brain.
Now, I had to listen to that song at least thrice a day.
Shuts...!!!
It's really that good!
I'm waiting for the day I'll get bored with it.
Maybe few weeks from now = P
But it's really that addictive.
Don't know what makes me like this.
So freaking nice!!!
I don't know how he manage to remix both the songs.
I wish someone will play that song for me...
Awwww~~
How sweet will that be?!
It'll be a jaw-dropping moment.
And maybe a little drool... = P
I mean....
A guy doing stuff like that is rare to find.
So....
If it really happens, I'll be on cloud nine!!!

D,
you are superb!!!!

Monday, November 16, 2009

Grumble... Mumble.... Bubble??

Sobs...
My tummy is palying a fool with me again.
After 1 year, and here it is again.
Damn.....!!!

had a bad stomachache this morning.
Went back home right after assembly.
I had to get my form teacher's signature before i can leave the school.
So happen my teacher was absent today.
So my econs. teacher signed for me right after hearing I'm not feeling well.
Unlike that stupid, dumb, idiotic teacher!!!
Another teacher asked me whether I'm having fever.
And that dumb chinese teacher said
"Kenapa demam masih mau datang sekolah?!"
Shit la!
I havent even answered yes or no!
I was like....
What the hell...!!
Simply scold me before listening to my real reason.
Dumb man!
Silly teacher!
Brainless.....

Anyways, there's good news!
I got number 1!
Again..!!!
Thanks to him for giving up on me!!!
Yeahhh....~~~!!!!
I'll prove to him I'll not die for not having him in my life.
In fact, I'll be better!
Cheers to singlehood!
I kinda dislike chinese guys now because of him.
Somehow affected me a little.
That's why.... I'm looking for ang mo's~~~
Lols.... =P

Had been listening a good piano music these few days.
Thanks to Sa's neighbour, Andrew!
The songs he played was superb!!!
Love it very very much!!
Especially Love Story & Canon remix!
Was fascinated with that song!
Ahhh.....
Kinda addicted to that song.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Untitled..

Just finish viewing pictures and video of a boy.
Passed away on 11-11-2009
Hope he'll rest in peace and may God bless him.

I'm not his friend but I've talk to him once or twice.
During last year's schools events when he performed and I emcee-ed.
He's such a great dancer.
Cute, handsome and funny.
Backstage, he jokes a lot with his friends
When my friend mentioned his name, I couldn't recall who he was.
Until I saw his pictures.
I never had in mind that it was him when my friends told me.

I think everyone is in grief right now.
Nick when to see him for the last time.
Many people went.

Sighh....

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Torture Begins!

I'll be having loads of tuition classes.
Never ending classes.
Worse than having school classes.
Thinking of it now makes me shiver.
Scare la~
But maybe it'll be fun
(trying to be optimistic = P)

What makes me sad is....
I'll have shorter holidays..
Sobzz....
Sighh.....

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Bad Luck Strikes!

My voice has never been husky for this long.
Don't know when I'll get better
(Hopefully soon!)
Hate my voice so much.....

Skip maths class for the first time today.
sigh....
Teacher complained.
(She wasn't in a good mood, obviously)
Scolded us.
Sighhh.....
First time a.....
How 'lucky' am I???

She's gonna hate us for sure.
Don't feel like going to school tomorrow t.t

Joanne Lee is in holiday mood!!!

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Falling Into Pieces

I'm dead sick today.
Worse than yesterday.

Shuts..!!!
Coughing till I feel like digging out my lung and dump it.
Damn pain.
Hmm...
Asthma again??
Better not.
Hate hospitals....!!!

Went to Sri Jaya this afternoon for lunch.
Having party for Joshua~~
What a darling! = )
Such a sweetheart.
Daddy drove there.
I was practically dead in the car.
Felt like a pack sardine in it.
Anyways, reach there around 12.30pm
Hop down from the car for some fresh air.
Ate watermelon~
Best way to cool my body down.
Waited for the rest at the restaurant.
The dishes only came out around 1.30pm
Hungry like mad by that time!!
But it was worth to wait.
The food was SUPERB!
Hahaha....
Which means I gain more weight!
Reach home around 4.15pm.
Went straight to my room.
Doze off immediately.
I was so tired.
Sneezing throughout the day.
Caughing like an old lady.
Walk with my back hunched....
And I woke up with a husky voice.
Sad!!!

Just brought Jerry back to his daddy.
Sobzz...
Miss that dog so much~!
And his owner kutuk me kao kao!
Sheesshhh....!!!
As if he's very good!
I can cook, okey?!!
Think I'm what?
Silly guy!
Luckily Jerry doesn't have any of your genes = P

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Joy To The World!

Yeah~~!!
I'm so over with my exams!
Cheers to all who finished their exams too!
Just ended my muet exam this morning.
Boy am I nervous to the max!
As usual, my tummy churned and churned and churned.
Silly psychology thing that I should overcome.
Too bad I couldn't.
During my spm times, I even brought my 'po chi yi' with me
(In case I.... U know....)
Anyways, today was fully packed.
And I'm sick
sobzz....
I don't know how on earth I got my flu.
It started with a mere sorethroat.
Dad suspected that I caught a cold by getting wet in the rain.
But I told him I didn't.
So, all he say is 'Means you didn't drink enough water la~!'
Hahaha....
I'll have to admit that.
Pass few days had been raining heavily.
And it makes me wanna pee more often.
I'm lazy to make trips to school's toilet (And it stinks!)

Ahhh~~~~
I'm so relieved right now.
So stressfree and are planning things for the hols.
Hopefully it's a great one.
KoaLa came back early in the morning today.
As in "early morning"
2am. Man! How much she misses us and Kuantan.
Went out with her just now.
Talk about... Ahem...
What else... Of course its about guys!
ChungYu was around too.
Hahaha....
I refused to talk about my pass when ChungYu asked me.
Somehow I've realised everything.
Thanks to my friends.

I'm so full right now.
Just had a lavish dinner at my aunt's place.
My cousin is having her confinement period...
So.... Lots of foods!!!
That's why I'm so bloated now. = (
Sighhh.......

Yay.... Time to enjoy!!!

Thursday, November 5, 2009

What We Learn...

Today econs. class was ridiculous!
This happened roughly 4 hours ago at our tuition class.
What we learn today is about Pendapatan Negara.
Teacher said that even though our income is 0, we will still spend on our daily needs.
So....
The question was....
Where do we get the money to spend on???
Teacher asked Bao.
So she answered
1) Mengemis (Beg for money)
Teacher didn't heard her answer.

2) Cari Kerja (Find a job)
Teacher says assume there's no job.

3)Cari boyfren kaya. (Find a rich dude)
Teacher was speechless....

This kid really knows how to pull off a good joke.

When teacher asked Jen.
She answered
1) Cari ibubapa ( Help from parents)

Kids nowadays....
Teacher will go crazy with these kind of answers!

We laughed like mad girls who gone crazy.

So...
What did I learn today?
Find a rich guy or parents when I'm broke!

= P

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

It's That Time Again..

Heartache
Body-ache.
Headache.
Stomacahe.
Backache.

Oh boy, here comes all my sickness again.
So many people die everyday.
Why not me?
Not trying to be emo or what so ever.
And it's not because of him.
It really hurts as in pain physically.
It's not my feelings.
Arrgghh....!!!!
I need therapies!
Seriously!
And a psychologist too!
Need a little brainwash...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Diet!!!!

Just finish looking at some old pics with my friends.
And realised.........
I'm so big and fat now!
Damn.....
Gain so much weight and fats.
Sobsss.....
OMG!!!!
Must diet like hell right after exam.
So much of difference t.t t.t
Die also must diet!!!
Too bad I can't start my diet now.
Exam time, I have to feed my brain = P
AAHHH.....!!!!
Shit shit shit!!!!
Putting on my retainers after exam.
That way, I can't eat even though I want too.
Have to torture myself!!!!!

STOP EATING!!

I'm Doomed...

Just finished accounts paper.
I flunked it for sure!
I don't even understand a single shit of that paper.
Luckily I told my parents that I will fail that paper.
Cause I have to confidence at all
Not even a single bit.
Having maths paper tomorrow.
Hope I can score better.
Sighhh....
Examination is such a torture.
Will be having MUET on Saturday.
Hopefuly, nothing will cause me a nervous breakdown.
Gonna have fun after all those sutffs.
Can't wait for movies on Friday (Skipping school = P)
Heading to Maran on Sunday for baby Joshua
Maybe follow dad down to KL on Monday.
Yipesss!!!!
Planned so many things for the holidays.
Too bad I can't travel far.
Otherwise, I'll go Singapore to visit my ahma.
Australia to visit June.
And US to visit Alyssa.
Sobbbsss........
I miss them so so much.
No one to bully me...
Praying hard my STPM next year will end earlier.
Then I can go to Australia~~~
Woohoo......

Sighh.... Miss him....

Monday, November 2, 2009

Crying Over Spilt Milk

No point doing so.
Though I do it quite often.
Just that my heart refuses to listen to my brain.
So...
Well, I think I've done what I could.
And my friends had been very supportive too.
They try not to mention his name in front of me.
Even the not so close friends of mine did the same thing too.
Which I appreciate a lot.
Hmm....
3 more weeks before school ends.
Form 6 life wasn't as hectic as he told me last year
Experiencing it myself makes me feel he was avoiding me instead of being really busy.
Very well, at least I know it now.
Still hope the very best for him.
Hope he gets good grades for his STPM.
Hope he finds a better companion.

Moving on is such a hard thing.
Stepping out of the box is a hard thing.
Leaving everything heavy-heartedly is a hard thing.
Forget that he once exist in my life is a hard thing.

Can I do it??
AAAAHHHH~~~~!!!!!
I don't know.
Really wish none of these happened.
So heartbreaking
Damn! Those tears....

Through My Windows

Don’t want much, I just want everything
Thought that I could, do almost anything
One step in front of the other
Thought that I could do it alone

In the blink of an eye, it’s just another day
Telling me why, I’ll find another way
Got this feeling, got me reeling
I can almost start believing

Now there’s me and you
And we are not alone
You and me
We are together now
Through my window, I can see there’s
More than you and more than me
Me and you
And we are not alone
Different view
We are together now
Through my window, I can see
Our wildest dreams could be so real

I see a spark, it starts a fire
Is this the one worth waiting for?
Thought that I could do it without you
Can’t exist like this anymore

Now there’s me and you
And we are not alone
You and me
We are together now
Through my window, I can see there’s
More than you and more than me

Now there’s me and you, you and me
We are not alone and we are together
Through my window I can see
Our wildest dreams could be so real

Sighhhhhh........!!!!!

I didn't even had the chance to make my first step!!!
And he's gone!
Ahhhh~~~~!!!!
Damn sad man.
Aimless already...
So disappointed...!!!

Friday, October 30, 2009

Loving The Person Next To Me

Who?
A guy of course!

Name?
Don't know...

Age?
Don't know...

Studying what?
Don't know...

How he looks like?
Not very sure. Can't get a clear look of him.

Reason for loving him?
Don't know...

Sounds pathetic. I know.
But right now, this is the greatest joy in my life.
Peeping through windows.
Jogging in the evening.
The only thing I couldn't do is snap his picture to show to my friends.
Ahhhh...
How much I wish I could snap his picture.

How to start a conversation with a total stranger???
Someone help me!

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

I'm So Dead!

Exam started on Tuesday.
Thank you WeeShean for wishing me good luck.
And sorry couldn't reply you cause my phone expired.
Anyways,
Just finished my econ. paper
Damn!
How much I love doing them.
Wrote till my finger felt like falling apart.
But it was fun.
Rushing with time.
The thrill was there.
So does the 'scare factor'

Today kinda bad luck.
Drove to school today.
Saw him near me.
Speed like a mad cow.
Quickly came out from the car
And....
BANG!!!!!
Knocked my head.
t.t
Pain like shit!
Reach classroom and found out that our row didn't had electricity.
But our 'HERO' rescued us before our exam starts.

Tomorrow's paper will be PA
Haven't even touch that book
Ready to flunk it!!!

Friday, October 23, 2009

Foreseeing Future

Relatives from Singapore came to visit us.
As usual, my room was very very very messy.
Believe me.
It's messy!
So, mum told me to clean up cause relatives will be coming.
To make things worse, I had to clean 2 rooms cause I messed up my previous room and the current room I'm sleeping at.
(I run to the back room to avoid memories)
Started off with my front room.
It looked like I haven't been there for ages.
So dusty!
So I swept, cleaned.......
And at the end, I cleared something which was once I treasure them so so much.
Unfortunately, I have to pack them up.
It was all the gifts from him and a few letters which I wrote to him a year ago but didn't have the courage to give them to him.
It was all about the way I felt about our relationship.
How much I dislike something,
How I wish we could mend everything back,
And so on.
There's about 8 letters.
I opened them. ( I sealed them up last time = P )
Read through every single thing that I want him to know.
Cried a lot again at that moment.
Luckily no one was home.
So many heart-breaking moments.
Each and every part of it really minimize a little trust from me towards him.
I can't believe how many sad things happened until I read those letters.
Though some letters was full of hatred.
Because I don't know how to express those stuff to him.
That's why all I do was to write them down.
Well, sacrifices made ain't appreciated.
Every single thing that he once gave to me, I still kept them well.
From my 16th birthday present, to the handphone ornament during our 100th day of 'couple-ing', 2008 valentine's flower....
Even the 1st bar of chocolate that he bought for me, I still keep the wrappers.
Does he do anything like that for me.
Perhaps... I don't know.
All I know was i was so sad and angry at the same time when he lost the 'P' that I bought for him at Singapore.
Sighhh.....
All those are memories now.
I packed everything up into a paper bag.
Including some photos that we took together.
Will be moving to new house this year end.
I didn't intend to bring along those things.
I don't want to bring sad memories along.
What should I do??
Dump it? Donate to the needys?? Or return it???

Future>> Hopefully it's a bright place where there's only sunshine and no rains or thunderstorms will get into my way!

My Suckie MUET Speaking

Damn!
I don't know whether to say that I'm lucky or unlucky.
Lucky that I'm the only 1 who can speak in the group.
Unlucky cause those 3 jokers didn't want to speak to me!!!!
F*ck!!!!
If my MUET speaking mark turns out bad,
IT'S ALL THEIR FAULT!!!
T.T
Feel like crying man!!!!
How can it be a discussion when I'm the only 1 speaking to myself.
And they didn't even want to have eye contact with me!!!
In the end, I have to speak to the examiners.
So pissed off!!!!
When I'm finally out of point, they still didn't wan to talk!
All they say is "I agree"
Arrgghhhhh........!!!!!!!
So.....
After I concluded task B, 1 of the examiner said "no discussion"
AAAHHHH.......!!!!!
I'm so dead man!
And is all because of that 3 strangers.
Sobsss.............

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Confessions

Okey...
Maybe I'm a little too harsh on 'him'
He's good actually.
I'm the bad one.
So.....
Aha~
Nothing to say.
Maybe I should put it this way.
His business is none of my business anymore.
Nothing to be bothered.
Duhhh....!!!!

New Family Member

09/10/2009
10.26pm

Yeah~~~!!! I'm an aunt again! I'm an aunt all this while but this new birth really cheers everything up!

Boy! What an amazing moment.
And some silly jokes.
Now I know how a husband will feel when his wife is about to give birth.
Everything turned upside down!
You can't even recognize your own child!
What a nervous daddy.
At least Janice's husband is better than my dad.
Hahahaha.......

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Setting My Goals

Future bf to be.
Must be well-spoken in English.
At least better than me la~~~!!!(I don't want to have conversations in chinese!)
Must be 2 years older than me.
(I don't mind finding younger ones though = P)
Don't have to be rich.
As long as he won't tell me 'I don't have money to....'
Those kind of guys can go fly kites!
Oh... And must be well-educated too.
I don't want to look dumb in public.
(It'll be better if he's smarter than me!)

If couldn't find a guy as mentioned,
I'll resort with super 'doinks' guy but must be extremely wealthy to cover up his flaws.
Hahahahahaha...
Damn am I evil.
This is just a joke.
The whole break up thing really changed me a lot.
And I love it!!!
Woohoo~~~

I missed my opportunity to spread my wings for something stupid.
And I'm not gonna do the same old mistake again.
I'll be 'stupider' than that fella if I do the same thing again!
It's obvious that we can't be friends anymore.
Cause seeing him just will remind me of how dumb I am.
And I don't want to be dumb!
For those who said that I'll cry for more than a month if I break up with him,
guys, I proved you wrong!
How proud am I~~
Ceh....
Hahahaha....

All the thing he'd once said are bullshits and rubbish to me now.
I'm so over him!!!!
In fact, I hate him so much till the extend that I'll kill him.
But laws restricted me to do so.
No point going to jail for some silly things.
Committing suicide because of him?
Nawh......
Dream on!
It's not worth it.
Why harm myself when I can improve myself for my future??
Make myself a better bait to catch a better fish.
*giggles
Waiting for my uni life!!

Boy, am I proud of myself!

Talking About Luck!

It happened yesterday.
I was pretty drowsy the whole day.
Thanks to my flu!!!!
I was either lying or sleeping during classes.
I didn't even listen what the teachers were teaching.
All I bother was to SLEEP
Everytime I lay down a while, teacher will go "Joanne..."
I was like "Urrgghhh...."
Of course I didn't really express it out.
How embarrassing would that be >.< color="#3366ff">zombie or as if I were sobbing the whole day.
Overall, I looked dumb!
But!!!!!
At least there's something to be happy about!
Why??!!
I got number 1!!!
Not for the whole form.
Just for my own class.
*chuckles!*
Gonna use it to get some rewards from my parents. = P

Forget about the whole school thing.
Went for yc session with Shean, Lynn, Bear, KerLee, Bao, LyeKuen and PuiMun.
We chit-chatted, blah this blah that blah everything.
I kept telling Bear how much I don't want to attend the form 6 dinner.
Cause of 'non-other-than-that-someone'
And as we were talking about it...
Damn...... Imagine my surprise.
There he was.
AAAHHHH.......!!!!
There's so many coffee shops in Air Putih.
Why must you be there!!!!!!!
(*note. I'm this emotioned because how am I suppose to forget about him if he keeps popping out of nowheres)
Hello~~~!!!!!
That's the reason I don't want to go to that dinner.
And there he was right in front of me!
Luckily I never lost my appetite.
I never do.
Hahahaha.....
Argh...
What a 'wonderful' way to 'brighten up' my 'happy' afternoon =.=

Rush back home to get ready for the next event.
What time it was??!!
Karaoke time!!!!
Went for a brief snack before we went for our 'vocal class'.
At first, all shy shy.
Who so clever went and chose poker face to sing.
But SY and TM did a good job for the 'opening ceremony'
It was loud and funny.
Most of us were laughing till our stomach sort of cramp.
We sang quite a lot of songs.
English, Chinese and surprisingly Malay songs too.
Hahaha....
We had loads of fun.
Too bad the room was too dark.
Couldn't snap a perfect picture.
And the most touching part was...
When we sang 'You Are Not Alone' for ShuWan cause she'll be leaving us.
Sobs.....
We'll definitely miss her.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Happy birthday, FeiSin!


Today is FeiSin's birthday.
Hope she had a blessed birthday!
Just came back from yc session with them
Uploading pictures.
Bang!
See I so good.
I purposely come my mum office to upload these pictures!
You owe me a big time!!!!

Monday, October 5, 2009

Jeng Jeng Jeng~~!!!

My Jerry is back!
How much I missed that smelly dog!

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival

3rd of October, Saturday.


Had a blast on that day.
We didn't celebrate it at the beach.
Instead, we went to my new house to light candles.
The fun part was...........
There's no furniture, no light, no nothing!!!!
Except water.
Hahaha.....
We just lay some mats on the floor and that's it.
Of course we brought some food and snacks.
We even brought a portable stove along to boil water.
Ya!!!
We made tea.
Sooooo traditional!
Lols.....
Chit-chatted a lot.... (as usual)
All my close friends came.
(except Shiyun cause she's at KL and SinYee cause she went for camp)
Such a waste they didn't come!!!!
We had such a splendid time together.
Took quite a lot of pictures.
Must capture these precious moments. Ceh......
*giggles
We were very noisy that night.
I hope I didn't give any bad impression to my soon-to-be neighbours.
Most of the sound was contributed by Bao.
I'm innocent = P
Anyways...... Overall, we enjoyed ourselves that night.
It's better than crowding at TC.
I don't want to be packed like sardine.
And I have some sort of feeling that 'he' will be there too.
No point bumping into him and ruin my mood.
DUHHH......
No matter how, friends will be always better than bf.
They will be angry at me, no doubts, but at least they won't leave me.
That's why I love them!
Sobsss....
You guys are the best!


1 more thing.
My mum made a stupid joke that night.
You see, my new room will be facing the back road.
She says that my boyfriend will serenade songs with a guitar for me next time.
Why must parents approve a relationship after I broke up???!!!
Arrrgghhh....
Nevermind.....
Find another then...
Lolss...


Wednesday, September 30, 2009

School starts = Patheticness starts

I wanted to blog about my trip at Genting.
But my time is so limited.
Even if I start writing, I'll blah so much that I won't stop writing about it!
Anyways, I shrieked, screamed and shouted my lungs out there.
We did quite some stupid things that I feel so lucky no one I knew were there at that time.
We were such jokers!!!
But one thing that pleased me most was I let out all my frustration there.
(I'll look silly shouting for no reasons at Kuantan. Duhhh.....)
And I did some bird-watching. = P
The male type!
Hahaha.....
Quite some good looking ones were working there.
We had to queue up for those rides.
Might as well take a good glance of hot males.
Woohoo~~~!!!
Sweet!!!!
It was quite costly though......
However, it's worth it.
It'll be better if I go there 2 or 3 years earlier.
It'll be much more fun.

Done with my fun rides.
Now........... School started.
Everything turned gloomy.
In the sense that,
1) I have to wake up early in the morning
2) I have to go for tuitions
3) Loads of homework stacking up waiting for me to do
4) etc etc etc = P

Worst of all, I have to see Him at school
That's the one thing I hate to confront with!
I'm so waiting forward for next year
Then I'll be as happy as a lark~~!!!
Anyways, my laziness haven't go away.
I'm still that lazy Joanne Lee.
There's nothing to motivate me!!!!!
And I'm sooooooo dead for my year end test.
I hardly do anything at school.
The only thing I did was scribble some dumb things on my note.
And sleep sometimes.
(This school makes me drowsy and hungry always)
I don't know what's wrong with this school.
Some sort of spell maybe......
Can't wait for Friday to approach.
Cause Saturday is the Mid-Autumm Festival.
And we've planned so many things to celebrate that day.
Party at my new house!!!
Woohoo~~~!!!
Wonder what we'll do.
No lights.....
Maybe it'll be quite romantic.
But there's nothing romantic cause it'll be all girls.
I bet it'll be quite a horny night for all of us!
Cause we are all horny!!!
Lolsss......

A bit long winded already
Blog other time then.....
It's been a long time I wrote this long.
I'm currently at Kemaman Kopitiam all by myself.
I look weird being alone with my laptop.
And sky is turning dark.
Better head home now.
Chaozzzz my blog~~~~!!!

p/s: This is specially for Bao. Don't be sad already. K? Just remember of the memories you had with MokMok. K???

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Joyous Holiday~!(1st day 21/9)

I finally had my very first trip to Genting!!!
Hurray~~~
Sounds impossible but YES!
It's my first time to Genting although 'saya orang Pahang'.
Anyways.....
Have to say thank you to my aunt who promised to bring me there.
And she really did.
Cause she knew I haven't been there and my parents will never ever bring me.
(My parents hate crowds. So...........)
We went there on the second day of Raya.
(No traffic. = P)
Took us 4 hours to reach Bukit Tinggi.
Oh ya, we stayed at Bukit Tinggi.
Upon reaching, our initial plan was to head to Genting.
But it was kinda late and we were quite tired too.
So..... We went for a walk around the compound.
And to our surprise..... We heard lapping of water!!!
First thing that comes in mind was.......
WATERFALL........!!!!!!!!!
Wakenabeb!!!
It was just a river with tiny water fall.
Ayways.... We had fun too.
We crossed the river on a rope.
Talking about phobia~~~
Walk against the flow of river.
It was cool, serene, relaxing....
And I'm too short =.=
My lower body was immersed in the water while it was just at knee level for Nick.
Sighhh..........
We played for quite some time.
We only headed back when the sky started to turn dark.
Forget to talk on this!!
When we reached our apartment, it was so dirty!
(It's not our and it's been left alone for 1 year)
I had to clean the toilets.!!!
Nevermind....
As long as I had fun.
4 of us cramp in a room.
Nick, Sha, me and Mond.
It was funny cause the room's space was so limited.
Felt like packed sardine.
We were rushed to bed cause we'll be having an early kickstart the next morning.

Cheerssss.......!!!!

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Already Gone...

Tomorrow marks the third month after breaking with him.
Still need more time for everything.
Waiting for those feelings to fade away.
Waiting for those memories to be erased.

Don't want to start any relationship this year!
All the 'sheeps' seems to be breaking up.
Afraid of it.

Anyways......
I'm not that desperate
Duhhh......
Ang mohs....
Woohoo....
*Syok sendiri-ing

Not cutting my hair anymore.
Yeah..!!!
Unless something hurt me really bad again.
Waiting for this year to end.
Then I'll be on cloud nine!!!

Cheers.... = )

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Shit man!!! I was DOOPED!!!

Damn!!!!
That so called handsome Chad Michael Murray was a bif fat stupid lie!!!
Arghhh...!!!!
I can't believe I falled for it!!!
AAHHHH!!!
OMG!!!!
It's like....
Goshh...!!!
Man!!!
What a liar!!!
So deceiving!!!!
That picture!!!
It was like heaven!!!
And now.....
Oh gosh.......
The truth finally reveal itself!!!
He is damn freaking U-G-L-Y!!!!!!!
Sighhh......
Damn it!!!!
Never judge a book by its cover anymore!!!
Especially if the cover itself doesn't belong to the book!!!!
Someone please kill me!!

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

A Blissful Wedding

With the bride and the groom.


It was a joyous occasion for the 10 of us.
We attended Sathia's sister's wedding.
(Thank You for inviting us!)
We had such a wonderful time that night.
But we took pictures most of the time.
Every corner, every space.....
We'll just "COME LET'S TAKE A PIC!"
It was also the first time we attend a wedding with friends.
We laughed, we joked......
We had loads of fun.
Sathia sister was very very pretty!!!
She looked like a film star with her dress and all the accessories!
And the food was magnificent!!!
It was so delicious that I over-ate that night!
My tummy bloated like a balloon!!!
Anyways, I don't mind!!
No cute guys around that night.
Don't have to care about image so much.
*giggles!!!*


The 4 of Us!!!!

Modeling for the car~~

10 naughty, notorious brats!!!

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Happy Birthday Jenny!!!!

Woohoo...!!!!
Someone finally turned 18 already!!!!
We are officially teenagers cum adult!!
Had a birthday party for Jenny on Friday.
I spent my whole day doing all the preperation.
"Jenny, you owe me a big time!!"
We planned to make a bra look-a-like cake for her.
Which I failed to do so.
Sobzzz........
End up being 2 lollipops look-a-like cake.
Prepared some pizzas and apple pies too.
And cupcakes!!!!
That's the 1 thing to be proud of.
*giggles!*
Most of the former 5J students came.
Miss those days.....
When we were all together.
Sighhhh......
Anyways, we all had fun that night.
Went to TC with WeeShean and Jonathan after that.
It was around 11.30pm.
And it was fun!!!
We even purposely sang sad break up songs to those couples sitting by the beach.
*Evil laugh!*
Went home around 1am.
1st time being out so late with my friends.
= )
Love you guys!!!

Went for yc session with Bao and David just now.
Ah Lai join us minutes later.
Joker man!!!!
Two of them are as naughty as usual!!!
Bad boys!!!

Birthday gal!! Wooo~~~

Kissy kissy.

Us + Jonathan

Friends 4ever!

7 7 7 7 7

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Steaming Hot Hot Hot!!!

A few pictures from our steamboat gathering.
I only upload those naughty pictures here.
Hahaha...
We are all influenced by TM's and Bao's horni-ness.
That's why most of our pictures are rather.....

You'll get the idea after seeing those pictures.

Decipher this. *clue> cantonese
The "ham" gang!

Decipher this too. *clue> cantonese

=.= Mr horny as the beast.


9 6 7. Only we know!!! *giggles

His majesty
Just the 3 of us!!
Jenny Amy Joanne

p/s: tq bao n justin for helping me to reformat my laptop. sobs... terharu...

Monday, August 24, 2009

For Pete Sake!!!

Damn!
My laptop broke down!!!
Shit man!!!
Anyways,
Will update yesterday's steamboat gathering other time = (
And today's lunch t.t
Sobsss........
My pictures!!!!
Ahhh...!!!!


One more thing.
It seems that this year is a bad luck year for kambings!
That's why everyone is breaking up!
Seriously!!!
Anyways, maybe it's a good ending for us all.
But most of us can't let go.
Sighhh....
Just let time to erase those memories..


p/s: These two days lavish meals really spoilt my diet plan!!!!

Monday, August 17, 2009

Sobs.... Loneliness

Another friend went to KL to further their studies....
Sobssss.... (Bye SuYi!)
Everyone left already except for us who will be stranded in that stupid school for another year
Urghhh....
Pathetic!!!!!
Stupid school!!!
I really feel like cursing the school
How idiotic can that school be??!!!
Arghh....!!!!!
I REGRET DIDN'T FURTHER MY STUDIES AT TAYLOR'S!!!
Damn it!!!
Nevermind.....
At least my lunatic friends accompany me.
Exam started today.
Quite easy in the sense that we had done those questions at our tuition centre
So.... Couldn't answer 1 or 2 questions cause those totally slip right out of my mind.
Don't have to study!!!
That's the only happy part.
Quite boring listening to those teachers mumbling their way to teach us.
Ohhh.....
We'll be having a 'grand meal' on Monday!!!
Thanks to ShengYik.
Hahahaha....
And congrats on your success in Public Speaking.
1 thousand bucks!!!
No joke man!!!!
Today marks the second month after breaking up with him.
Feelings: Much better. (Much much much much better)
Thanks to my friends..
Sobsss.... You guys are the best.
New life ahead!!!
WooHoo.......!!!!!

Monday, August 10, 2009

SMK Air Putih Librarian Installation and Farewell Nite 2009

Saturday was a fully-scheduled day for me.
What a hectic day!!!
Kick start my day by helping my mum with her charity thing at St. Thomas.
Rushed back home and took a quick bath.
Packed my bag and shoot off to tuition.
After tuition, changed my bag and went and pick KitCheong up.
Headed straight to Vistana.
Reach there around 5.30pm.
Well.... I felt quite boring that time.
They were having fun splashing each other with water.
I can't blend in with them cause I'm the eldest there and it look weird for me to join in suddenly.
Waited for WeeShean and SinYee to arrive.
We chit chat a little while waiting for Pn. Yap tp arrive.
But unfortunately, we couldn't wait any longer.
SinYee had to rush back for dinner and I had to rush for my 2nd tuition.
Promised them will be back to the hotel after my tuition.
So.... Clock striked 10pm.
Went and pick up WeeShean and headed to Vistana.
Boy!! Am I a reckless driver.
Drove like nobody's business.
My parking freaked WeeShean a little.
Hahaha.... Sorry girl.
Met up with KerLee there.
We were in time to see the ending part.
Goshhh.... I nearly fainted on the spot after seeing the last performance.
And I think the hotel workers had great pleasure laughing at that performance.
It was a draw-dropping moment!
So horrible!!!
We spent the next hour taking loads and loads and loads of pictures
But I'm lazy to upload it here.
Went home quite late.
A little nagging from my mum....
Biasa la tu.
That day was tiring but hell fun!!!!!


Pn. Yap, Form 5 pps and us 3 seniors!
Sighh.... Pn. Yap asked WeeShean and KerLee about me and him. They told Pn. Yap that we broke up. Pn. Yap said 'That's better'. Hahaha.... Ended!!!!!! For real!!!!!
p/s: WeeShean, congrats!!!! Find me 1 as good as ur 'soon-to-be' bf!!!

Home Quarantine

Had been quite sick last week.
I had all the symptoms of H1N1.
Except for coughing.
Flu, headache, bodyache, fever....etc etc
You name it, I had it all.
Freaked my parents a little.
Was so deadly sick.
I skipped school for 3 days in a row.
Was quite happy the first day.
Then it turned to nothing but boredom.
I watch so many CDs.
Listened to so many songs.
Played with the dogs.
But didn't study at all.
Hahaahaa....
Such a lazy bumb.
Who cares...??
Though exam is just around the corner. (like I care...)
Now, I'm as fit as a fiddle.
But my mum is still kinda worried about the whole H1N1 thingy.
What to do...
Over-protective.
Anyways,
That disease spread quite fast.
Sometimes I wish to get this sickness.
Then I'll die and leave this pathetic world.
But that will be totally dumb.
Well........
Getting this sickness is like winning lucky draw or something like that.
Almost impossible to happen (on me).

Friday, July 31, 2009

Where do I go from here?
This isn't where I intended to be.
I had it all
You believed in me
I believed in you
Certainties disappeared
What can I do for my dreams to survive?
How do I keep all my passions alive
As I used to do
Deep in my heart I'm concealing
Things that I've been longing to say
Scare to confess what I'm feeling.
Frightened you'll slip away...........

Flashes Of Lights

Went for yc sessions with OKU at OldTown.

Farewell for SinHui @ OKA.

I went there half an hour earlier.

So pathetic.

I sat there alone.

Beside the place where he and I sat last time.

I practically stared at that seat the whole time.

Memories of him kept flashing back

Although he only brought me there once.

But it was so clear as if it just happened yesterday.

Felt the pain.... So deep....

I stopped thinking of him only when the vacant seat was occupied

Well.... Life goes on....

All Smiles : )


Tuesday, July 28, 2009

I'm Such A Naughty Girl

Hahahahahaha........
I'm at school right now
With my baby(laptop) around.
And so happen a shop nearby has wireless.
And I so happen manage to 'solve' their 'mistery' password
And there's many jokers around me keep 'harrassing' me!!!!!
Shit man those guys!!!
I've found my internet source!!!!!!!
Yippeeeeee.............!!!!!!!!
That's all.
Nothing much to say.
Adiozzz........
P/S: Kids, bring your labbie to school next time. There's wireless. Hooraysss.....!!!

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Goodbyesss..........

Alyssa went to America yesterday.
Reached this morning.
I'm gonna miss her t.t
Nobody to tease me anymore.
Sighhh.........
Alyssa, find me a mat salleh boyfriend : P
Ahhhh!!!!
I'm all alone now!
Ahhhhh!!!!

Weekly Update

Well......
I lost my source of internet
Damn....
I'll have to pile up eveything in a post now.
Very well....
Here it is.

Saturday.
Nothing much happened.
Went for my MUET tuition.
teacher read to us a Band 6 writing.
It was a jaw-dropping moment.
Those phrases they used.
Man!!! Their vocab were superb.
"We acknowledge our flaws and try to conceal them"
The nicest phrase I ever heard.
"Glimpse of vision"
Wow...!!!
I'll never be able to write like that.
I felt like my essay were so childish till the point that I feel like tearing it off.
L B4. Sad man!!!!

Sunday.
Jess came back.
Woohoo...........!!!!
Headed for banana leaf rice for lunch ( She craved for that for a very long time)
And we were very disappointed with the food.
It was rather unappetizing.
A bit degraded.
Urrgghh.....
HA!!
And my task of the day was to fetch my sis to wherever she wanna go.
She was on the phone.
So... I had to drive.
And she happily told her friend that I'm her chauffeur
Instead of calling me a taxi driver =.=
Oh..
And that was the day I ate the most.
Ate like a horse.
Not that I eat in a barn.
But as in I ate a lot.
And it was hell nice.
Watch Ice Age 3 with Jess at night
That show was superb.
"Eggward, Shelly and Yoko"
Hahaha... it was a blast. (SS-ing)

Monday.
My very first guitar lesson.
Hooray.......!!!!
Seeing those artist plucking their guitar make me wanna learn too.
Look cool but damn pain!!!
Dahlah jari pendek!
Sighh....
I even had a blister because of it *sobs*
But it was fun, no doubt.
Well.... Practice makes perfect : )

Tuesday.
Jess went back KL.
That means I'm home alone-ing again.
Sighh.... What a sad case.
Had the most valuable lesson in my life.
Teacher had an open discussion "Money or Love"
Most of us chose Love.
To our surprise, teacher chose Money.
She told us that we have to be realistic in our life.
Which is true.
Is time for me to wake up.
It's better to have money.
At least we can have love when we have money.
On the other hand, we will lose Love if don't have money.
So true....

Wednesday.
Went for movie with A2 students.
We skipped our PBSM.
Like we care...
lalala....
Watched Harry Potter.
Well.....
I'm not a fan of Harry Potter.
Nothing interesting for me............
And that horny porny was late!!!
Causing YiBien to be late too cause she was in his car.

Thursday & Friday.
Somehow, these 2 days were lucky days for us.
KerLee and I bumped into that cute guy.
Awww~~~~~
He's so cute!!!!!
Gosh.....
Look like a younger version of Hans Isaac.
Lol!!!!

Had quite some fun this week.
Hoping for more excitement next week

Cheers...

Friday, July 17, 2009

The Sun Will Come Out, Tomorrow....

It's been a month now since the day we broke up.
To be honest, I can't let him go.
Everytime bumping into him at school hurts so bad.
I even have the intention to change school
Just so that I won't have any chances to see him anymore.
Felt like a total stranger with him.
Never talk, never smile....
Don't know how to face this harsh reality.
But I know I have to.
Cause he's not loving me anymore.
I don't know why he can forget everything just like that.
But I can't
I'm waiting for time to pass
Hoping that time will fade those feelings away.
Every day, every hour, every minute, every second....
Is a torture for me.
I am strong
But ain't strong enough for this.
All I can do is hold back my feelings.
There's much more to explore in this life.
Including my love life.
When will I manage to erase this piece of memory from my mind??
It's a big fat lie if I say I don't love him anymore.
Felt like a knife stabbed in my heart.
I can't tell him 'I love U'
Nor can I tell him 'I miss U'....

Monday, July 13, 2009

Saturday Fever...

11/7

I started off my day in a quite embarrassing way.
Sighhh.....
It was so so so embarrassing till the point I feel like digging a hole and bury myself.
Went to school around 8am for PBSM activities.
And had lots of fun.
Learn to tie knots and stuff.
Everything went well.
Until....
The time when we were learning to deal with casualties.
1st attempt to carry the 'dummy' failed.
When we tried the second time......
Damn!!!!
Muscle cramp!!!!
It was so damn freaking pain.
Nearly all of the seniors helped in easing off my cramp.
I nearly shrieked out loud.
But I didn't
Cause it's already embarrassing enough
Maybe I did shout a little
But in a slightly softer way
Everyone paused on what they were doing and the attention was all on me.
I apologized to them.. OF COURSE!!!

Went for sushi with them girls in the afternoon.
You'll get the point after seeing those pictures.
And it's a early birthday celebration for WeeShean.
So....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEESHEAN!


















Happy Birthday WeeShean~~
There's this cute Form 4 guy.
Hahaha....
This is so fun.
What an enjoyable way to go through my miserable days.
Muahahaha....