Brainless jerk

I can't believe I have such neighbours.
Go round complaining about my dogs.
Think my dogs are like yours?
As dumb as the owner!
Come on! Use your brain a little.
We have dogs because we want them to bark at strangers.
Unlike yours! Dumb like hell. Whole day eat sleep eat sleep.

Use your common sense a little, willya?
Pissed me off man!
Those kids were playing firecracker noisily.
Even noisier than my dogs.
Why didn't you complain about them?!
Cause you're just a big fat jerk with a useless brain and a stinky mouth!
You even poisoned my dogs before.
Is human like you create so much problems to the society.
You know many Datuk's'. So..??
Does that mean you can be bossy?
Bullshits!

You think you can do whatever you like?
You burn your rubbish in your own compound and you think that won't affect others?
Don't you know open burning is prohibited??!!!
We hardly complain about it.
Why don't you complain yourself about this?
Since you're so good at complaining others!
The weather is already hot enough.
And you're adding more heat to the environment.
Don't you think you're very selfish, idiotic, and problematic??
So highly educated for what?!
You didn't even use your brain.
Maybe you don't have one!
Loser!
Feel like spanking you and slap you gao gao!

You just make me wanna move out of here faster.
you're elder than me. So what?
Don't even dare to think my mum can be easily bullied.
I'm gonna scald you with hot water, peel off your skin, chop you into millions of pieces and feed to stray dogs!
I will never respect people like you.
You don't deserve to be respected!

4 Hours!

I can't believe I made it.
But ya... I did it!
Studying for 4 hours a day.
Yippeeee....
It felt so great!
Tried to study more than 4 hours but couldn't take it.
Cause I wasn't in my comfort zone.
Had to sit on the floor for 4 hours!
My leg cramped like 4 or 5 times.
Was at my new house.
It's like my studying heaven.
No entertainment or whatsoever.
Just a radio accompanying me for that 4 hours.

Did something really stupid today.
Told my mum not to buy a new set of tv. >.<
It's for my own good actually.
Cause without television and internet, I'll definitely study no matter how many hours it'll take.
Somehow, I felt the pleasure of studying.
Gonna crank my books again later.
And... Going for more tuitions!
Yay...
Loading myself with lots and lots of homeworks and tuitions.
Love this kind of life.

p/s: I didn't mean to be that evil. But I couldn't help it! *MUAHAHA!*

I'm Perfectly Fine!

Pay RM80 for a medical check up.
Boy that's expensive!
Kinda embarrassing to be 'checked' by my own uncle.
If it's someone whom I don't know, maybe it'll be less awkward.
Anyway, I'm healthy.
The whole fainting thing might be because of over fatigue.

STPM result was announced yesterday.
Saw mixture of emotions.
Some were devastated. Some was happy.
Some were smiling of joy. Some were sobbing of sadness.
There's disappointments, overwhelmed, surprised....
Really salute those seniors who get good results.
Wonder how they arrange their timetable.
Wanna be like them.
Don't wanna be like those who cried or disappointed.
Well, gonna take my studies seriously now.
Since I don't have any 'distractions' = P

I think I'm kinda wicked and bad in a sense that
I'm a little happy to know some bad news about the people whom I dislike.
Well, it's human's nature.
Or should I say... "It serves him right!"
Hahaha...

In a year time, my juniors will be doing the same thing as I'm doing now.
I'm the 'kiasu' type of people.
So... I'll study hard... And I mean it!

Geezzz...

Going for medical check up later.
Crossing my fingers = P
Hope there's nothing serious about the whole fainting.
Create such a big fuss because of a faint.
Parents can be over protective.
But in a good way...

Accomplishments

For as long as I've lived in this world, I hardly accomplish things that will make me proud of myself. It pops up in my mind now that I've failed so much in so many things. My studies ain't superb. My love life went down the drain. Is like there's nothing for me to be happy of. I was once happy 2 years ago thinking I've found my soul mate. To think back on those things, just made me realised that it was by far the worst decision I've ever made. Ignoring parents advices not to do so and so... And I've done those things that the word 'regret' can no longer be used in my situation. There are times when I wish I could just go back to the past and switch everything back to normal. But that's way beyond imagination. I know I shouldn't talk about this topic anymore. It happened ages ago. And the reason why I'm doing so is to rethink, reevaluate on those mistakes that I've done.

For some, it may be as easy as a snap. For others, it may not. Though those passion ain't there anymore and I don't have any feelings on that issue anymore ( thank God!) It's still part of me cause it happened once upon a time. It's like history. Digging out your past to pace a better future. What matters now is future. I don't mind what people say about me. It's their freedom and I can't seal their lips and stop them from talking bad about me. Just let it be and take them as a guideline to view on myself. They might be right about me in certain situation. Who knows? Everyone has their flaws and imperfections. Imagine the whole world is full of people who are flawless. There'll be no one to be compared to. No healthy competition. How dull would life be? And for those people who think they are really that good, look into the mirror! Look at your own reflection! And look into your inner self. Do you grow this pretty to be so cocky??

I'm born this way. Who do I blame to look this way? My parents? Or myself? Although sometimes I push the responsibilities to my parents, but deep in my heart I knew I couldn't blame anyone, except for those with big mouths. It is up to me to change myself for the better. I don't mind looking the way I am right now. I do have my own flaws. So..?? Does that gives you an eyesore? If yes, then I'm sorry I couldn't help much about that. If not, why don't you just get lost or jump into the deep blue sea. Who are you to give a statement about me? Do I know you that much? No! So..?? What's the problem with you? You think it's funny to pick on other people's flaws? Try to stand in other people's shoes and feel how awful it is to be teased by others.

These people really pissed me off. But they give me the will to make myself a better person. They just make me wanna prove to them how wrong they are and regret of what they say to me. At least by that time I'll leave a better impression to others. Someday I'm gonna write a big 'L' on their foreheads. Losers! I'm so gonna bring you guys down! You are so dead! Idiots!

If I manage to do that. Ha! That will be the biggest accomplishment in my life. Another 2 years or so... Boy, I can't wait for it.

Tumble Down

Exam started this morning.
Guess what?!
I was late for my exam = P
I didn't do it on purpose. Of course!
Fainted at home this morning.
Sighh...
What's wrong with me!!!

Woke up as usual around 6am.
Was a little dizzy at that moment.
Never thought much about that.
Went behind to open back door so I can boil a kettle of water.
Felt something wrong when I carried the kettle.
Boy... Dizzy like mad.
My whole body went from normal to super cold.
Then it went damn hot and cold again.
My legs were unable to sustain my weight anymore.
Slowly kneel down and lay on the wall.
Doze off for a while
Was subconscious at that moment.
Can feel the heat and the coldness alternating.
Was sweating and shivering...
Lay there for around 5 minutes or so..
Went to my mum's room and told her I''m not going to school.
Head to my bed and fell asleep.

Woke up around 8am.
Was feeling a lot better.
Mum was about to lecture me again for skipping school.
(I didn't go to school yesterday = P )
Explained the whole story to her.
Quite shocked at first.
Not knowing why I fainted...
She fetched me to school around 9am.
Manage to answer only 5 maths questions.
Sighhh...
Didn't had the mood to continue even though the teacher is willing to give me extra time.
Most of my friends asked why I'm late.
They thought I overslept...
Hahaha...
"Fainted larhhh..."
Some of the teacher asked too.
My form teacher even called my phone number.
Too bad I was sleeping...
Didn't notice my phone was ringing.
Ohh... My friends called me too.
Sorry for wasting you guys credits..
Really appreciated their concerns.
Thanks guys...

I was as fit as a fiddle in school.
Nothing went wrong.
I'm just glad I didn't faint in school.
SO EMBARRASSING!!!

Burpss...

Less than 24 hours before my tests...
What am I doing?
Blogging... Obviously!

Studied a while just now.
Cause I had to teach my friend.
And I'm so sorry...
I couldn't teach much cause I wasn't prepared.
Didn't do any revision at all!!!
Joanne Lee!!! You are 1 lazy bug!!!
I can't help it!!!!

Oo.. And I have a side income now = D
RM30 per trip. All I have to do is collect cheques and bank them.
Went to dad's friend's house last night.
Remind me! Never go to dadd'y friend's house anymore.
I was bored to death and not to mention those stinky men with their cigarrettes!
Ewww... Disgusting!
And dumb Arron!!! Message tak reply!
Teruk man!

S-I-C-K!

I don't know should I be happy or not to be sick right now.
Happy because I wasn't sick during cny.
Gloomy because I am sick and exam is in 2 days time.
Haha! Haven't touch a single book or flip a single page.
(Only on Archie comics = P )
I'm a goner for sure.
I can imagine all of my papers will be fully scribbled with red pens.
Mostly crosses and a few ticks. T.T
I know I should be studying right now.
But....
Sick brings my mood down.
And my bad moods made me lazier.
Then, my laziness brought fatigue..
Conclusion, I'm too tired to study.
Lamest excuse in the entire universe.
Ahhhh...!!!
And the weather is freaking HOT!

Will be skipping tomorrow's class.
Do I look like I bother?? No..!!!
Gawddd... All I'm thinking now is tuitions, classes, homeworks, tests....
Thinking those stuffs give me goosebumps.
And I thought the only thing that will give me goosebumps is ghost.
Sighh...
Nightmare man...

Can I end my life??
So dull and boring..

I need a vacation... Or vacationS...
I want my new house!!
Why is it so hard to pick a sofa???
Is that so hard??!!
Kill Me!

Raw-mance

"Must find a guy who appreciates you. Don't cry for a guy who doesn't appreciate you"
Yun's mum advice...

Haha... Even my mum doesn't say this kind of thing to me
(cause my mummy doesn't know I WAS in a relationship before. = P)

I won't cry for such a loser.

Most of my friends will be leaving today
Sighhh.... Really miss them a lot.

June and Sa had a wonderful cny even though they weren't here.
Sa had her very first white cny. How nice...
June celebrated with her housemates..
How I wish to visit them!!!
Just so happen that my STPM clashes with all the important dates.
Now I couldn't visit all the 'worlds' that June promised to bring me.
Have to wait until that exam over...
*grumble grumble grumble*

The Man Who Can't Be Moved....

Currently addicted to this song and Breakeven.
Haha! Thanks to June's MP3 which constantly repeating these songs.
Really crazy over these songs.
Kinda addicted to them like D's song.
I appreciate good songs.. Can't help resisting it.

Anyways, just finished my 'rob all my friends house' CNY celebration.
= P
Was extremely exhausted!
We went from one house to another.
And I wore that 'don't know how many inches' heels.
Kills my feet to death!
Well.... Tomorrow will be the last day I'll be wearing that heels.
Gonna go back to normal on Sunday.
No more torturing myself...

A week time flew by so quickly.
So fast till I didn't really make full use of it.
And the dumb dumb test is just around the corner.
Looks like I'll flunk my acc paper again. As usual!
Kinda reluctant to go back to school
After all the fun I had for the past few days...
NoNoNo....!!!!
Feel like skipping school lessons

Hmm... A week... I didn't see him in a week!
Joker man..!
But not so into him anymore.
Somehow, the 'anti-guy' feeling is back.
After looking, listening, experiencing....
Urghh.... Gives me a shiver whenever I think of guys.
Right now, guys will be the last thing I need in my life.
No point getting myself into serious trouble.
And not to mention the heartache that I probably might have to encounter.

Weather is extremely hot right now!
Man! I seriously need an aircond!
Feel like moving in to my new house!
Everyone had been asking me
And I can't answer their question too...
I desperately wants to move in too!!!

O gawdddddd....

Falala~~

Finally had space to breathe!!
So freaking busy
With all the baking, cleaning, tuitions.... etc etc.
I can't believe I survived this week.

Talking about tuition...
Damnnnnn.....
Now I seriously hate my own name!
Teacher called my name twice this week!!!
And how lucky am I to wear those colour T's.
The next time I 'kena' again, I'm so going naked!
And I want to change my name!
It's too easy to be remembered!

Went shopping just now.
Bought my dream heels!!!
Yipesss...!!!
Thankiu Jie~~~
Early birthday present!
As in super early!
Love it!

3 cuts

Don't know what went wrong with me.
Till now, I had 3 cuts on my hands.
Clumsy like mad....

Yesterday's tuition.
Happy.....
For some particular reason. = P
If every Tuesday was like yesterday.
I'll be on cloud nines.

Noticed it for the second week already.
Maybe it's just a coincidence.
Kept thinking about it for some time now.

Joanne lee, you jus survived after being buried underground for 2 miserable years.
Don't dig another hole yourself, willya?
Don't fall for chinese.
NO!!!!

p/s: Imagination drives me crazy!

Febuary~~~~

Lazy to update my life anymore.
Know why??
Cause I'm too buzy being lazy = )
Besides, there's lots of 'rubbish' to do.
Including the new house.
When can I move in???!!!

New year is just around the corner.
Can't wait for it!
Though this year's new year will be a little dull.
1st year celebrating cny without Alyssa t.t
June won't be around too.... So is Amabel...
Some say this year is my year.
Cause it's tiger year..
I know... Lame joke!
Some of my friends had been roaring whenever they see me.
Jokers!

Have I changed?
Hmm... A little.
Changing my fierce side.
Hard larh weihhhh....
Attitude wise... Hahaha.... Seriously changed a lot.
But I'm not the only one changed.
But who cares..
As long as I'm having fun.
And that's all it matters.

p/s: Jokers out there, don't simply add my sis as your friend. Willya? Only my BFF and relatives can. Don't ngada ngada want to be friend friend... It's ANNOYING!