You Can't Always Get What You Want

Hmm... I changed my mind.
I don't like him that much after all.
Not until when Sha gave me those comments.
He's an ideal boyfriend.
But still... Nah...~~
I better start forgetting about everything.
Thinking about it makes me feel silly now. Dumb right!!
Never mind.
I learnt my lesson.
He's too old for me anyway... { console myself = ( }
Talking about fate.
I saw him on the road.
Just like that! What kind of coincidence is this!
Sigh...
Jojo, don't think too much anymore.

Talking about thinking too much
Damn I feel like slaughtering someone!
Is guys like him make me wanna chop them all off!
Come on!
If you wanna let go of someone, just let her go!
Why dilly dally and fool her around??
Don't you have any senses??
Better don't mention him.
I feel like slapping him after hearing what he did!
p/s: not 3883!

I miss my friends very much recently.
Don't know why...
Maybe they always lend me a shoulder to lean on.
Someone I can rely on.
Aren't they better than a bf??
= )
Love you guys.
Be back a.s.a.p.

I'll Be A Fool For U!

Sigh...
Maybe I think too much.
I just embarrassed myself in front of him!
Now he knew all the silly things I posted on fb.
How dumb am I?! Very!!
Why on earth he check out on my profile??
And I still don't understand how he manage to view those status I posted.
We don't have any mutual friends!
I don't get it!
Arghh...
Man... Such a disgrace!
And he only told me right after I gave him cake!
Gosh... How terasa will he be??
Sigh...
I don't want him to know my feelings towards him!
But now, he knew everything!
He read every single post since March till now!
Damn...
Feel like digging a hole and bury my head in it!
Why am I so stupid?!
Surely he'll avoid me now.
And I'm avoiding him too.
This is really a lifetime embarrassment!

Happiness...

= )
I'm so so so so happy these few days.
From the first day I know his name.
Everyday he'll call.
Talking to him on phone is fun.
Shocked me a little when I knew his age.
But it's okay, I guess.
Anyway, I won't think too far.
Being with him now is good enough already.

<3 K!

Suhweeeet.....~!

Ha! I went out of school early today.
Reason was simple.
I don't sit for any papers today but I want my attendance for the day.
So, I told my mum I wanna head back home earlier.
She picked me up around 10.20am.
Accompanied her to bank for a while and went and bought lunch.
Just yesterday the girl who did facial for me told me not to eat too much of oily stuff.
And the stall we went to, believe me, their food are kinda oily for my condition now.
So, I told my mum 'No'.
She went on to buy her lunch and I told her I'll find my own lunch later.
And in my mind, all I think of was the vegetarian shop.
Main purpose was to meet him. = P
Went there around 11am.
First glimpse was to look into that corner shop.
Sigh, he wasn't there.
So I drove off and went straight home.

Around 12pm my tummy started growling.
Thought of going to that vegetarian shop again.
This time, no matter he's there or not, I must buy my lunch or I'll be in deep hunger.
And to my surprise, he's there.
Parked my car by the side. (Already knew he's in there somewhere but dare not look in!)
The funny part was, when I was about to get down from the car, he stood right at the corridor.
As if he's waiting for me to come down ( maybe I perasan a little bit)
Anyways, said 'Hi' to him as usual and went in the vegetarian shop.
When I put my tiffin carrier on the counter top, I saw him walking approaching the stall beside me.
I was like... Come on! Seriously?!
I continued choosing the dishes that I want.
Just before I started leaving, had a little conversation with him.
It felt like as if I'm about to have a heart attack!
My heart were beater at a much higher rate, beyond normal.
It was the first time being so close to him.
To my surprise, his body doesn't have a slight smell of cigarette smoke.
I know, I'm crazy sniffing on other people scent!
And the best part was, I finally know his name.
It even shocked me when he asked my phone number!
Of course I gave.
I would be a dumb ass if I didn't give him.
But I didn't have any nerve left to ask for his number.
Asking his name was already too nerve wrecking for me!

Well, that's that.
And I'm more than happy it happened today.
Glad that I skipped classes today.

= )