Bye Bye 2009, Hello 2010

Ow boy, 2010 is just around the corner. And I'm so excited!!
Have been waiting for this day for ages!
Well, as usual, we'll be celebrating our new year with Nick's family.
Cause it's his birthday on 1st of Jan.
Lucky boy!!
But there's a slight diffrence this year.
Of course I will not be sobbing throughout the night like the past 2 years.
Instead, I'll be hooray-ing and shouting with my gangs.
This is gonna be so fun!!!
A little plan changed.
So... Mega will be the spot for us to usher in 2010.

Now, the problem is, what present should I buy for Nick?
It's always tough to buy a present for a guy.
I mean... What do guys like??
Girls of course!
I wish I could find him a girlfriend and stuff her in a present.
Taadaa... Hahaha...
I can imagine my aunt holding a pan in her hand chasing me around.
Ouch!
*giggles
I won't have the nerve to do that.
Maybe few more years from now. = P
Well, will just browse around the mall later.
Hopefully I'll find something for him.
If not... Forget it!
I'll just bake him a cake.
Hahaha...
I know. Cheapskate rite?

Hmm... school will reopen soon.
Soooo reluctant to go.
Gosh...
Skip school on the first day??
My wicked mind is so overpowering my weaker side~

Yesterday was the hardest night for me to fall asleep.
I crave for porridge, toufu and cabbage.
Hahaha... I know I'm silly to think of that.
But I couldn't help it!!

Well well, will be making new steps tomorrow.
Dad promise to buy a shoe for us. Finally!
Had been mumbling him for months!

D played new songs~~
Yeah!!!
Here come's the craze again!

New Year Resolutions

Haha...
There's tons of resolutions accumulated for the past few years.
And many of them slip right off my mind.
I think it's time to really work things out.
And AIM them.

1) 'Overhaul' myself = P
Many dissatisfaction about myself.
Will do something about it.
We'll see... *giggles*

2) Seek forgiveness.
Mostly from my family.
Had a really bad year, experienced serious mood swings.
Which affected my parents a lot, cause of my attitude.
I'm sorry... Couldn't help holding back those heartaches.
And I resorted to release my anger towards my family.
My friends,
If you guys are reading this, just to let you guys know I'm terribly sorry.
KerLee, ShiYun, Bao, WeeShean, Jen, etc etc...
I've been a terrible friend this year
And I'm sorry if I've offended you guys.
For all the quarrel and dispute we had, I'm sorry!

3) Change my attitude.
This is the most challenging of all.
I can't help it.
It's who I am.
But I'll change.
Will stop all the loud laughing and shouting.
Be more gentle (crossing my fingers!)
If I still can't change,
Well.... It'll be in my 2011 new year resolution list. Again!

4) Try to stay away/avoid love.
Of course I can't stop myself from falling in love.
But, even if I do fall in love with someone,
I will not show any sign of it or tell anyone.
Maybe only my besties will know.
But I have much more bigger problem with my psychology now.
I better solve that first before venturing into a new relationship.

5) Vacations!!!
Australia will be the first on my list.
New York will be second.
Hopefully I'll be able to go to these 2 places.
And hopefully my STPM doesn't clash with my sis's graduation.
Otherwise.........
Don't wanna think about it!

Hope to have a great year in 2010.
Joanne, 2 more days and the spell will break!!!
Bare with it!!

Something Stupid Call Love

Well, it's been half a year now.
And I'm still alive!
Lols...
Being single ain't that bad after all
Just a little sobbing occasionally.

Something troubled me these few days.
Seek help from Bao and A
I'll take it as a joke or prank
Anything it is...
I really hate that sort of feeling
'A' had been helping me out a lot.
Thanks to him.
What he commented was something that will not happen.
I mean 'he' wouldn't miss me.
And if really have 'xin shi' to tell me,
he should have find other people right??

Somehow I wish my heart will break evenly
Too bad it doesn't
Most of it went to him.
I hope it'll come back.

I can't deny that I don't love him anymore.
Just that he doesn't belong to me
And I have no rights to do anything.
Just taking everything easy.
No frust....
No whatsoever

I'll allow my mind to run wild these few days.
And maybe get back normal during new year.
Maybe my love will come back to me
Only heaven knows~

=P

Missing him for another 6 more days and that's it!

Malacca Trip... Or Should I Say, Unlucky Trip?

Went to Malacca on Thursday. Man.... I'm really that unlucky when it comes to travelling. Upon reaching Malacca, a heavy downpour invited us with open arms. It didn't rain as heavy earlier. I was like..... Am I the unluckiest person in the world or what?? I'm so not fated to be a traveller this year. Everywhere I go, it'll definitely rain! But it's okay. Cause next year will reach in a few more days time = )

Reach Malacca around 2.30pm. I'm so not gonna sit that bus company anymore...!!! So idiot. They brought us to this kampung toilet where there's only 2 available toilets out of 4. And the worst part is.... It's dark, it stinks and there's a big hole at the door. A person walk pass can just peep into the hole and see you doing business. I complained it to A.

A : Nice maa....
J : Nice??!!! U go try la!!
A : Hehe... I nevermind... I guy ma....

=.= Arggghhh.... Complained to the wrong person. Didn't do much on the first day. Just hang out with my cousins and my cousins' cousin, Denise. What a chicky girl...!! But she's cute. Oh ya, we had santa claus that night. There were christmas carolling and I had so much fun. Dancing and fooling around with the santa claus. And not forgetting those cute looking guys..!!! *Drool!* Manage to take a picture with the 'young and damn freaking light' santa claus. = P Massaged with A at night. So happen he's on vacation too. That fella really knows how to make people laugh. And he owes me 2 A's'. So gonna 'sayang' him!!!

Second day, went around Dataran Pahlawan Mall. Met up with WeeShean there. So miss her T.T Hehehe.... Nothing great, nothing cheap. Walk out of the mall within an hour. Took picture at a few historic places. It was in the history book but I forgot what's the name of those places. ( I dumb my history knowledge during form 5)
Went to Jonker Street after that. It was still bright. Not much stalls at that time. But we still manage to get some souvenirs. And luckily we did! Went there again at night. It was raining cats and dogs!!! We hardly able to look thoroughly. But we still manage to eat the famous laksa! Yummmooo....

Third day which is today. And it's still raining. Somehow I felt that it rained because of me. Like... I brought the rain to Malacca. Which ruined my trip T.T Well... Everything is fated.

And I'm mad of that dumb bus driver. Stupid!!! He didn't know the way to reach bus station!!! How dumb dumb is that??!! June and I was very happy to see th EC Mall sign. Cause it's quite near to the bus station already. Then.... the bus driver went straight instead of turning right. Dungu!!! He drove all the way and turned into 'San Tai Zi'. I and my sis kept grumbling. We were like... 'What the heck he's driving into this housing area. He later U-turned out and on the main road again. And he nearly made another wrong exit!!! Stupid!!! Luckily a girl pointed the way to the bus station for him. And we reached safely!!! STUPIDEST BUS DRIVER I EVER MET!!!! Mom said we should consider lucky we reach kuantan.

Yes!

Finally.... I've got back my internet access.
So... Little updates.
Actually not that little but kinda lazy to type everything down.

First of all, June reached Malaysia! Sweet! Shopped around KL. Thanks to Jess. And her driving.... Urghh....It's a good thing I didn't eat much that morning. Otherwise I'll throw up and stink the whole car. Eww~~ *giggles*

So... Brought June to EC Mall. The only new thing in Kuantan. What do you expect?! This is Kuantan. Nothing much to see. She got bored quite fast. So... We'll be heading to Malacca tomorrow.Hell know where she wants to go next week. She couldn't stay firm...

1 thing had been bugging me these few days! Went for movie with Jen and Bao. Damn..!!! I was so pissed off, angry, furious of the people I saw. They surely know the perfect timing to ruin my mood!!! Went to TC after that. Gosh.... He's friends!!! I feel like digging a hole in the sand and bury myself, suffocating to death!!!! That's how I felt! That's how annoying it is to see someone I hated deeply!! Damn..... Arghhhh.....~~~!!!!!!

It's raining again. Hopefully it'll not rain in Malacca. I want to go to Jonker Street!! Crossing my fingers!

Sweet!

Mum had been rushing up and down yesterday. Because of June's return from Australia. We were quite disappointed in the beginning when she told us that she won't be able to come back for 2010 CNY. But now, she says she can come back for a month from next week onwards. So.... Mum have to check the net, check for dates, change her flight, add extra money.... etc etc etc.

At first, she told mum that she will be fine even though she can't come back. After much persuasion from mum, she decided to come back. Hahaha... She lied to my mum! But for a good cause. She said that she'll have friends to accompany her cause she worries mum had to fork out more money and arrange time to pick her up from KL. After mum said that its okey and don't mind paying the extra cost, she blah out everything. If she doesn't come back to Malaysia, she'll be ALONE. All her roommates are coming back. Silly girl! Mum don't mind about money. What worries mum is her safety. By the way, mum don't have to pay a single dollar for her studies. That's why mum is allows her to come back every year.

Will be going down to KL next Wednesday. Thought of shopping around on Thursday. Looks like we have to change plans. Have to pick June up at 3.30pm. Hmmm... Very well, shop other time then.... Hopefully dad allows us to spend another extra night. Boy..!! Can't wait for it. But somehow I have a feeling that June will not have time to buy goodies for me T.T it's a little too rushing for her. Ahh well, next year then.. HooHoo... Going to Australia~~ Lalala....

Hmm... Mum thought of moving in to the new house earlier. Since we're having an extra worker and extra pair of hands(June!) Giggles... But definitely we couldn't make it in time to move in before christmas. Cause the iron grill just finish installed yesterday, finally! Mum will be choosing the lightings today. Hopefully it'll be done by next week. Owh, must go Ikea during this trip. I must lay my hands on those cute cookie cutters. Mum promised! Yeah... Finally able to make my very own gingerbread man. And must shop aroung for ingredients. Cause Kuantan is so 'cha' in the sense that, you will never find or get the things that you want.

Christmas is just around the corner. Will be baking with June till my oven burst into flame! = ) Had copied many recipes from the net to try them out. Hopefully they work. HoHoHo... Merry christmas! Dashing through the snow~ Sigh.. Malaysia no snow XD

Hard Decisions...

My mind had been wondering around for the past few days.
Not knowing what I'm thinking.
Everything sort of pop out at the same time.
Makes me strain my mind for nothing.
In the end, I couldn't come to any decision.
Having sleepless nights because of that.

I want to go for hols.
Somewhere out of here.
I'm sick of tuitions already!

Hmm... Digging out all of my fav. movies during my childhood.
Gonna watch Edward Scissorhands..