Where do I go from here?

This isn't where I intended to be.

I had it all

You believed in me

I believed in you

Certainties disappeared

What can I do for my dreams to survive?

How do I keep all my passions alive

As I used to do

Deep in my heart I'm concealing

Things that I've been longing to say

Scare to confess what I'm feeling.

Frightened you'll slip away...........

Flashes Of Lights

Went for yc sessions with OKU at OldTown.

Farewell for SinHui @ OKA.

I went there half an hour earlier.

So pathetic.

I sat there alone.

Beside the place where he and I sat last time.

I practically stared at that seat the whole time.

Memories of him kept flashing back

Although he only brought me there once.

But it was so clear as if it just happened yesterday.

Felt the pain.... So deep....

I stopped thinking of him only when the vacant seat was occupied

Well.... Life goes on....

All Smiles : )

I'm Such A Naughty Girl

Hahahahahaha........

I'm at school right now

With my baby(laptop) around.

And so happen a shop nearby has wireless.

And I so happen manage to 'solve' their 'mistery' password

And there's many jokers around me keep 'harrassing' me!!!!!

Shit man those guys!!!

I've found my internet source!!!!!!!

Yippeeeeee.............!!!!!!!!

That's all.

Nothing much to say.

Adiozzz........

P/S: Kids, bring your labbie to school next time. There's wireless. Hooraysss.....!!!

Goodbyesss..........

Alyssa went to America yesterday.

Reached this morning.

I'm gonna miss her t.t

Nobody to tease me anymore.

Sighhh.........

Alyssa, find me a mat salleh boyfriend : P

Ahhhh!!!!

I'm all alone now!

Ahhhhh!!!!

Weekly Update

Well......

I lost my source of internet

Damn....

I'll have to pile up eveything in a post now.

Very well....

Here it is.

Saturday.
Nothing much happened.
Went for my MUET tuition.
teacher read to us a Band 6 writing.
It was a jaw-dropping moment.
Those phrases they used.
Man!!! Their vocab were superb.
"We acknowledge our flaws and try to conceal them"
The nicest phrase I ever heard.
"Glimpse of vision"
Wow...!!!
I'll never be able to write like that.
I felt like my essay were so childish till the point that I feel like tearing it off.
L B4. Sad man!!!!

Sunday.
Jess came back.
Woohoo...........!!!!
Headed for banana leaf rice for lunch ( She craved for that for a very long time)
And we were very disappointed with the food.
It was rather unappetizing.
A bit degraded.
Urrgghh.....
HA!!
And my task of the day was to fetch my sis to wherever she wanna go.
She was on the phone.
So... I had to drive.
And she happily told her friend that I'm her chauffeur
Instead of calling me a taxi driver =.=
Oh..
And that was the day I ate the most.
Ate like a horse.
Not that I eat in a barn.
But as in I ate a lot.
And it was hell nice.
Watch Ice Age 3 with Jess at night
That show was superb.
"Eggward, Shelly and Yoko"
Hahaha... it was a blast. (SS-ing)

Monday.
My very first guitar lesson.
Hooray.......!!!!
Seeing those artist plucking their guitar make me wanna learn too.
Look cool but damn pain!!!
Dahlah jari pendek!
Sighh....
I even had a blister because of it *sobs*
But it was fun, no doubt.
Well.... Practice makes perfect : )

Tuesday.
Jess went back KL.
That means I'm home alone-ing again.
Sighh.... What a sad case.
Had the most valuable lesson in my life.
Teacher had an open discussion "Money or Love"
Most of us chose Love.
To our surprise, teacher chose Money.
She told us that we have to be realistic in our life.
Which is true.
Is time for me to wake up.
It's better to have money.
At least we can have love when we have money.
On the other hand, we will lose Love if don't have money.
So true....

Wednesday.
Went for movie with A2 students.
We skipped our PBSM.
Like we care...
lalala....
Watched Harry Potter.
Well.....
I'm not a fan of Harry Potter.
Nothing interesting for me............
And that horny porny was late!!!
Causing YiBien to be late too cause she was in his car.

Thursday & Friday.
Somehow, these 2 days were lucky days for us.
KerLee and I bumped into that cute guy.
Awww~~~~~
He's so cute!!!!!
Gosh.....
Look like a younger version of Hans Isaac.
Lol!!!!

Had quite some fun this week.

Hoping for more excitement next week

Cheers...

The Sun Will Come Out, Tomorrow....

It's been a month now since the day we broke up.

To be honest, I can't let him go.

Everytime bumping into him at school hurts so bad.

I even have the intention to change school

Just so that I won't have any chances to see him anymore.

Felt like a total stranger with him.

Never talk, never smile....

Don't know how to face this harsh reality.

But I know I have to.

Cause he's not loving me anymore.

I don't know why he can forget everything just like that.

But I can't

I'm waiting for time to pass

Hoping that time will fade those feelings away.

Every day, every hour, every minute, every second....

Is a torture for me.

I am strong

But ain't strong enough for this.

All I can do is hold back my feelings.

There's much more to explore in this life.

Including my love life.

When will I manage to erase this piece of memory from my mind??

It's a big fat lie if I say I don't love him anymore.

Felt like a knife stabbed in my heart.

I can't tell him 'I love U'

Nor can I tell him 'I miss U'....

Saturday Fever...

11/7

I started off my day in a quite embarrassing way.
Sighhh.....
It was so so so embarrassing till the point I feel like digging a hole and bury myself.
Went to school around 8am for PBSM activities.
And had lots of fun.
Learn to tie knots and stuff.
Everything went well.
Until....
The time when we were learning to deal with casualties.
1st attempt to carry the 'dummy' failed.
When we tried the second time......
Damn!!!!
Muscle cramp!!!!
It was so damn freaking pain.
Nearly all of the seniors helped in easing off my cramp.
I nearly shrieked out loud.
But I didn't
Cause it's already embarrassing enough
Maybe I did shout a little
But in a slightly softer way
Everyone paused on what they were doing and the attention was all on me.
I apologized to them.. OF COURSE!!!

Went for sushi with them girls in the afternoon.
You'll get the point after seeing those pictures.
And it's a early birthday celebration for WeeShean.
So....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEESHEAN!

Happy Birthday WeeShean~~

There's this cute Form 4 guy.

Hahaha....

This is so fun.

What an enjoyable way to go through my miserable days.

Muahahaha....

My Limelight

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!

He's so darn hot!!!

Control Joanne.....

I can't!!!!

Ahhhhh............!!!!!!!

He reminds me of Chad Micheal Murray!!!!

Steady man!!!

Control control control!!!!

He makes me drool....

Okey, that might sound a little bit disgusting.

But......

Who cares??!!

Although its a bit too good to be true

Don't wake me up from this sweet reality = )

When Dark Images Forge

Today's school was quite fun.
In the sense that we did a little ice-breaking session.
Conducted by Pn. Azizah, our PA teacher.
And.... All kinds of weird names pop out.
Though we had a little difficulty in memorizing those names.
(Teacher tested on us! =.=)
And now, I have another new nickname.
Thanks to those malay boys.
Syukur started it first during our meeting at Kelab Keusahawan.
And now that naughty Khairi spread the words around!
(L6A4 students will know. Don't want to tell out here. Hahaha...)
My kids will laugh at this when they grow up.

Oh ya, and we taught those malay boys chinese.
It was so damn freaking funny.
Khairi, Firdaus, Asnawi and Putra was so keen to learn.
So we taught them a few simple words.
Which tickle my tummy to the bone when they say those words.
Their pronunciation were so weird till the point that we lost out of ideas to teach them.
We didn't teach them anything bad of course.
Though I wanted to. *giggles

Today is Amuthan's birthday too.
And his sweetheart bought a cake for him.
Green Tea Cake.
That totally brought my mood down.
And just reminds me of him.
Those flashbacks hurt so bad that its very obvious that I'm not in a good mood.
Kept thinking of him.
Which I'm trying not to do so.
Felt really awful.
Every bite of the cake is a torturing moment.
Kills me deep.

Tew Tew found his sweetheart, I guess...
But he denies it. As usual....
Will be gossiping about him from tomorrow onward.
= )

Crossed fingers all the way back from school.
Don't know why I did that.

Special shoutout: Happy Birthday June Lee Chelyn on 28/6. Faster come back from Aussie next year! And don't bring back H1N1. Lols...