Bake To Baking!

Exam ended!!!!! *hoorays X100!*
And yes I finally started to bake!!
CUPCAKES!!
Will think of baking other stuff from now on.
Cause I seriously hate my frosting!!!
I'll do some other things!!!
Christmas is just around the corner!
I'll bake a christmas tree and yule log tomorrow!
Yay!!!

Miss Out!

Have to write another post cause I forgot to upload some pictures.
Dumb right?
Here are the pictures for today's celebration
I'm too lazy to write.
Till here..........

The Birthday Gurl~!

I baked these!! Believe it??

Aren't these the cutest??!!

I finally manage to get my frosting right!

Soooooooooo happy!

Surprise Surprise~!

Had loads of fun today!!!

We celebrated yun's birthday (though it's a bit too late)

We woke up like.... 6.30am!!

Haha... Cause we thought that she's going for gym in the morning.

But she didn't!!

Anyways, we couldn't manage this without the help of her brother!

Ya! Zhen planned it out for us so that our wicked plan works! (naughty naughty!)

We crashed into her room while she's still super blur.

Just in case you guys can't imagine the way she look,

Fret not!

We recorded it!!! (I know! We're BAD!)

Last Day of School

Oh yeah it's the last day!!!
Too bad I still have to sit for my exam.
I guess it's not the last day for me.
Well, 1 more month to go and I'll get total freedom!
Muahahaha.............

Getting rid of this uniform!!!

Quiche

I know... I should concentrate on my studies now.
And not day dreaming about food...
But I couldn't resist it!!!
So yeah... I baked XD
Hahaha....
Seriously, I have to stop baking!!!!
The funny part is my parents didn't stop me from doing so!
All they say was "You still have time to do these?"
Are they hinting me not to bake??
Well, they should've tell me straight to my face.
Or maybe lock me in the room whole day and serve me my meals so that I'm not allowed to step out of my room.
Something like detention.

Argggghhhhhh.........
Fine....!! I'll study tonight!
By hook or by crook!!!
I must study!!!!
Books, please love me.
I know you love me...
Me and you have a special bond, right?

I present...... Q.U.I.C.H.E. = )

Say AHHHHH!

Looks like everyone is stressed by exams.

Yeah... I'm one of them.

And like everyone else, I wish this would end fast!

Well, nothing comes easy.

STPM, I love you as much as I hate you!

Get it? XD

The scent of freedom!

Ooohhhh......................

A Minute

A minute ago I thought I've found my long lost friend.
Browsing through her photos to seek for confirmation.
When I confirmed that it was her, all I can say is "I'm too late"
I was shocked to see her fb wall full of messages with RIP
I can't believe this.
I was so happy that I've finally found her after years of searching.
And now I am so devastated by this news.
It was just hours ago when she left this world.
I still can't believe that it's actually her.

The cheeky girl who sat next to me for 2 years during maths and english tuitions.
We goofed around and had loads of fun together.
She's the one who made friends with me when I'm alone.
I really missed her.
How much I wish she's still alive.
I never had a chance to talk to her for these few years.
And I never would.

RIP Shan, I miss you

Guess I'm Right

Seeeee!!!!

All guys are alike!

Mark my words

Whether they're handsome or ugly, rich or poor, tall or short.

They are all ALIKE!

All the sweet talks turned into white lies

All the promises are brushed away like yesterday's dandruff

Can't they be more responsible towards their relationships??

Or the problem is with us girls??

Oh brother, whatever it is, it's none of my business!

Know why?

Cause I don't believe in true love anymore

Happily ever after?

BLAH!

Let's just keep that sentence for fairy tale.

We all know well enough that it'll not happen in real like.

Some say I'm turning into a men-hater.

I might...

Who knows?

SHOUT IT OUT!

Look! I don't know what went wrong with me lately.

Those dreams are really killing me!!!

I seriously hate people whom I dislike constantly popping on my mind.

I know this is a 'long long time ago' story.

But I just couldn't help it!

My brain isn't functioning the way I want it to work.

Gosh..........

Are there any prescription or medication to forget a person???

I'm an absent-minded person.

Why can't I forget about the people I wanted to put out of my mind!

It's so annoying and I hate to blog about this topic!!!

But somehow I have to find a way to blah everything out cause this had been bothering me for days!

And I can't stand it!!!

I need help.

I don't want this to interfere my life...

Move on ain't an easy decision to make.

I've chose to move on but.......

This is a nuisance/ disturbance/ irritant in my life!!

Please get out of my mind...

All I want is a little peace!

I don't want to be bothered by this problem.

I don't want a tear to bring me down.

I don't want my feelings to be all tangled up.

p/s: In my dictionary, there's no such word for FOREVER!

Kiwi Cream Cheese Tarts

Oh yeah I finally baked these tarts!
Damn I feel so good now!
After postponing it for almost a month.....
It's quite simple actually.
Just mix, bake, pour and garnish.
And I tried using the mini tart tins that I just bought yesterday.
Gonna buy more tomorrow.
It's so darn cute and cheap!!!
I coated the inner part of the tarts so that it wont turn soggy when I put the cream cheese in.
And I end up with extra melted chocolate which I eventually poured it into the tiny shells.
So... Ta-da~ Chocolate tarts!
Have extra cheese now
Hmmm.... What's next??
Cheese cake!!!!
Yipes~!

The Accidental Chocolate Tarts

Flower Kiwi~

These are the tiny ones!

The midium size. ( I'm too lazy to cut the Kiwi!)

Playboy version XD ( I used cookie cutters)

Here's the recipe!

Base:

250 g unsalted butter

80 g icing sugar

1 egg

440 g all purpose flour

Cream Cheese Filling:

250 g cream cheese

80 g icing sugar

Lemon/Orange rind

Lemon/Orange juice (I use half an orange)

1) Mix the flour with sugar.

2) Add in butter and use rub-in method till it resemble bread crumbs

3) Add in the egg and knead till it becomes a dough

4) If it's too soft, put the dough into the fridge so that the dough hardens a little

5) Mould the dough into the tart tins. Use a toothpick to prick the dough and bake for 15-20 mins (depends on your tarts' size) at 180 degree celcius.

As for the filling, cream the cream cheese till it soft. Add in the icing sugar and beat again with a hand mixer or a beater. Finally, add in orange/lemon rinds and the juice. The filling should look like curd.

I didn't have any lemon at home.

I used orange instead.

But the taste is still marvelous!

Another Craze~

Oh boy.... Can't wait for Christmas!!!
The season to be merry~~
Having sugar cookies in my mind!
Now i'm crazy over these cute little edible babies!
Ahhhh~~~~
Waiting for that day!
STPM, please over a.s.a.p.
I can't stand YOU anymore!!!

By the way, attended a malay wedding yesterday.
Saw Pahang Tengku Muda's wife.
Oh so pretty!!!!!
She's so gorgeous and elegent of course!!
The whole event was rather boring.
The only interesting part was the handsome pianist ♥
And the singer who sang anuar zain's song.
Woooo...........
Nice~!

If I Die Young

Ever wonder what you'll do if one day you died??

People, if I die young, please remember me.

And I'll always love you guys ♥

Special People

Keeping you in my mind is the one thing that'll I'll always do
Everything you've help me for these 9 years
Reaching out for me when no one else could
Lending me your ears to listen all my upsets
Encouraging me whenever I'm down
Each and every thing you've done for me, I APPRECIATE it lots!

You're like a sister to me for you've shared so many wonders with me
Under the same rainbow we've went through life's happiest and toughest moments
Now is the time for me to say that I LOVE you

Being your friend has gotta be the most joyful thing that happen in my life
All the laughters and cheers you've brought not just to me but all of us
Opening your chirpy side is what makes you so SPECIAL to us

Sharing our life's bittersweet is what we do
Holding up for each other whenever we're crashing down
Enduring all those heart wrenching moments together bonds us even closer
After what've we've been through all these years
Need not me to say how IMPORTANT you are in my life.

Jaunty as you are that makes me smile whenever you're around
Each time you show us your cheeky side will bring a grin on everyone's lips
No others can be who you are for you are such a LOVABLE person.

Tanjung Jara Resort Trip

I finally had my wish!!!!
Manage to escape the hustle and bustle of life. (I seriously need a little peace!)
Took in lots and lots of sunshine and fresh air.
I'm not that satisfied cause it's too short and the food wasn't as good as I expect it to be.
We spent less than 24 hours there and not to mention my embarrassing moment.
I fainted in the gym room...
my dad and sis have to carry me out.
Lucky no one was around.
Just a housekeeper who so happen passing by that area.
And another bruise on my knee after knocking onto something which I don't know what it is, obviously!
Anyways.... I still enjoyed the day.
At least I get what I wished.
Though what I write here sounds boring, but believe me, it's relaxing and soothing!
The whole environment was so serene and all you hear is the wave crushing on the shore.
The light breeze that blows and kisses softly on your cheek.
No worries or what-so-ever.
You'll be pampered during the whole trip.
The best part was the people there are super friendly and you'll get royalty treatment.
They serve your every need!
All I did was eat, sleep, eat, sleep...............
Yeah I gained weight.
But I don't bother.
I'm not starving myself at such a situation.

Paradise~~!!! Ahhh....

The reception.

Beach! No crowds~ Me likey~

On the hammock~! Slept there for 10 minutes cause no one was around!

Overall, I released all my problems and burdens there.

Time to work hard, Jo!

Wowsers!

I know it's bad to gossip.
But if it'll make me laugh, why not??
At least it'll kill my boredom.
And update myself with the latest and juiciest news of course!

*winks*

Baby ♥

I was digging through some old pictures at my Friendster profile.
And look what I've found!
Pictures of baby Jerry.
It is almost four years now since we've first took care of him.
Back then, he was just slightly larger than our palm.
Can imagine how tiny he is?
Oh he's such a baby.
We pamper him a lot.
And he still acts like a baby whenever he's with us though he's an old dog now.
But he's just too adorable.
You'll never get mad of him.

Jess gave him this stuffed toy to play with.

See his short leg and tiny body. Don't suit his big head = P

Look at his sweet smile! = )



So baby. His teeth were growing back then...

Jerry hardly visits us anymore.

Partly because we have our own dog already (Same species with Jerry)

But I still misses him.

We took care of him since he was a baby.

There's a special bond between us.

Shattered Dreams..

Owh great...
My neighbour is not moving in tomorrow.
And there goes my purpose to bake.
Well... I have to wait some other time then.

Thanks to those pesky mosquitoes!!!
Annoying blood-sucking monsters!!
Insect dracula.
Humphhhhhh............

Tartsie = )

Finally!!! It's weekend again!
I've been looking forward for this weekend long long long time ago.
That's the only time I can do what I like most.
And what makes me happier than BAKING!!
I had search lots of recipes online.
Having tarts in my mind whole week.

Ooooooo...........
Can't wait for tomorrow.
Will be baking blueberry cheese tarts, kiwi cheese tarts,
And my very own new creations.....
Read bean/green bean/black glutinous rice tarts with coconut pastry cream as filling.
I've tried to seach whether anyone had thess same wild ideas in the internet.
Too bad no one make them before.
So I guess I'm the first silly person to do these desserts.
Hopefully it works.
I might even add green tea powder in the red bean tarts.
Green tea and red bean goes well together, Right??

I thought of these new recipes because I have tight budget.
Yes I do love baking but if the ingredients are so expensive.
Why waste so much of my time and effort when I can buy them with the same price outside?
So.... It pops out in my mind.
I'll use something that I can get anywhere and super cheap!
I can get red beans, green beans and black glutinous rice at any supermarket.
And it's super affordable compared to fresh fruits like kiwi, strawberry or blueberry.
And in country like Malaysia, these fruits are under the luxurious list as these fruits cost RM10 or more per 250grams.
I know.... It's so pricy~!
As for the filling, I'll use fresh coconut milk.
Mark my word, FRESH!
This is the advantage living in a small town area.
I can buy fresh coconut milk or coconut shred easily from a sundry shop.
And at a very very cheap price.
RM1 each for a very large amount. ( I'll take some pictures tomorrow)
If compared to cream cheese......... cheese are way more costly!

As for the result, I have to wait for tomorrow till I bake those babies.
I've baked blueberry cheese tarts before.
And it's so freaking yummy!
I hope my new creations are as good as the cheese tarts. *crossing my fingers*

I'll upload some pictures tomorrow.
Hope that it'll be a successful day tomorrow.
Pray hard~~ = )

Love Changes Everything

True... Love does change everything.
As in everything...
Just had a talk with one of my old friend.
We talk much.
Mostly on my past relationship and his present relationship.
This conversation brought back bits and bits of memories.
Of course I'm a little sad now.
Knowing what I've sacrificed ain't appreciated.
And how dumb I am to do this and that for him.
Sigh....
Do regret a lot.
But, what can I do now?
A word REGRET will not turn back time.
It's a lesson meant to be learnt.
Though it may seem so hard to evercome,
at least I know I've managed to hold myself better now.
I admit I've sobbed my way through many nights.
But it makes me a stronger person now.
Physically and mentally.

Remember,
Though a tear may be ever so near,
Must always think of the good thing ahead.
Though the sky may turn dark,
There'll be a brighter day moments later.

Overweight!

Hmm....
I think I should start cutting down on snacks and desserts.
My sweet tooth is causing my weight to increase!
Bulging tummy, big bum bum, flappy arms....
Sigh....
My waistline had disappeared.
My face looked like it's swollen.
Looking back on my older pictures makes me go OMG!!!!

Besides that, I can't get my proper meal on time.
Breakfast at 10.45am (usually I'll eat secretly before that time cause I'm terribly hungry!)
Then I have to wait till 2.30pm for my lunch. (thanks to my school!!)
When it's dinner time, I'll be either still to full or I have to wait till very late before I eat.
(I prefer to skip my dinner cause it's pretty unhealthy to eat after 8pm)
But I always end up with growling tummy and snacks is the best way to solve my problem.
That's why it's hard for me to choose between to eat or not to supper.
I always choose to eat as I couldn't stand starving throughout the night.

And that's what contributes to my recent figure.
I know my problems but I couldn't solve them.
Have tried numerous times to diet but to no avail.
Many suggested different type of ways to cut down body weight.
You can even search it online and they're many outcomes with uncountable solutions.

But it only worked for few days as most of them involve longterm regiments.

Depending on individual, different approach will yield different results.

Well, there's always other options like liposuction, slimming tea or slimming programs.
But it's a little dangerous and of course will cost you a bundle.
If you're loaded and you're willing to take a risk,
By all mean, go on...
If you're the scaredycat type (like me!), try doing more exercise regularly and drink plenty of water!
I hope it works!!

p/s: It's almost midnight now. Waiting for my mask to dry.
I'm a green monster XD

The Cycle Of Love

When it comes to a situation where 'a boy likes a girl' or 'the girl had a crush on that boy' thingy,
Everything seems so simple.
You just accept that person into your life.
You see all of your partner's angelic side.
The charm, the look, the sweet smile, those dashing eyes, perfectly sculpted figure.
Everything that makes you go WOW WOW WOW!
You wish to be by their side no matter when or where.
The one you'll share your deepest secrets and whisper to them silently.
The one you'll wish to cuddle in their arms and listen to sound of waves crushing on the shore.

Well... This will not take long until you have your first fight/quarrel/disagreements etc etc.
And it'll take not long too to forgive your partner.
First time, yes...
But when things starts to run not as smoothly as you thought it will,
Everything turned upside down.
Then you'll begin to think.
Having flashbacks on what happened between the two of you.
You will find the flaws of your partner and your partner will think that you're the one should be blamed.
In the end, you guys will start pointing fingers at each other.
Picking up all the mistakes and making judgements.

Somehow, love turned into something ugly.
Hatred breaks those special bonds which once hold the two of you together strongly.
Anger starts to fill the minds of both of you.
When everything are unbearable, the perfect 'solution' was to break up.
The person you once cherished so so much in your life,
The one you'll sacrifice for,
The one you'll protect from all danger and harm,
Now seems so unpleasant, so intolerable....
From friends to lovers and now enemies.

Cute Little Things

I finally baked!
After resisting for 2 weeks cause of my trials, I finally did it!
And I'm so proud of myself till I feel like crying. *sobs*
It's my first time baking these little babies.
It's a success and the cake. *Voila~*
The only problem was with the frosting.
Gosh... It was so freaking sweet!!
I wonder how those westerners eat their cupcakes.
The recipe even call for GENEROUS AMOUNT!
Anyways, I have to improvise my recipe now.
Was a little worried cause I used a recipe that I randomly picked online.
Luckily it turned out to be good.
Better than what I had in mind.!!

Woohoo~~~~~
I'll be baking them again next week for neighbours house warming.

This looks like a sushi box! I don't know why XD!

These are with sprinkles. I couldn't find anything nicer than these though it's not that nice!

I wanted to use chocolate shaves. But I ran out of time. Ended up with chocolate chips and chocolate rice

♥

These are just with normal frosting. Damn they look so good but it's so SWEEEEET!

These are without any frosting on! They taste perfect just the way they are. In fact, the frosting covered it's chocolaty taste!

I just love to bake!

Ain't these the cutest XD

A Little Little!

Awesome! My trials ended yesterday!
Hip Hip!!!! Hoorayyy~~~!!!
I shouldn't be happy YET cause it's not my finals.
But at least I'm able to breathe a while, for pete's sake!
And I already knew some of my papers' results.
Well.... That's the price I get for not putting in any effort.
At least I passed.
Questions weren't very difficult.
Just that I can't seem to recall anything I learnt cause I never do any preparations and revisions.
Owh well... That's that.
I'll just have to concentrate on my studies MORE!
(I wish I could do that. *sigh*)

Ohhhh...!!!!!! I spotted another cute looking guy in my school.
Too bad he's younger than me.
It's not like I favour younger guys but guys who're same age with me seems.........
Better not write anything or else I might offend them.
Anywayssss............ He's cute!
AND.... I'll 'admire' him from a distance.
It'll be my last 2 months to be in this school.
Better make full use of it, right???
Geeeezz............. How time pass.
Feel so old now.
I'm gonna be 20 SOON!
I'm aging!!!!
Wait! I haven't even sit for my finals.
Why an I thinking so far ahead??? (Cause I'm a dreamer!)

Hmmm.... Thinking of baking.
My fingers are kinda itchy now.
It's hard to resist! (In my case!)
Feel like baking cupcakes.
Should I???
Maybe not......
Arghhh..... Bear with it Jo!!!
You can bake all you want by December!

6 more weeks to go before STPM starts.
Jo, you can do it!

Bad Start!

Ooo... My trials started off pretty bad.
Questions were rather hard and none of the tips were accurate.
Not even one!
Luckily I didn't study on the tips given.
It'll be a total waste of time.


Read on the newspaper today.
Am a little bit pissed off!
It's about a couple abusing their maid and even force her on a threesome with them.
Come on!!!
Think people, THINK!
How on earth there's people like them
Threesome is normal in some countries
But with your maid??!!
What happened to these people's senses???
What was running in their minds when they're 'doing' with a maid?
A maid??!!
I still can't believe it.
This society is turning into something bad, real bad!
They even physically abused her with belts and irons.
Damn these people are so so so immoral!


Had my retainers on for these few nights.
Man I was so happy when my mum passed me my box of retainers!
I thought I lost them when I moved into this house.
I searched everywhere but I just couldn't find them.
I even when back to my old house to search for it.
Anyways.... At least I have them now.
The bad thing is, it hurt so bad!!!
As in freaking pain!
I even have ulcer on my gum!
I've visited the dentist many times to fix it but still............

See the bling on my teeth!

Yea I can't close my mouth properly with my retainers in it =.=

Couldn't sleep last night. Ended up taking these pictures.
I know... I'm lame = P

Ignore my messy hair. It's 12 midnight and I'm not bothered on the way I look!

Trial

Tomorrow marks the first day for my trial.
And... I haven't touch any of my books!
I know... I'm that lazy.
But I really really really doesn't have the mood to study.
Studying have to depend on mood?
For my case, yea....
Gosh...
Kill me!!!!
I'll study later, maybe.
I don't know.... I have tough time to force myself to study.
It's the first time I totally ignored books during exam.
What's wrong with me??!!
Sigh...

I want to get good results for this trial.
Seriously!
But I ain't motivated to study at all.
I sucks!
Can anyone throw me to a river and just drown me to death?!

A month?

Hmm....

Missing him. Wonder what he's doing?

Posing in front of the shop? = P

"wondering where I am lost without you

And being a part ain't easy on this love affair

Two strangers learn to fall in love again

I get the joy of rediscovering you"

Cant stop missing u ♥ K ♥

Latest craze!

Ain't these the cutest!!!!
I'm so making these after my STPM!
They are so darn good looking and I hope they are delectable too = )
Owh I can't wait!

Cute to the max!

On The Go

Yeah... I'm writing on my blog again.
My fingers get itchy and I had loads of stuff to blah out.

Firstly, I bumped into him
But not in person.
Maybe I should put it this way.
I bumped into... HIS CAR XD
Gosh... I always get to see only his car.
I mean... Come on!
Can't I just see him in person!!!!!
Well.. Forget it!

And... I've been sitting in front of the laptop the whole day!
Brought out my mathematics homework.
I didn't even manage to finish 1 question!
Damn it!
Instead, I was browsing for recipes.
Had tons of recipes to try.
Sadly, I couldn't lay my hands on any of them right now.

Having many thoughts in my mind.
Wondering what to do, what to say...
I'm a little fed up with myself now.
Somehow I can't think straight (don't get me wrong. I'm not thinking anything dirty!)
Am I finding trouble?
My feelings are wearing me down.
Gosh... I think I screw up my life.
Please get out of my mind.
Can I get a short break?
Are there any heavenly island around?
Feel like lying on a hammock.
With the sea breeze blowing so gently...
Nothing but fresh air and wind.
Man I need to escape from this life for a while.

Who will know what future beholds?
Who will ensure there'll be a better tomorrow?
For every yesterdays we had experienced,
Never ever look back or regret, but learn!

Oooo..!!!! 1 important thing!
I thought of turning this into a food blog.
Just so that I can stop writing about 3883.
And of course it's my passion for baking too = P
Hmm....
Should I???

Hard Feelings

Sigh... I guess I really liked him.
I miss him...
Miss bumping into him.
Miss texting him.
Miss his voice.
Miss his midnight calls.
Eveything...
I miss everything about him.
And I can't get him out of my head.

Somehow I wished this works though I know it'll never.
Felt like texting him sometimes but I don't want him too feel like I'm falling heads over heels for him (although I am, obviously!)
Just that I hate this sort of feelings.
First, you gave me high hopes.
Then, you crush me flat.
I don't like it.
And I know I must get over with it.
Keep reminding myself "Forget him, Jo!"
But I can't!

My trials and finals are just around the corner
And I'm writing stupid stuff here instead of studying!
This is what happens everything I fall deep.
I need someone to pull me out.
Felt like been locked in a dark dungeon
Where you get to see a glimpse of light shining through a hole.
But no matter how hard you tried,
You can't grasp hold of it.

I need some program to reset my brain.
Suck out all the useless stuff that's driving me crazy!
I want a little peace in my mind.
And it seems like no matter how hard I tried, there's still something sprouting out of my head constantly reminds me of those things!
How am I suppose to concentrate??!!!

I'm really really really unsatisfied now!
I want everything to be the way I want!
I don't want to play by the rules of someone else's game!
Though I may sound selfish but I SERIOUSLY IN ALARMING SITUATION!
Found myself pretty weird nowadays.
I'm afraid of people.
I dislike hitting the malls cause I'm kinda 'crowd-phobia'
I rather listen to people complaints than to complain about my stuff.
Talk less makes me feel a bit out.
But my mouth is somehow partially glued.
And I hate people giving me weird stares.
(Though they are not but I somehow felt it that way)
I don't know...
I just feel weird myself.

Gimme a break!

You Can't Always Get What You Want

Hmm... I changed my mind.
I don't like him that much after all.
Not until when Sha gave me those comments.
He's an ideal boyfriend.
But still... Nah...~~
I better start forgetting about everything.
Thinking about it makes me feel silly now. Dumb right!!
Never mind.
I learnt my lesson.
He's too old for me anyway... { console myself = ( }
Talking about fate.
I saw him on the road.
Just like that! What kind of coincidence is this!
Sigh...
Jojo, don't think too much anymore.

Talking about thinking too much
Damn I feel like slaughtering someone!
Is guys like him make me wanna chop them all off!
Come on!
If you wanna let go of someone, just let her go!
Why dilly dally and fool her around??
Don't you have any senses??
Better don't mention him.
I feel like slapping him after hearing what he did!
p/s: not 3883!

I miss my friends very much recently.
Don't know why...
Maybe they always lend me a shoulder to lean on.
Someone I can rely on.
Aren't they better than a bf??
= )
Love you guys.
Be back a.s.a.p.

I'll Be A Fool For U!

Sigh...
Maybe I think too much.
I just embarrassed myself in front of him!
Now he knew all the silly things I posted on fb.
How dumb am I?! Very!!
Why on earth he check out on my profile??
And I still don't understand how he manage to view those status I posted.
We don't have any mutual friends!
I don't get it!
Arghh...
Man... Such a disgrace!
And he only told me right after I gave him cake!
Gosh... How terasa will he be??
Sigh...
I don't want him to know my feelings towards him!
But now, he knew everything!
He read every single post since March till now!
Damn...
Feel like digging a hole and bury my head in it!
Why am I so stupid?!
Surely he'll avoid me now.
And I'm avoiding him too.
This is really a lifetime embarrassment!

Happiness...

= )
I'm so so so so happy these few days.
From the first day I know his name.
Everyday he'll call.
Talking to him on phone is fun.
Shocked me a little when I knew his age.
But it's okay, I guess.
Anyway, I won't think too far.
Being with him now is good enough already.

<3 K!

Suhweeeet.....~!

Ha! I went out of school early today.
Reason was simple.
I don't sit for any papers today but I want my attendance for the day.
So, I told my mum I wanna head back home earlier.
She picked me up around 10.20am.
Accompanied her to bank for a while and went and bought lunch.
Just yesterday the girl who did facial for me told me not to eat too much of oily stuff.
And the stall we went to, believe me, their food are kinda oily for my condition now.
So, I told my mum 'No'.
She went on to buy her lunch and I told her I'll find my own lunch later.
And in my mind, all I think of was the vegetarian shop.
Main purpose was to meet him. = P
Went there around 11am.
First glimpse was to look into that corner shop.
Sigh, he wasn't there.
So I drove off and went straight home.

Around 12pm my tummy started growling.
Thought of going to that vegetarian shop again.
This time, no matter he's there or not, I must buy my lunch or I'll be in deep hunger.
And to my surprise, he's there.
Parked my car by the side. (Already knew he's in there somewhere but dare not look in!)
The funny part was, when I was about to get down from the car, he stood right at the corridor.
As if he's waiting for me to come down ( maybe I perasan a little bit)
Anyways, said 'Hi' to him as usual and went in the vegetarian shop.
When I put my tiffin carrier on the counter top, I saw him walking approaching the stall beside me.
I was like... Come on! Seriously?!
I continued choosing the dishes that I want.
Just before I started leaving, had a little conversation with him.
It felt like as if I'm about to have a heart attack!
My heart were beater at a much higher rate, beyond normal.
It was the first time being so close to him.
To my surprise, his body doesn't have a slight smell of cigarette smoke.
I know, I'm crazy sniffing on other people scent!
And the best part was, I finally know his name.
It even shocked me when he asked my phone number!
Of course I gave.
I would be a dumb ass if I didn't give him.
But I didn't have any nerve left to ask for his number.
Asking his name was already too nerve wrecking for me!

Well, that's that.
And I'm more than happy it happened today.
Glad that I skipped classes today.

= )

It's Just A Little Crush~

Currently at The Pawz.
Ate Sphaghetti Carbonara.
Yum~!!
Tried other food too.
At least better than 'Stesen Satu'
Yuck...
Disgusting!
Mashed potato made from powder! It's so obvious it's prepacked mash potato powder!

Many things happened recently.
And I'm glad I got nothing to do with it!
You can't imagine how intensed the situation is now.
You don't wanna ever get involved in it.
Cause you can't make up your mind whose side you should be.
Sigh.... = (

It's been almost 2 weeks now since I last seen 3883.
Miss him so much = )
You may think I'm silly.
I think I am too.
But I cant help it.
Just continue dreaming.
At least it's a sweet one.

Watched 'Music and Lyric' last night.
Damn... It's good!
The cause of me addicted to the song 'Way Back Into Love'
Nice~!

I missed this week's GLEE.
Missed many songs!
Luckily I have all of them already.
Yay...!

Missing him. = )

Satisfying Craze and Crave

Went for a gathering last nite at saffron ( cause kerlee and I craved for roti canai and burger badly! )
Purpose was to meet JianHow before he leaves Kuantan tomorrow.
As usual, crap and gossip were part of our conversation.
In fact, I don't think I ever had a conversation with friends without any crapping or gossiping!
Hmm... Human's nature = P
Had load of fun, seriously!
You can't imagine how loud, noisy and hard I laughed!
Wait...! Maybe you do know if you know me well!
Anyway, I laughed and laughed and laughed till my jaws felt like falling apart and tummy cramp!
Except for that part they tried to persuade me to watch a video with zombies ( or was it vampires? Whatever...!)
Apparently it was suppose to be funny and I should laugh
But...! The surrounding was to noisy to hear what the script was about.
It was changed from english to hokkien but I couldn't listen to a single thing and I'm too chickened after hearing those eerie spooky sound!
Overall, it was amusing.
We teased each other like we used too
Damn....! I miss those moments.
Owh... And yeah, KerLee managed to eat her roti canai and I manage to eat my burger!
And... I spotted a yellow STORM!
I kept checking out on that carplate and was at ease when I knew it wasn't him.
I never want him to see my laugh like a crazy girl for no reason.
How embarrassing would that be?!

Watched GLEE last night.
It was all about ballad.
Man... Those music were so beautiful and touching! ( Though I already heard all of them )
Songs like 'endless love', 'I'll stand by you' and 'lean on me'.
My oh my... I had goosebumps after listening to those songs!
Gosh... I love GLEE so much!
Their songs are so so so... I lost out of words!

My fringe!
I finally cut it!
And I look like a silly joker now!
Sobs... Have to bare for few weeks or probably months for it to grow longer.
Sigh...
Well, forget it!

Hmm... Kinda miss him.
Hope to 'bump' into him on friday!
= )

Heaven and Hell

I got a very big shock on sunday night.
I was having dinner with my parents at a restaurant.
As usual, I'll look at people everywhere I go.
Out of no where, I saw someone resembling him.
Not thinking much, I thought it's him.
To be honest, I was terrified to the max.
All I was thinking were "why is he here", "how can I be that unlucky" and things like that.
I didn't even dare to look up to take another look at him.
When I finally have the courage to do so, I looked up!
And so happen he was looking back at me.
I stared at him for few seconds and look down again.
I was so scared to see him.
I don't know what I'm scared of.
But that feeling of fear was all over me!
I kept repeating those questions in my head!
I really do hate that sort of feeling.
Then suddenly it came to my senses that that fella is not even in the peninsular of Malaysia!
So how on earth I can meet him here?!
It took all my guts to look to that direction again.
And I'm glad I did so!
It wasn't him!
Thank goodness sake!
The people around him wasn't his family members.
I stared a few times at him.
Damn! He look so alike him!
I'm so not returning to that restaurant again.
That second when I realise it wasn't him, it felt like someone pulling me out of hell.

Well, about 3883.
It started of with a single crush.
But I think I've went a little deeper.
It's beyond ordinary like.
I know it sounds weird to love a total stranger.
But... I can't help it.
It's so hard for me to resist.
I can't stop thinking of him.
Every single time I pass by that row of shop, it's a must for me to take a glimpse into the shop.
As if something is attracting.
It's hard to defy such gravity!
I know it's silly to like a guy without knowing anything about him.
Not even his name.
But I do fall head over heels when I sees him.
And everytime cars which resembles his pass by, I would check out the carplate and hoping is his.
I do get over-reacted sometimes!
Thinking of him brings smile on my face.
Brings joy to my life.

Happiness is around the corner.
Who knew thoughts will give so much delight in one's life

= P

Sayonara~

It's time to say goodbye to our seniors.
They'll be heading a whole new life else where.
Will miss them a little.
Hope they'll be fine there.

Just finished my acc paper test.
Gosh...
Feel like dropping my pen and leave the building that very instant.
It was so freaking tough!
Or maybe I'm not well prepared.
Never study, never do revision.
What kind of result do you expect!

It's Saturday again
Another week pass just like this.
Sigh...
Aren't there any exciting things happened?
World Cup?
Nah.... Not a fan of football.
Not after C. Ronaldo is out!
Owh.... Such good looking hunk should stay longer on the game! = P

Hungry right now. Pasar malam tonite!
Yesh....!

3883!

Awww.... I'm currently at old town!
Saw him here!
He waved at me!
Ahhh...
Hehehe...
Damn...
I'm on ecstacy now!
He's still sitting opposite of me!

= )

Should I?

Maybe I should start studying now.
Gosh... Im so lazy I feel like stranggling myself!
Why can't I put in more effort now?!
Is it that hard? Come on J!
Arghh...!!
Im so fed up with my own laziness!
Are there any medicines to cure this kind of sickness?
Sigh....

Mum is on the phone with my sis now.
Talking about my phone.
I got a feeling my sis will whack me when she's back.

T.T having mix emotions right now.
I need a dose of 'CHEER UP MOOD' medicine!

P/S: on diet plan = P

Aino = Oh No!

Lols.... That's my daddy's first reaction when the uncle told him the price of this phone. He bought it for me anyways :-) Im still kinda dumb dumb at using this phone. Stil not very used to it. But as long as I can go online with this phone, it suits me just fine.
Well, just had farewell party for our senior 2 days ago. It's always fun to be with them. This time we get to laugh as loud as we want cause it's at my house (tak yah jaga muka = p)

Having a bad flu right now. Having a runny nose. Nvm. I'll skip school tomorrow. Hehehe...

Saw 3883 car just now. Was tracking him but couldn't see him. Sigh... What a waste!

p/s: please don't tell out my stories in my blog. No fun having many people knowing about something
:-P

I Know....

Cheers! I'm gonna be a proud owner of SE AINO soon.
(Only if I don't regret it last minute)
I got a feeling that I will back out.
Sigh.........
It's just a phone!
Decide la Joanne Lee!!!!

Nothing much happened this few days.
Feel like a busybody during this holiday.
Especially about YM and KS stuff.
Hehehehe....
Hope they'll make it!!!
*Crossing my fingers!*
And as usual, complained lots of stuff to Yun.
So does she = P
Gossiped a lot about the people around us.
But it's the only way for us to release all our stress out, I guess.
Since we had so much problemos.
And not to mention we couldn't hang out as much as we used to.
Sigh... Miss those good old days!

My cousin Sha just broke up with her bf.
Feel sad for her.
Knows exactly the situation she's going through now.
Hard to move on, can't get over it and keep thinking of the sweet moments.
Ya... I went through that too.
Though it's hard but still it's a lesson learned.
Hope she can cope with it.
Seeing her post those sad stuff on fb do gives me a little heartache.
The exact same feelings when I broke up.
Kinda weird.
She broke up around the same week as I broke up last year.
Well, she'll do fine!
We came from the same family.
Our heart are trained to be as hard as steel!

Listening to Khalil Fong's songs.
Now I know why I friend went head over heels for him~
Superb!

JoJo will stop blogging from today onward.
Seriously can't blog anymore.
This time not because of internet access.
But I'm not having a laptop anymore.
Till I have my handphone = )

3883 ♥!

♥ 3883

I was devastated on this day last year.
But not today!
And not anymore~!

Actually kinda sad today
Not because of 'him' for goodness sake!
Haven't seen 3883 in 2 days.
Saw his car today = )
Was so so so so so so so so so so so so so so happy.
I'm extremely overjoyed!
But too bad couldn't see him in person.
Was a little disappointed = (

Well well....
People say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only 1

JoJo miss peeping him = P


3883 ♥

my 19th

Yay.... I'm officially 19.
Yeah.... 1 year older.
Nothing special today.
Though I wanted to meet him so much...
Feel like sms-ing him and say "Hey, today's my birthday!" = P

And today is also the day where chinese eats rice dumplings~
I forgot what's the occasion they eat dumplings = P
Anyway, I've waited for 18 years to reach this day.
My mom born me out on this exact same day 19 years ago.
She said she was eating rice dumpling when I was about to pop out.
My grandparents said that I'm very greedy and eager to come out to eat those dumplings.
Well.... I think I proved them wrong.
I don't fancy rice dumpling...

Hope JiaLi and WenNee are having a blast too cause we share the same birth day~

Thanks to KerLee's mother for preparing a delicious lunch for me.
Thanks to WeeShean for calling me even though it's late at night = )
Thanks to David for calling me for 15 times in the middle of the night! (Sorry for not answering)
Thanks to Bao for singing me birthday song all day long (As in WHOLE DAY~)
And thanks to the rest who wished me a very happy birthday.
Appreciate a lot...

I'll be making a wish tonight.
Wanna do it at 10.42pm~~
Crossing my fingers~ = )

♥

♥

Saw...........
Miss........
Satisfied.........

Hell I'm happy.
I'm smiling from cheek to cheek.
Though it's a short moment
But at least I get a sneak peek after 3 months!

Just realise I haven't updated my blog for a long time.....
I'm just too lazy.
Though I'm having holidays right now
But I'm still attending a minimum of 4 consecutive hours of tuition.
Hell true!!!!
Kinda miss those good old days when I really had holidays on HOLIDAYS~
Hello... This is so not holiday!
There's no space for me to breathe.
And I can't chuck in so many things into my brain at once!
I need to absorb slowly..... As in seriously slowly~~~
Well well.....
I guess I have to speed up my brain's speed
My birthday is just around the corner!
Waiting to celebrate with my grandparents = )

Movie Craze

Despite all of my entertainments had been 'moved out',
I still have my laptop and the internet access (thanks to whoever that line belongs to = P)
Well.... Had been watching lots of movies these few days.
And I've watched most of them back in the past.
How much I missed those shows
'Parent Trap', 'A Cinderella Story', Bedtime Stories', 'Enchanted', etc etc...
Some of them brought laughter to me while others just makes me cry...
You know... those romantic and 'happily ever after' shows~
It only happens in fairy tales, I guess...
You can't expect a knight in shining armor with his well groomed horse waiting on your doorstep with a rose on his hand asking you out on a date.
I mean... If we're still in the eighties, we might get a chance to feel those romantic feelings.
Guys in their finest tux all nervous to bring girls out for a ball and dance with the melody of musics played so soothly.
But now.... All guys are dressed in jeans and shirts. They bring girls to clubs and jumping and hopping along with those rock musics.
Sometimes I felt that my parents' generations is much more happier and more romantic.
As for love... Happily ever after... I don't think it will happen.
fantasy will remain as fantasy.
And reality... It's been by our sides for as long as we live.

*Lyrics from a song "A life goes by, Romantic dreams must die"*

Pretty true, it's too far to be grasp.

p/s: I'm switching to writing diary soon. Partly is because I won't be having internet access anymore. Besides that, I need a little privacy...

KANTOI

Have to post this!
A song from Zee Avi.
Into her right now!

Semalam I call you, you tak answer
You kata you keluar pergi dinner
You kata you keluar dengan kawan you
but when I called Tommy he said it wasn't true

So I drove my car pergi Damansara
Tommy kata maybe you tengok bola
Tapi bila I sampai... you, you tak ada
Lagi la I jadi gila

So I called and called sampai you answer
You kata sorry sayang tadi tak dengar
My phone was on silent, I was at the gym
Tapi latar belakang suara perempuan lain

Sudahlah sayang, I don't believe you
I've always known that your words were never true
Why am I with you?
I pun tak tahu
No wonder la my friends pun tak suka you

So I guess that's the end of our story
Akhir kata she accepted his apology
Tapi last-last kita dapat tahu she was cheating too
With her ex boyfriend's best friend, Tommy...

PAUSE!

Won't be blogging for the time being.
Will resume after moving and probably after exam.
Had quite a good chat with a stranger today.
He asked for number.
But I didn't give.
= P
Tak da kimia !!!
Hahaha....

I'm Tired~!!

Gosh...
Now I don't feel like moving out anymore.
There's so many things to do!
Clean this clean that
Pack this pack that
Move this move that.
Tired man!
Can I get a maid or someone to help me??
I seriously need some help!
cleaning up my room is tough enough already
Now, I have to decide whether to throw those things or not!
Argh....
Can I just throw everything and get new ones so that I don't have to pack my things?
= P

Scary man!

Brick Of Wall

With the recent weather,
And the same routine I do day after day,
I'm starting to feel boring about my life.
So dull... It's just like a piece of paper.
Blank!!
Not a word scribbled on it.
That plain boring.
Gosh...
My life ain't miserable.
But it's not interesting.
Couldn't blog about anything, for pete sake!

Kill me!

Just For Fun

FooWeeShean~~ This is specially for u~ since u wanted me so much, I upload this pic so that you can laugh and smile all the time~

Don't be a crybaby anymore!

Secrecy Turned Into Madness

I know I'm seriously mad now.
Not as in angry mad, but more of the crazy mad.
I haven't seen him in more than a week now.
Gosh...
Saw his car today, but didn't have the nerve to look into the shop
Why isn't he standing outside as usual??!!
Otherwise, I'll get a glimpse of him.
Sigh...
Have to wait for tomorrow.
Hopefully I'll get to see him.

p/s: I miss him...

Charity Drive!

Had a blood donation campaign yesterday.
Nothing special happened.
Many of our friends came to support this activity.
Actually, we were kinda pissed!
Of the location and of the way the people who in charged of the venue.
I mean... How can they just give our spot to others after promising us??!!
It's a blood donation campaign!
Hello!!!
You gave us a small corner where no one will notice us.
We can't even use full of the 10 beds because of inadequate space
Your electricity turned us down.
And how dumb of you not fixing it or even check whether it's working or not a day earlier??
You sent electricians.
So...???
You wasted our time and made us worried!
And because of those irresponsible management people,
we couldn't reach our target of 200 bags of blood!

Luckily we had fun on that day.
Otherwise, I'll slaughter those people!!

Had been quite emotional these few days.
Cried everytime after watching sad movies or touching stories.
Gosh....
But it's okey, I think.
This prove I'm not a cold-blooded person!

p/s: I wanna see him!!! Haven't seen him in 3 days time!

He Waved At Me!!!

Am I so shocked to know that...
Went to buy my dinner as usual.

The sweetest part was,
He stood there.
Gave me a friendly smile,
And started waving at me like a little child!

It was so cute.
My mum saw him and asked "You know him?"

Goshhh... I never knew he would wave at me.
Cause I haven't seen him in a while.
Woohoo~~~

*blushing*

U6A4

See how happy we were???
Believe me!
Many things happened today that turned our smiles into anger.
Boy... Will we remember this day!
May the rounded, fat and short teachers roll off!

1 thing to be happy about.
Our exam is postponed!!!

Somehow...

Somehow I wish I could be everything that I want.
But I realise that there are nothing perfect in this world.

Somehow I wish I could turn back time.
But I realise every second passed is a lesson learnt.

Somehow I wish things will turn out as planned.
But I realise God has paced our life and everything is predestined.

Somehow I wish to die fast.
But I realise many people around me would miss me if I'm gone.

Somehow I wish people wouldn't judge me by my appearance.
But I realise it's the nature of human to do so.

Somehow I wish someone would answer all my questions in my head.
But I realise some questions are meant to be unanswered.

Nothing last forever.
Love is now or never.

Sunshine = )

Just found out that there are quite many people who peeps at him.
Seeee.....
I'm not the only crazy fella who likes him so much!
Something funny happened today.
We PBSM members were having a brief meeting at Dataran Inspirasi.
Then.... We realised he was about to walk pass us.
So... We stood there and look at him walking by.
Our eyes were nailed on him.
Most of us gazed at him... Seriously scary type!
He didn't realise at all.
But his friend saw our acts.
His busy body friend told him!
He turned back and look at us.
We were like... Oh oh....
Now he really knows we are 'stalking' at him!

Goshhh... He's such a cute one!
Very adorable! very good looking! And 2 years younger than us!
So charming!

And his friend, Monchichi!
Or better known as Rainbow!
Another cute fella!
But we have to becareful on what we converse if he's around.
Cause he can understand chinese.
Can't simply praise them in front of him.
Imagine how embarrassing it will be once they know we big sisters like them!

S.M.I.L.E.

Love This Song!

What is someone like you doin in a place like this?
Say Did you come alone or did you bring all your friends?
Say whats your name , What are you drinking
Think I know what are you thinking
Baby whats your sign tell me yours and ill tell you mine
Say Whats somebody like you doin in a place like this

Ill never be the same if we ever meet agaian
Whooooon't let you get awaaay
Say if we ever meet again,
This free-falls, got mee sooo, kiss me all,
Night, Don't ever let me go
Ill never be the same if we ever meet again

Do you come here much? I swear ive seen your face before.
Hope You don't see me flash but I cant help but want you more, more
Baby tel me whats your story I aint shy don't you worry
Im flirtin' with my eyes, I wanna leave with you tonight.
Do you come here much? ive gotta see your face some more
(some more caause baby i)

I'll never be the same - if we ever meet again
Won't let you get away-ay - say, if we ever meet again
This free fall's, got me so
Kiss me all night, don't ever let me go
I'll never be the same

Karnival Sukan 1 Malaysia 2010

An event that will be organized every year by SABS sixers.
The board of MPPT6 had been working hard to ensure the success of this event.
But not all did their job according to the list.
Somehow, we non AJK MPPT6 felt that there's no unity in the board.
As if there's three different gang of people.
People misunderstanding each other.
There's no respect for each other.
No teamwork, no coordination.
Nothing....
And it'll just make things worse.
Everyone has their own views and opinions.
Everything was kinda mess up.
But I still think they manage to pull things off.

Had been running up and down.
Never knew registration could be so so so tough.
By the way, I didn't win a thing
But I was so happy to see SABS male team won the 'tarik tali' event.
I shouted like a maniac.
I sounded kinda man though...
But who cares???!!!
There's no cute hunk for me to crush on.
As long as there's no one attractive, I don't mind how I look or sound.
Of all the shouting, I partially lost my voice.
My throat hurt so bad right now.
And I think I'm gonna be sick within this week.
Oh, and I sprain my butt. Again!
Sighhhhh.....

Thanks to KerLee, Bao, Jen, Bian and Ann for helping me out.
I wouldn't manage to do everything without you guys!
Muackz~~~
Love you guys!

p/s: Had an early 6.30am breakfast. The next meal I had next was around 6.30pm. 10 hours interval without food. I'm glad I didn't have gastric or whatsoever