Learn To Be Lonely?

Smile


Don't frown


Are there people around you
To be with you all the time
Protecting you from harm and danger
Guard and guide you all the way
Pacing road to your future
Comfort and care for you
Cherish those little details you do for them
Appreciate every 'thank you' you've said
Accept every 'sorry' you've apologized

Are there people beside you
Constantly accompany you where ever you go
Sat by your side when your heart breaks
Lend you a shoulder to cry on
Cuddle you up in his/her arms when you're sad
Puts you in their mind every minute every day
Shower you with love
Spreading joy together

Are there anyone up there
Listens to all the prayers you've made
Grant your wishes and dreams
Gives you the will and power to stay strong
Creates magic and unexplainable events that happens on you
Makes you believe that there are miracles in this world
Allow a little fantasy in our harsh surrounding
Of fairies and angels taking care of us

Family, friends, enemies and strangers.
God makes world a better place to live.

Live your life!

A Little Little..

♥ ♥ ♥

I miss him.
haven't seen him in a week.
the side view of him doesn't count!
Miss him a lot...
Can I see him tomorrow?
Can I can I can I????????

♥ Happy being at the right corner at the right time.
♥ Doesn't mean I have to own him.
♥ Don't have to be devoted and be hurt in the end.
♥ Having conversation with him.
♥ Giggling about him.
♥ Missing him.

p/s: PaiWan helped me to destroy my 2008 belated water bottle birthday present.

And I'm so so so so so HAPPY!!! = )
Muahahaha.... Shuts! I shouldn't have returned that watch. Otherwise, I'll be able to smash it! Dumb Joanne! Next time, don't go against yourself!

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ JoJo miss him a lot
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ JoJo will see him tomorrow~~~~

I think today is not my day.
Many unwanted things happened.
Kinda sad, disappointed, moody, etc etc...
Sigh...

Had a dream last night.
Ain't a good one.
Any dream with him in it is nightmare for me
School was rather boring today.
Nothing interesting happened.
We had to wear a silly red ribbon for some anti-drug campaign.
Talk about that dumb PIBG fees we have to pay.
Stupid larhhh...
Make us pay so much.
Want us beg under the bridge is it??!!

Went for my very first threading session.
Pain like mad!!!
but at least my face is smoother!!
Love it!
Gonna do it once a month!
25bucks... Not too expensive~

Quite clumsy today.
Spilled drinks on my grandpa >.<

Two Can Play A Game

F*ck to whoever that person who keep text massaging my mum.
Even if it'll shorten my life by 10 years,
I'll still curse you!!
You useless, idiot, son of a b*itch, f*ucker loser!!!
You wanna play??
Fine! I'll play with you.
Let you feel a dose of your own medicine.
The revenge starts tomorrow!
No matter how much it'll cost me,
I'll harass you till I'm satisfied!
Who you think you are??
You're just a stupid jerk.
Brainless!

I curse you!
Curse you curse you curse you!!!!
Don't even think we're easily fooled!
Tomorrow you'll die!!!!
DIE!!!!
YOU ARE SO DEAD SUCKER!

Tiredness OVERLOADED

Woke up at 7am this morning.
Went for breakfast as usual with my grandparents.
Had lots of toufu!!!
My favourite~~~ Yum yum yummmmmmm........

Did some baking right after that.
Broke my own record this time.
Didn't know I could bake so fast.
Specially for Firdaus.
Cause he asked me so many times and it's kinda bad to turn him down.

Went for my 2nd breakfast of the day around 9am.
With KerLee and Bao.
Boy I was so full that time!
Hang out at Shean's place for a while after that.
Sobsss....
She left to Malacca.... Againn...
Miss her so much...

Head to Semambu badminton court after that.
Saw quite many people whom I know.
Most of them are familiar faces.
They were talking about a handsome guy at that moment.
But... He's not that good looking larhhh...
He looks like a duck to me.
I don't know why...

Purposely went to that vegetarian shop today.
Just to show KerLee the guy I was talking about.
We couldn't see him at first.
When I'm done, we get to see him!!!
But only his side view t.t
Purposely turn another round to see but he went in, I think.
Sighhhh....
Oh.. He wore like the others now.
Maybe that's why we couldn't spot him.
He look so different!
Prefer him wearing those office look.
= ) So good looking....
*Dream dream dream....*

Went to ecm around 4pm
Met up with Firdaus and Jiali.
Was half dead that time.
Was exhausted though I hardly did anything.
But I was fatigue.
Eat again....
I've been eating for the whole day!
2 breakfast, 2 lunches, 2 dinners....
And the funny part is... I'm on a diet.
And that is so not dieting!!!
All the calories.... AHHHHH........
(Someone said I'm broader now! Damnnnnn..... Diet again!)

Tomorrow... have to wake up early.
Very early....
Have to wait for Monday to see him again = )
Oh ya... Don't feel like giving up.
Want to continue my 'peeping' activity = P

p/s: Jie is back. Expenses will be fully paid by Jessica. Muahahaha... Trimming my brows tomorrow. Better be good!

There Goes My Dream....

Sighhh....
Have to give up now.
He smokes....
Ahhh... A perfect image!
Shattered with a few puff of cigarrette..
Gosh.... What a waste!
I mean... Such ideal person, so perfect!
But with a little flaw.
Well... That explains no human is flawless or perfect.
Damnnn......

Laid my hands on crochet for the first time today.
Made a flower = )
Quite ugly though....
But....!!! It's still a flower.
Learning to make other things now.
Hopefully I'll be talented enough to make a scarf.
For that special someone = )

A Wall To Lean On

Well... Haven't seen him since... since... since...
Last Saturday t.t t.t

Well.... Hardly studied this week.
Many of them went to stadium to help out for some MSSM thingy.
And the class was practically empty.
Only half of us were present.
Nothing special happened in school
Only the JPAM stuff.
I would have blah out a lot of rubbish about that whole course.
But since they're giving me allowance,
I'll shut my big fat mouth = P
I'll never go against with money!

Currently, have been hook up with DIY stuffs.
Learning crochet and tatting..
Finger hurts... Strains my eyes.... Not to mention a total waste of time.
But I can't help it.
It's kinda fun..
I wanna learn to do those stuff ( even my mum gave me a 'NO'!)

Gosh... it's almost midnight now.
Am watching AI.
Horrible!!!
Only some were good...
Having school tomorrow.
Very lazy to go... very reluctant.
Tuitions will be from 1pm to 5pm
Feel like giving up this instance.

Jess will be back on Saturday for Ching Meng.
Ben is coming to.
Hyuk Huyuk Hyuk....
Boy... I can't wait!!

P/s: In GLEE craze!

Eeeepppssss....!!!

Didn't see him today.
Sighhhh...
Well, at least now I know his dinner break is around what time = P
Feel like a stalker right now!
Haha...
Kinda disappointed.
Waited whole day but couldn't manage to see him T.T
Looks like I have to wait for tomorrow...
"The sun will come out~~~ Tomorrow~~~~
Tomorrow~ Tomorrow~~ I love ya~ Tomorrow~~~"
Maybe I sound a little pathetic right now.
Goshhh....
Have to stop this nonsense fast!
Before I go any deeper...
"I think I better leave right now~~ I'm getting weaker and weaker~"
Aaaahhhh..........
No I'm not desperate!
No I'm not deprived of love!

Why must he speaks such nice English to me??!!
Why??!!
I wouldn't fall for him if he spoke some 'chapalang' English.
And he's not banana = )
He can speak cantonese.
Owwwwww.... My ideal boyfriend!!!
Too bad he's just a dream.
Too far to grasp.
Will go later tomorrow.
Otherwise I won't be able to meet him.

All Smiless....

Yipes...!!!
Saw him again just now.
Hahahaha....
Went and buy my meal as usual.
Saw him standing at that corner again.
He really don't look like he works there.
He doesn't dress like the other workers.
Maybe his post his higher??
I don't know....
Somehow he don't fit in that situation.
He'll be standing there whenever I sees him.
Seems like his job is standing there to 'attract' customers!
Lols..

Well....
Manage to say hi to each other before I enter the shop.
When I'm done with my meal,
saw him again.
I thought of maybe just smile at him and leave.
But he asked,
S: "Did you leave your keys in the car again.??"
Gave me that weird stare.
J: "No....!"

Ended the conversation with 'bye bye' of course!

Sighh... He'll remember me as the girl who forgets her keys.
HAHA!!
>.<
Still don't have the guts to ask his name!
But I have his number = P
Gosh... Feel so evil!
1 more thing!
His english is superb!!!
Too bad he's unavailable.

Carelessness sometimes leads to happiness

I was clumsy again to forget to pull out my car key.
It's the third time already.
But I had 1 great experience.
Not to mention that cute guy who lend me his phone.
Indirectly, I have his phone number now! = P

I went to buy my dinner as usual at the vegetarian stall.
I didn't realise that I've forgotten my key.
Until I touch my pocket, I went
"Shit! Where's my key?!"
Ran quickly to the car right after taking back my change.
Damn... The key was in the car!
Went to a electrical shop which was next to the vegetarian stall.
I asked a malay guy whether I could use his phone.
So happen there's a chinese guy there too.
I thought that that chinese was just a customer.
Without a doubt, he handed out his phone for me to use.
I was like.... "Thank you thank you thank you"
I didn't know how many 'thank you' I've said.
So... I called my mum.
She didn't pick up her phone the first time.
I have to make another call.
When I was about doing so, I look at him and said "Sorry"
I don't know why I said 'sorry'.
Then... My mum finally answered my call.
Told her that I'll be waiting at the electrical shop.

I stood outside of the shop, of course.
So embarrassing!
That guy overheard my conversation (I must have spoken quite loudly and clearly)
I returned the phone to him and of course thanked him, again!
He giggled a little and say "You left your car key in the car?" Showing me his smile.
He might have laughed if I wasn't there.
"Yea..."
It was a total silence for a moment.
Then out of a sudden, he initiated our conversation.
S: "You come here very often to eat?"
J: "Yea..."
S: "I work here. But I never see you before"
J: "Really? I didn't see you before too"
S: "Is the food nice?"
J: "Edible..."
S: "Terrible??"
J: "EDIBLE.."
S: "Ooo....I haven't try their food"
J" "Why?? No meat can't survive?"
S: "Ya... *giggled* Still studying??"
J: "Yup... Form6 this year"
S: "Oo..."

Silence for another moment.....

S: "You stay around this area?"
J: "Yea... Behind there (pointing!)"
S: "Near PeiChai?"
J: "No. Near the basketball court"
S: "Basketball court..(Thinking)Near.... (Still thinking) *I gave him a look* I think I know where."

I smiled.... Conversation lasted around 10mins.

S: "I think your mum forgot about you"
J: "*giggled* She wouldn't"

Silence, again....

My mum came to the rescue in time.
Cause the shop was about to close.
J: "Bye.."
S: "Bye."

Turned back and say it for the very last time "Thanks a lot!"

= )
Standing there with a total stranger and having such conversation was kinda fun, actually. Well, that makes eating vege a happier moment. Too bad I didn't have enough courage to ask his name. = (

p/s: Those conversation were just part of it. Couldn't recall back all.

Pai Mia la...

Had my first Starbuck meal last night.
Hey... I'm no rich girl. What do you expect??!!
Went for Popular book fair.
It was by far the worst book fair.
No interesting books to buy.
But I manage to buy 4 Archie comics
It was so darn cheap.
1 buck each.
Wallop every one of it.
Too bad they only have 4.
SObs...
Hope they replenish their stock soon!

Something happened during tuition class today.
They were calculating birth dates and describe ones character through those digits.
Apparently,
Those characteristics about me weren't that accurate.
But, just for fun.
At least they nail right some.

Having flu right now.
I always have flu whenever there's 4 hours of tuition.
Tired man...

Junior Craze!

Lols... Everyone knew about the person I'm crazy-ing about.
I can't resist it!
It's like... I don't know how to describe that sort of feeling.
Will be seeing him for the last time tomorrow.
Sobs..
Have to wait 1 week to meet him again.
But it's fine.
Found a way to....... Hahaha... *secret*

Dreamt something last night.
It was the sweetest dream I ever had.
Gosh.... Those heart-warming moments.
Somehow I wish it was true.
But it's ok cause dreams are usually better than reality.
= ) thinking of it just makes me smile.
Can't imagine how happy am I.

Will begin my tuition marathon tomorrow.
Hope that I won't fall sick.
Otherwise, my head will be swaying all day long.
Started with my studies.
Gonna crack my head with those books.

Sighhhhh.... Got a feeling that I won't be going Aus.
Well... It's my fate.
Even jie is going.
Damn...