mix feelings...
I'm suppose to be happy. But i don't know what happened. It's was his birthday on the 16 jan. A day earlier i started baking some cookies for him. I couldn't think what else i can do for him. Actually I already bought a gift for him. Since he is someone special for me, that's why i thought of doing something extra for him. That night i did 2 types of cookies. (SO SO SO freaking tired) It was like 1 something in the early morning when i finish packing all the cookies for him. Then i wrote a letter for him cuz i'm not giving it to him directly. Seek help from his friend. (Thanks a lot to him!!) After finish writing that letter, it was 2a.m. Went to my room and lie down on my comfy bed. Doze off few minutes later cuz i was extremely tired. 4 hours later, my alarm rang. Gosh!!! I was so tired. Pull myself up and waited for Han Nan to come my house to take those stuff. He has to go to school. And after schooling he has to work. So I don't really had the time to celebrate his birthday for him. *sobs* Then, have to thank Han Nan again. Cuz he helped to plan his birthday. I bought a green tea cake which has so much fattening cream in it. But it taste good. On that night, we went to koos idea. Actually that wasn't the actual plan. (The shop we wanted to go was closed : P) Eat, talk, eat, talk, eat and talk. After much chit-chatting, we ate the cake. Thanks to me they get to eat another cake on that they. *giggles* It was 12 something when i reached home. Clean myself and went to bed. Then don't know which stupid mosquito bite me. Make me wake up to apply some repelent. Thought of sleeping back again. But i couldn't. My mind was overtaking me. Kept tinking of all those awful things again. Tears started dripping out of my eyes. Tried to control them. But couldn't. Those things kept reappearing on my mind. Lasted for 2 hours. Messaged him around 6 in the morning. But he didn't reply me. Thought that he could comfort me a little. But i didn't get what i want. *sigh* Actually, I've been waiting for him to say thank you to me. He did thank me for the present and the cake. But i wanted him to thank me for baking cookies for him. The present and the cake is what I bought. But the cookies is something I did specially for him. I asked him whether the cookies taste good or not. All he say was he haven't tried it yet. Till today he never mentioned anything about the cookies. I want to feel appreciated. *hopeless*
I'm suppose to be happy. But i don't know what happened. It's was his birthday on the 16 jan. A day earlier i started baking some cookies for him. I couldn't think what else i can do for him. Actually I already bought a gift for him. Since he is someone special for me, that's why i thought of doing something extra for him. That night i did 2 types of cookies. (SO SO SO freaking tired) It was like 1 something in the early morning when i finish packing all the cookies for him. Then i wrote a letter for him cuz i'm not giving it to him directly. Seek help from his friend. (Thanks a lot to him!!) After finish writing that letter, it was 2a.m. Went to my room and lie down on my comfy bed. Doze off few minutes later cuz i was extremely tired. 4 hours later, my alarm rang. Gosh!!! I was so tired. Pull myself up and waited for Han Nan to come my house to take those stuff. He has to go to school. And after schooling he has to work. So I don't really had the time to celebrate his birthday for him. *sobs* Then, have to thank Han Nan again. Cuz he helped to plan his birthday. I bought a green tea cake which has so much fattening cream in it. But it taste good. On that night, we went to koos idea. Actually that wasn't the actual plan. (The shop we wanted to go was closed : P) Eat, talk, eat, talk, eat and talk. After much chit-chatting, we ate the cake. Thanks to me they get to eat another cake on that they. *giggles* It was 12 something when i reached home. Clean myself and went to bed. Then don't know which stupid mosquito bite me. Make me wake up to apply some repelent. Thought of sleeping back again. But i couldn't. My mind was overtaking me. Kept tinking of all those awful things again. Tears started dripping out of my eyes. Tried to control them. But couldn't. Those things kept reappearing on my mind. Lasted for 2 hours. Messaged him around 6 in the morning. But he didn't reply me. Thought that he could comfort me a little. But i didn't get what i want. *sigh* Actually, I've been waiting for him to say thank you to me. He did thank me for the present and the cake. But i wanted him to thank me for baking cookies for him. The present and the cake is what I bought. But the cookies is something I did specially for him. I asked him whether the cookies taste good or not. All he say was he haven't tried it yet. Till today he never mentioned anything about the cookies. I want to feel appreciated. *hopeless*
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