Will there be any peace??
Don't they get fed up??
The only time I get is when they are away from me.
For some reason that's the only time I have peace in my mind.
Once they're back,
All that's pop out in my mind are 'They're gonna start it again', 'They're gonna start again', 'Again...'
I have headaches every single time they come back.
EVERY SINGLE TIME!!!
Is like I have to think of what to say, how to reply, how to react.
I'm literally acting in front of them.
With all the scripts running in my head... 'Say this', 'Don't say that', 'Should I keep quiet?'
Move, don't move... Hide, don't hide.... Speak, don't speak...
Even I start to doubt every thing I do now.
It's so annoying!!!
Sometimes I even thought of moving out
It's just so irritating and just URGHHHHH........!!!!!
I'm proud of myself for being this great actor.
I'm happiest when I'm with my dog. ALONE!!!
I'd rather face the tv and laptop whole day then to see them for a minute!
That's my wish now!
To be by myself.
Don't blame me if one day I just leave
난 슬픈
난 아픔
너무 섭섭해
알아??
너... 몰라....
Sunday, August 5, 2012
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
They're Same
Had a great time at the beach last night.
Met up with KerLee and Nana...
Hahahaha.... It's been a long time since I last seen Nana.
We used to be together during tuition since Form 1.
We always sat together partly because the only people we know in the class is each other.
Mum never allow me to attend tuition classes with my friends.
She sends me to where my siblings used to go and I shall continue the legacy... XD
Anyways, back to the story.
And so, she so happened to be in the classes.
I was lucky to have her there.
Otherwise I'll be all alone. ( Owh so sad!)
It's a small small world.
She so happen to be my friend's roommate in Uni.
How lucky!!!
To have someone whom you already know from the same hometown to be your roommate!
Hell yeah I'm jealous.
Can just joke around without worrying about offending because we are already so close.
We chatted all night till we didn't realize how fast time passed.
And our topics are what we usually talk about.
Uni life, studies, boys and boys and boys.
Okay...
So we talked mostly about boys.
And so the topic of past relationships starts!
And as she was telling me her story, about what cause them to break up,
Why there's such anger and stuff like that,
I somehow felt something.
I turned to her and said "This sounds so familiar!"
She then asked "Have you already heard my story before?"
I answered "Nah... It sounds exactly like my story!"
Bwahahaha!!!!!!!!
We laughed so hard. Or maybe it was just me!
I can't help it.
It's like every guys said the same thing when they have changed.
Is it that every guy had a similar script that they had thought of??
Lie no.1: I'm very tired
Lie no.2: I'm very busy. you'll know how I feel when you enter _______
And as they were giving these reasons to us, they find time to do other stuff which is not reasonable.
If it's stuff like studying or rest of course we can understand that.
But if it's like meeting up with 'friend' and complaining about how tired it is when we call or text,
then that's another story!
Is it us that cause you to be tired and busy??!!
Oh crap... bad memories are back.
I bet I can write a book 'How Much I Hated My Ex!'
Might be a bestseller.
Who knows! XD
Met up with KerLee and Nana...
Hahahaha.... It's been a long time since I last seen Nana.
We used to be together during tuition since Form 1.
We always sat together partly because the only people we know in the class is each other.
Mum never allow me to attend tuition classes with my friends.
She sends me to where my siblings used to go and I shall continue the legacy... XD
Anyways, back to the story.
And so, she so happened to be in the classes.
I was lucky to have her there.
Otherwise I'll be all alone. ( Owh so sad!)
It's a small small world.
She so happen to be my friend's roommate in Uni.
How lucky!!!
To have someone whom you already know from the same hometown to be your roommate!
Hell yeah I'm jealous.
Can just joke around without worrying about offending because we are already so close.
We chatted all night till we didn't realize how fast time passed.
And our topics are what we usually talk about.
Uni life, studies, boys and boys and boys.
Okay...
So we talked mostly about boys.
And so the topic of past relationships starts!
And as she was telling me her story, about what cause them to break up,
Why there's such anger and stuff like that,
I somehow felt something.
I turned to her and said "This sounds so familiar!"
She then asked "Have you already heard my story before?"
I answered "Nah... It sounds exactly like my story!"
Bwahahaha!!!!!!!!
We laughed so hard. Or maybe it was just me!
I can't help it.
It's like every guys said the same thing when they have changed.
Is it that every guy had a similar script that they had thought of??
Lie no.1: I'm very tired
Lie no.2: I'm very busy. you'll know how I feel when you enter _______
And as they were giving these reasons to us, they find time to do other stuff which is not reasonable.
If it's stuff like studying or rest of course we can understand that.
But if it's like meeting up with 'friend' and complaining about how tired it is when we call or text,
then that's another story!
Is it us that cause you to be tired and busy??!!
Oh crap... bad memories are back.
I bet I can write a book 'How Much I Hated My Ex!'
Might be a bestseller.
Who knows! XD
Saturday, July 28, 2012
Don't Touch Me!
Seriously... This is why I hate foreigners so much!
Or maybe he's not a foreigner but he looks like one to me.
And damn him for pissing me off so early in the morning.
Had my usual walk in the morning as usual with grandparents
And these silly men suddenly walk up and tried to talk to me in that silly mandarin of his.
'ni hao ma~' I was like... Giving him my ganas stare and ignored him.
And a second later his hand was approaching my back.
That's the WTF moment where I raised my voice and said "DON'T TOUCH ME!"
Ok... It's not just the voice that scared him.
Plus my furious stare and a finger pointing pointing straight into his eyes.
I would have punch him if I had the courage, for trying to lay his freaking dirty hands on my back.
He backed off "Okay... Okay..."
Boy I must be that mad for a man to be so taken aback with my reaction.
Seriously, I hate strangers doing things like that.
Who the heck you think you are??!!
Should had laid my fist on his face and screw his mouth!
I'm too stressed lately.
Many things happened at home.
And that idiot just make my day even worse!
Urghh.......
Or maybe he's not a foreigner but he looks like one to me.
And damn him for pissing me off so early in the morning.
Had my usual walk in the morning as usual with grandparents
And these silly men suddenly walk up and tried to talk to me in that silly mandarin of his.
'ni hao ma~' I was like... Giving him my ganas stare and ignored him.
And a second later his hand was approaching my back.
That's the WTF moment where I raised my voice and said "DON'T TOUCH ME!"
Ok... It's not just the voice that scared him.
Plus my furious stare and a finger pointing pointing straight into his eyes.
I would have punch him if I had the courage, for trying to lay his freaking dirty hands on my back.
He backed off "Okay... Okay..."
Boy I must be that mad for a man to be so taken aback with my reaction.
Seriously, I hate strangers doing things like that.
Who the heck you think you are??!!
Should had laid my fist on his face and screw his mouth!
I'm too stressed lately.
Many things happened at home.
And that idiot just make my day even worse!
Urghh.......
Saturday, July 7, 2012
There She Goes
Our beloved Yun finally went to Australia.
Awwwwww........
Missing her so much.
No more gossiping in her room for a year I guess.
= )
Hopefully she'll cope well there.
It's funny that we've been always together since we're 15.
Even our parents knew each other even before us.
Such fate... Hahahaha....
It's fortunate to have her as friend.
Makes things so much easier.
As in, if I want to go out and hang out with my friends, the easiest way is mentioning her.
"I'm going out with ShiYun."
And that's it XD
No more long questions.
Somehow my parents allow me to go out if I mention her name.
That's because they know her parents.
And allow me to go at ease.
Those were the good old times.
= )
4 of us would always sit together during classes.
Eating food when teachers are teaching in front.
Goofing and laughing around.
Talk like nobody's business.
IMU TAN SHI YUN
Awwwwww........
Missing her so much.
No more gossiping in her room for a year I guess.
= )
Hopefully she'll cope well there.
It's funny that we've been always together since we're 15.
Even our parents knew each other even before us.
Such fate... Hahahaha....
It's fortunate to have her as friend.
Makes things so much easier.
As in, if I want to go out and hang out with my friends, the easiest way is mentioning her.
"I'm going out with ShiYun."
And that's it XD
No more long questions.
Somehow my parents allow me to go out if I mention her name.
That's because they know her parents.
And allow me to go at ease.
Those were the good old times.
= )
4 of us would always sit together during classes.
Eating food when teachers are teaching in front.
Goofing and laughing around.
Talk like nobody's business.
IMU TAN SHI YUN
♥
Friday, June 22, 2012
Good Goodbye.
Finally, the time has come.
After all the long waits, days of loneliness, hours of boredom...
I'm out of here!
Yay...
Today is the last day to be in UPM for my first year!
My last day to be in 169 Rajawali to be exact.
My last morning waking up on my bed.
Hahaha...
I wonder who'll be staying in this room next semester.
They will surely complain about the speed of the fan. (Seriously stuffy!!)
Damn I should be studying for my statistics now!
What ordinary people will say :"Statistics, I'm gonna bring you down!"
What I will say :"Statistics, you're gonna bring me down!"
XD
Whatever....
This very last minute studying will not help much.
Will flip through later.
Awwwwww.........
I'm gonna miss blogging and crapping here.
Sigh...
Never mind.
I'll talk to my dogs.
Biber~~~
After all the long waits, days of loneliness, hours of boredom...
I'm out of here!
Yay...
Today is the last day to be in UPM for my first year!
My last day to be in 169 Rajawali to be exact.
My last morning waking up on my bed.
Hahaha...
I wonder who'll be staying in this room next semester.
They will surely complain about the speed of the fan. (Seriously stuffy!!)
Damn I should be studying for my statistics now!
What ordinary people will say :"Statistics, I'm gonna bring you down!"
What I will say :"Statistics, you're gonna bring me down!"
XD
Whatever....
This very last minute studying will not help much.
Will flip through later.
Awwwwww.........
I'm gonna miss blogging and crapping here.
Sigh...
Never mind.
I'll talk to my dogs.
Biber~~~
Last day in 169. Adios~!
Indulging In Dreamland
Gosh I'm so tired.
It's 1 something in the morning and I'm still blogging.
Seeeee.... This is what happen when I have no one to talk to!
But I'm good at talking to myself for certain reasons.
Just finished my 4 hours intense statistics revision.
Ha.....
Never thought of doing revision but since there's a class, might as well just join.
And I'm glad I went.
Cause I knew I won't be doing anything in the room and feasting my eyes whole night. (Yes I'm talking about LSG. Who else?? XD )
I've been mentioning about giving up on statistics for days.
Looks like there's still chances in getting A.
Well... At least I can say I've put in effort (although not that much but still.... )
Weeeee.......
In less than 24 hours I'll be out of here.
Counting down.
But then I have lots of things to pack.
Whole room is a mess now but luckily room mate ain't around.
So... Who cares!
Better pack everything tomorrow morning.
Much to be done but not that much time.
Have lots of things in my mind.
Things to do when I'm back at Kuantan.
The most important is meeting with Yun.
I'm so gonna miss her!!!
Things to bake cause I haven't bake in ages.
Kimchi! Gonna do tons of it.
Traveling with family and friends.
And early morning walks with grandparents at the beach.
Yes I miss TC!!!
Oh well....
These will be done when I'm back.
I'm going home.
Home Home Home!!!
Ho~ Ho~ Ho~
The only thing I'll miss here is the internet access.
Sighhhh....
Never mind... I'll just go to mama's office.
= D
It's 1 something in the morning and I'm still blogging.
Seeeee.... This is what happen when I have no one to talk to!
But I'm good at talking to myself for certain reasons.
Just finished my 4 hours intense statistics revision.
Ha.....
Never thought of doing revision but since there's a class, might as well just join.
And I'm glad I went.
Cause I knew I won't be doing anything in the room and feasting my eyes whole night. (Yes I'm talking about LSG. Who else?? XD )
I've been mentioning about giving up on statistics for days.
Looks like there's still chances in getting A.
Well... At least I can say I've put in effort (although not that much but still.... )
Weeeee.......
In less than 24 hours I'll be out of here.
Counting down.
But then I have lots of things to pack.
Whole room is a mess now but luckily room mate ain't around.
So... Who cares!
Better pack everything tomorrow morning.
Much to be done but not that much time.
Have lots of things in my mind.
Things to do when I'm back at Kuantan.
The most important is meeting with Yun.
I'm so gonna miss her!!!
Things to bake cause I haven't bake in ages.
Kimchi! Gonna do tons of it.
Traveling with family and friends.
And early morning walks with grandparents at the beach.
Yes I miss TC!!!
Oh well....
These will be done when I'm back.
I'm going home.
Home Home Home!!!
Ho~ Ho~ Ho~
The only thing I'll miss here is the internet access.
Sighhhh....
Never mind... I'll just go to mama's office.
= D
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
2 More Papers To Go!
2 more days and I'll leave this place.
Sounds like I'm leaving for good but unfortunately that's not the case.
This Friday marks the very last day for my first year in Uni.
Great!!!
Nothing to be happy about cause it's a hard start for me.
Hopefully next semester will be a better one.
Once I'm home, then everything will be the same just as before I enter Uni.
My home, my bed, my dogs and the people around me.
Only thing is that popo is not around.
Sigh...
Regrets are overwhelming.
It's over now and nothing much I can do.
Will spend more time with ah gong and ah ma.
Popo's death just give me so much fear that someday ah gong and ah ma might leave us too.
Gosh....
Room mate not around just makes me much more emo.
Missing her already.
Looks like we'll be having different room mate next semester.
It'll be great if she's still my room mate.
She's the one I can talk to...
Share my thoughts, happiness, sadness, craziness...
I'm gonna miss those late night pillow talks where we'll just chat and chat and chat
Gonna watch 2d1n now.
Need something to make me forget about those sad things.
If only my sisters are here.
At least they watch dramas and movies with me.
At least I'm not alone.
Sounds like I'm leaving for good but unfortunately that's not the case.
This Friday marks the very last day for my first year in Uni.
Great!!!
Nothing to be happy about cause it's a hard start for me.
Hopefully next semester will be a better one.
Once I'm home, then everything will be the same just as before I enter Uni.
My home, my bed, my dogs and the people around me.
Only thing is that popo is not around.
Sigh...
Regrets are overwhelming.
It's over now and nothing much I can do.
Will spend more time with ah gong and ah ma.
Popo's death just give me so much fear that someday ah gong and ah ma might leave us too.
Gosh....
Room mate not around just makes me much more emo.
Missing her already.
Looks like we'll be having different room mate next semester.
It'll be great if she's still my room mate.
She's the one I can talk to...
Share my thoughts, happiness, sadness, craziness...
I'm gonna miss those late night pillow talks where we'll just chat and chat and chat
Gonna watch 2d1n now.
Need something to make me forget about those sad things.
If only my sisters are here.
At least they watch dramas and movies with me.
At least I'm not alone.
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