You Can't Always Get What You Want

Hmm... I changed my mind.
I don't like him that much after all.
Not until when Sha gave me those comments.
He's an ideal boyfriend.
But still... Nah...~~
I better start forgetting about everything.
Thinking about it makes me feel silly now. Dumb right!!
Never mind.
I learnt my lesson.
He's too old for me anyway... { console myself = ( }
Talking about fate.
I saw him on the road.
Just like that! What kind of coincidence is this!
Sigh...
Jojo, don't think too much anymore.

Talking about thinking too much
Damn I feel like slaughtering someone!
Is guys like him make me wanna chop them all off!
Come on!
If you wanna let go of someone, just let her go!
Why dilly dally and fool her around??
Don't you have any senses??
Better don't mention him.
I feel like slapping him after hearing what he did!
p/s: not 3883!

I miss my friends very much recently.
Don't know why...
Maybe they always lend me a shoulder to lean on.
Someone I can rely on.
Aren't they better than a bf??
= )
Love you guys.
Be back a.s.a.p.

I'll Be A Fool For U!

Sigh...
Maybe I think too much.
I just embarrassed myself in front of him!
Now he knew all the silly things I posted on fb.
How dumb am I?! Very!!
Why on earth he check out on my profile??
And I still don't understand how he manage to view those status I posted.
We don't have any mutual friends!
I don't get it!
Arghh...
Man... Such a disgrace!
And he only told me right after I gave him cake!
Gosh... How terasa will he be??
Sigh...
I don't want him to know my feelings towards him!
But now, he knew everything!
He read every single post since March till now!
Damn...
Feel like digging a hole and bury my head in it!
Why am I so stupid?!
Surely he'll avoid me now.
And I'm avoiding him too.
This is really a lifetime embarrassment!

Happiness...

= )
I'm so so so so happy these few days.
From the first day I know his name.
Everyday he'll call.
Talking to him on phone is fun.
Shocked me a little when I knew his age.
But it's okay, I guess.
Anyway, I won't think too far.
Being with him now is good enough already.

<3 K!

Suhweeeet.....~!

Ha! I went out of school early today.
Reason was simple.
I don't sit for any papers today but I want my attendance for the day.
So, I told my mum I wanna head back home earlier.
She picked me up around 10.20am.
Accompanied her to bank for a while and went and bought lunch.
Just yesterday the girl who did facial for me told me not to eat too much of oily stuff.
And the stall we went to, believe me, their food are kinda oily for my condition now.
So, I told my mum 'No'.
She went on to buy her lunch and I told her I'll find my own lunch later.
And in my mind, all I think of was the vegetarian shop.
Main purpose was to meet him. = P
Went there around 11am.
First glimpse was to look into that corner shop.
Sigh, he wasn't there.
So I drove off and went straight home.

Around 12pm my tummy started growling.
Thought of going to that vegetarian shop again.
This time, no matter he's there or not, I must buy my lunch or I'll be in deep hunger.
And to my surprise, he's there.
Parked my car by the side. (Already knew he's in there somewhere but dare not look in!)
The funny part was, when I was about to get down from the car, he stood right at the corridor.
As if he's waiting for me to come down ( maybe I perasan a little bit)
Anyways, said 'Hi' to him as usual and went in the vegetarian shop.
When I put my tiffin carrier on the counter top, I saw him walking approaching the stall beside me.
I was like... Come on! Seriously?!
I continued choosing the dishes that I want.
Just before I started leaving, had a little conversation with him.
It felt like as if I'm about to have a heart attack!
My heart were beater at a much higher rate, beyond normal.
It was the first time being so close to him.
To my surprise, his body doesn't have a slight smell of cigarette smoke.
I know, I'm crazy sniffing on other people scent!
And the best part was, I finally know his name.
It even shocked me when he asked my phone number!
Of course I gave.
I would be a dumb ass if I didn't give him.
But I didn't have any nerve left to ask for his number.
Asking his name was already too nerve wrecking for me!

Well, that's that.
And I'm more than happy it happened today.
Glad that I skipped classes today.

= )

It's Just A Little Crush~

Currently at The Pawz.
Ate Sphaghetti Carbonara.
Yum~!!
Tried other food too.
At least better than 'Stesen Satu'
Yuck...
Disgusting!
Mashed potato made from powder! It's so obvious it's prepacked mash potato powder!

Many things happened recently.
And I'm glad I got nothing to do with it!
You can't imagine how intensed the situation is now.
You don't wanna ever get involved in it.
Cause you can't make up your mind whose side you should be.
Sigh.... = (

It's been almost 2 weeks now since I last seen 3883.
Miss him so much = )
You may think I'm silly.
I think I am too.
But I cant help it.
Just continue dreaming.
At least it's a sweet one.

Watched 'Music and Lyric' last night.
Damn... It's good!
The cause of me addicted to the song 'Way Back Into Love'
Nice~!

I missed this week's GLEE.
Missed many songs!
Luckily I have all of them already.
Yay...!

Missing him. = )

Satisfying Craze and Crave

Went for a gathering last nite at saffron ( cause kerlee and I craved for roti canai and burger badly! )
Purpose was to meet JianHow before he leaves Kuantan tomorrow.
As usual, crap and gossip were part of our conversation.
In fact, I don't think I ever had a conversation with friends without any crapping or gossiping!
Hmm... Human's nature = P
Had load of fun, seriously!
You can't imagine how loud, noisy and hard I laughed!
Wait...! Maybe you do know if you know me well!
Anyway, I laughed and laughed and laughed till my jaws felt like falling apart and tummy cramp!
Except for that part they tried to persuade me to watch a video with zombies ( or was it vampires? Whatever...!)
Apparently it was suppose to be funny and I should laugh
But...! The surrounding was to noisy to hear what the script was about.
It was changed from english to hokkien but I couldn't listen to a single thing and I'm too chickened after hearing those eerie spooky sound!
Overall, it was amusing.
We teased each other like we used too
Damn....! I miss those moments.
Owh... And yeah, KerLee managed to eat her roti canai and I manage to eat my burger!
And... I spotted a yellow STORM!
I kept checking out on that carplate and was at ease when I knew it wasn't him.
I never want him to see my laugh like a crazy girl for no reason.
How embarrassing would that be?!

Watched GLEE last night.
It was all about ballad.
Man... Those music were so beautiful and touching! ( Though I already heard all of them )
Songs like 'endless love', 'I'll stand by you' and 'lean on me'.
My oh my... I had goosebumps after listening to those songs!
Gosh... I love GLEE so much!
Their songs are so so so... I lost out of words!

My fringe!
I finally cut it!
And I look like a silly joker now!
Sobs... Have to bare for few weeks or probably months for it to grow longer.
Sigh...
Well, forget it!

Hmm... Kinda miss him.
Hope to 'bump' into him on friday!
= )

Heaven and Hell

I got a very big shock on sunday night.
I was having dinner with my parents at a restaurant.
As usual, I'll look at people everywhere I go.
Out of no where, I saw someone resembling him.
Not thinking much, I thought it's him.
To be honest, I was terrified to the max.
All I was thinking were "why is he here", "how can I be that unlucky" and things like that.
I didn't even dare to look up to take another look at him.
When I finally have the courage to do so, I looked up!
And so happen he was looking back at me.
I stared at him for few seconds and look down again.
I was so scared to see him.
I don't know what I'm scared of.
But that feeling of fear was all over me!
I kept repeating those questions in my head!
I really do hate that sort of feeling.
Then suddenly it came to my senses that that fella is not even in the peninsular of Malaysia!
So how on earth I can meet him here?!
It took all my guts to look to that direction again.
And I'm glad I did so!
It wasn't him!
Thank goodness sake!
The people around him wasn't his family members.
I stared a few times at him.
Damn! He look so alike him!
I'm so not returning to that restaurant again.
That second when I realise it wasn't him, it felt like someone pulling me out of hell.

Well, about 3883.
It started of with a single crush.
But I think I've went a little deeper.
It's beyond ordinary like.
I know it sounds weird to love a total stranger.
But... I can't help it.
It's so hard for me to resist.
I can't stop thinking of him.
Every single time I pass by that row of shop, it's a must for me to take a glimpse into the shop.
As if something is attracting.
It's hard to defy such gravity!
I know it's silly to like a guy without knowing anything about him.
Not even his name.
But I do fall head over heels when I sees him.
And everytime cars which resembles his pass by, I would check out the carplate and hoping is his.
I do get over-reacted sometimes!
Thinking of him brings smile on my face.
Brings joy to my life.

Happiness is around the corner.
Who knew thoughts will give so much delight in one's life

= P