Breaking my breaks!

I feel like crying!!!
Why is our mid semester break different with other universities??
It's already hard enough for me to meet them.
Now it's even harder!!!!
Arghhh.....
I hate it when things are not going according to my plan.
(That's why I'm always mad!)
Darn I really miss them!
Those are the people whom I meet everyday during my school life.
Now, I can only meet them few times in a year.
And yet, this kind thing happens!
How am I suppose to meet them??!!
Eeeeeeeeeeeeee.............
I feel like screaming so badly.
But I'll do so when I'm back at the beach.
Then I'll go "AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~"
I miss doing that!
I shall have a list of 'The Things to Do in Kuantan'
Seriously........... I'm like freaking out in my heart!!
I can't shout now unless if I want my roommate to think that I have some mental breakdown or whatsoever.
Anyway.......... I'll got back during Haji break!
Lalala.........

1 more thing!
I found my long lost primary schoolmate.\
Ei wait, it's him who found me.
I had a great laugh thanks to him.
Of all things to use to describe me, he said I'm fierce!!!
Ahhhh.......
I'm no longer fierce la........
I have to  be fierce last time.
But not anymore!
Maybe now still a little but not as bad as last time.
Arghhhh...........
"Wanna try a dose of my fierceness during my secondary school life?"
Hahaha............
Damn...........!!!!!!!
See...!!! Now I'm fierce!
Just kidding........

I can't help it if I look fierce.
My father look fierce too...
I got his genes! XD

I Have A Husband

Hahaha........
It's just an imaginary husband.
No point getting excited.
Anyways, the new erhua families are formed.
(I still don't understand why they choose me to be a mother! It'll be a total silence in my family)
College's family day started yesterday too.
I'm in ED. XD
Let's see how well I can act!
I wish to get evil character.
Know why? Cause all they do is to laugh loudly!
I'm very good at that = D

Lol....
This post is just for me to brag that I have a husband.
Sad case is that it's not real! XD
Gosh I'm so lame....

Dogtors!

Uni life starts again... (SO RELUCTANT!)
But many things happened that made me feel even more reluctant to be back in Uni.
The week before school starts, ah gong was diagnosed with stroke.
Glad that it's just a minor stroke but this is his second time.
I can't help but feel guilty cause I'm the one who brought him to hospital for his usual medical check ups during my break.
He complained his pain and feel numbness to the doctor.
But the doctor did not pay extra attention to what he said and sort of just brush this matter aside.
All the doctor gave was multivitamin and without any further checking or so.
She said that multivitamin will help to reduce the pain and numbness.
I should have insist her to give ah gong a proper check up but I didn't
2 days later, ah gong could not bare with the pain any longer.
That day so happen  to be National Day and most clinics and private hospitals are closed.
We manage to find 1 but the doctor told us to send ah gong to general hospital because his condition is  serious and his clinic does not have the equipment to test for stroke.
We ended up going to the emergency department and waited for nearly 2 hours before a doctor finally able to attend my ah gong (2 hours for EMERGENCY cases! WTH!!)
And the doctor.... Gosh.... I thought I will strangle her at one point!
Her diagnose report was gout.
Reason is, ah gong did not have all the symptoms of stroke. =.=
What kind of doctors are they??!!
The best part is, she gave us a letter to bring forward the next appointment date which is on December.
I went to the MOPD department on Monday to get a new date.
Guess what?
The earliest date that they can give is November.
What's the differences!!! It's only 1 month apart and my grandfather is 88 years old and in pain!!
Is that all you can do??
When I ask for an earlier date, she can't give me.
I ask her why and her answer was "Surat sini doktor tick 'TIDAK SEGERA'"
Doctor, THANK YOU SO MUCH!
My face turned black on the spot and I just grab my grandfather's appointment book and left.
I'm sorry for being rude but they are seriously irresponsible!
And they say doctors save life... (I want to smack them, punch them, kick them SOOO MUCHHH!)
After knowing that he have to wait such a long time, he finally decided to go to specialist.
And that was the day he was diagnosed and confirmed with stroke.
Felt so guilty... And I cursed the 2 doctors a lot!
Ah gong's car broke down too on that day.
And he said something that I don't know whether I should cry or laugh
"人病， 车也病"

I went back home last Friday and heard another shocking news.
Ah ma fell down again and it's serious this time.
She fell down once during my break but it wasn't that serious.
She just had difficulties standing after sitting too long.
But this time she bruised her body and had her arm dislocated.
She had her surgery on Thursday and was discharged on Friday.
No one told me about it until the day I was back at Kuantan.
It's hard to see her so weak and sick.
And the hardest part is that there's nothing I can help but to be by her side.
It's a relief that she's looking much better this morning before we left.
I wish I could go back often but I know I cant.
But still I'll be going back in 2 weeks time again.

Sigh...
I guess they're really old now.
It's just so sad to see them like this.
They're the ones who took care of me since I was young.
They care for me even more than my parents.
I just hope that they can recover...

It's Not Easy To Be Me

Will there be any peace??
Don't they get fed up??
The only time I get is when they are away from me.
For some reason that's the only time I have peace in my mind.
Once they're back,
All that's pop out in my mind are 'They're gonna start it again', 'They're gonna start again', 'Again...'
I have headaches every single time they come back.
EVERY SINGLE TIME!!!
Is like I have to think of what to say, how to reply, how to react.
I'm literally acting in front of them.
With all the scripts running in my head... 'Say this', 'Don't say that', 'Should I keep quiet?'
Move, don't move... Hide, don't hide.... Speak, don't speak...
Even I start to doubt every thing I do now.
It's so annoying!!!
Sometimes I even thought of moving out
It's just so irritating and just URGHHHHH........!!!!!
 I'm proud of myself for being this great actor.

I'm happiest when I'm with my dog. ALONE!!!
I'd rather face the tv and laptop whole day then to see them for a minute!
That's my wish now!
To be by myself.
Don't blame me if one day I just leave

난 슬픈
난 아픔
너무 섭섭해
알아??
너... 몰라....

They're Same

Had a great time at the beach last night.
Met up with KerLee and Nana...
Hahahaha.... It's been a long time since I last seen Nana.
We used to be together during tuition since Form 1.
We always sat together partly because the only people we know in the class is each other.
Mum never allow me to attend tuition classes with my friends.
She sends me to where my siblings used to go and I shall continue the legacy... XD
Anyways, back to the story.
And so, she so happened to be in the classes.
I was lucky to have her there.
Otherwise I'll be all alone. ( Owh so sad!)

It's a small small world.
She so happen to be my friend's roommate in Uni.
How lucky!!!
To have someone whom you already know from the same hometown to be your roommate!
Hell yeah I'm jealous.
Can just joke around without worrying about offending because we are already so close.

We chatted all night till we didn't realize how fast time passed.
And our topics are what we usually talk about.
Uni life, studies, boys and boys and boys.
Okay...
So we talked mostly about boys.
And so the topic of past relationships starts!
And as she was telling me her story, about what cause them to break up,
Why there's such anger and stuff like that,
I somehow felt something.
I turned to her and said "This sounds so familiar!"
She then asked "Have you already heard my story before?"
I answered "Nah... It sounds exactly like my story!"
Bwahahaha!!!!!!!!
We laughed so hard. Or maybe it was just me!
I can't help it.
It's like every guys said the same thing when they have changed.
Is it that every guy had a similar script that they had thought of??
Lie no.1: I'm very tired
Lie no.2: I'm very busy. you'll know how I feel when you enter _______
And as they were giving these reasons to us, they find time to do other stuff which is not reasonable.
If it's stuff like studying or rest of course we can understand that.
But if it's like meeting up with 'friend' and complaining about how tired it is when we call or text,
then that's another story!
Is it us that cause you to be tired and busy??!!
Oh crap... bad memories are back.

I bet I can write a book 'How Much I Hated My Ex!'
Might be a bestseller.
Who knows! XD

Don't Touch Me!

Seriously... This is why I hate foreigners so much!
Or maybe he's not a foreigner but he looks like one to me.
And damn him for pissing me off so early in the morning.
Had my usual walk in the morning as usual with grandparents
And these silly men suddenly walk up and tried to talk to me in that silly mandarin of his.
'ni hao ma~' I was like... Giving him my ganas stare and ignored him.
And a second later his hand was approaching my back.
That's the WTF moment where I raised my voice and said "DON'T TOUCH ME!"
Ok... It's not just the voice that scared him.
Plus my furious stare and a finger pointing pointing straight into his eyes.
I would have punch him if I had the courage, for trying to lay his freaking dirty hands on my back.
He backed off "Okay... Okay..."
Boy I must be that mad for a man to be so taken aback with my reaction.
Seriously, I hate strangers doing things like that.
Who the heck you think you are??!!
Should had laid my fist on his face and screw his mouth!

I'm too stressed lately.
Many things happened at home.
And that idiot just make my day even worse!
 Urghh.......

There She Goes

Our beloved Yun finally went to Australia.
Awwwwww........
Missing her so much.
No more gossiping in her room for a year I guess.
= )
Hopefully she'll cope well there.
It's funny that we've been always together since we're 15.
Even our parents knew each other even before us.
Such fate... Hahahaha....
It's fortunate to have her as friend.
Makes things so much easier.
As in, if I want to go out and hang out with my friends, the easiest way is mentioning her.
"I'm going out with ShiYun."
And that's it XD
No more long questions.
Somehow my parents allow me to go out if I mention her name.
That's because they know her parents.
And allow me to go at ease.
Those were the good old times.
= )
4 of us would always sit together during classes.
Eating food when teachers are teaching in front.
Goofing and laughing around.
Talk like nobody's business.

IMU TAN SHI YUN

 ♥