JoJoLoCo

Break of Dawn!

2012-01-18T18:18:00.003+08:00

Yay..... Weight is dropping.
By 2kg...
I know it's not much. But at least it dropped!
Better than nothing right?
Heeeheeee......
What am I doing?
Oh nothing.
Just crazy downloading 2 days 1 night!
Bwahaha!!!!!
Okay okay.... Enough of those crazy LSG moment.
I'll just rejoice by myself = P
Have been going to the beach everyday since Monday.
I just LURVE it so much!
TC is usually packed with human (which I'm phobia of) at night.
So going there early in the morning is so so so freaking much fun.
I'll be hopping, jumping, running up and down like nobody's business.
It's super fun!!!
The only hard thing to do is waking up.
Man do I wake up early.
6am just to go to the beach.
Well.... At least I get to accompany my grandparents during my holidays.
And they feed me well. XD
(Is that a good news?)

Why whenever I have the spirit to blog, something will pop up and I have to leave!
Sigh....
Will have to continue some other time
Bye bye my bloggie <3

Knock Knock!

2012-01-13T11:40:00.002+08:00

Oh yeah............ I'm super crazy these few days!

Haah!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Will be sitting for my last paper tomorrow.

But here I am blogging. *tsk tsk tsk*

Sad case.... Who cares!

It's SeungGi's day today!

WooHoo.....

Hahaha....

Doing some serious video searching!

Awwww...... He's just so cute!

Especially in 2 days 1 night and Strong Heart.

Sigh...... Too bad 2d1n will end soon.

That's like the saddest news ever.

I mean, where else can I see SeungGi on screen?!

Aigoo.........

Ahhhh....... What the heck am I doing?!

Joanne Lee, please study for your Bio paper!

Bio........... Bioooolooooooogeeeeeeeeeeeee..............

Hate it.

Urgh.......

It's the end

2012-01-12T14:52:00.004+08:00

Few more days and I'll end my first semester.
Weee....... = )
Somehow I felt like I've wasted a whole year doing nothing.
Seriously, now that I think back of the past, I gain nothing but WEIGHT.
Hahaha!!! I find it funny....
Okay, cut the crap!
Anyways, time passed super fast in year 2011.
Maybe too many things happened.
My mind is like a malfunctioning computer which lags every single time whenever there's too many things loading at the same time.
In the end, I have to open my task manager and end the programmes that are not running anymore.
Wait, what am I talking about?
Whatever....
The point is, I'm too lost in 2011.
It's like a series of unfortunate events keep happening on me.
When will it end???
Hopefully all the 'not-so-good-and troublesome-things' ended in 2011!
It's TWENTY TWELVE guys!!
Happy New Year~~!!
Alright, today is 12/1/2012.
I'm a LITTLE late to wish everyone happy new year.
But better than nothing.
Yipes..... I think I just got back my blogging feel.
Oh yeah....~~ Let's crap. (Excuse me for being like this cause Uni life totally ruined this crappy side of mine so I'm kinda excited now that this crappiness is back! *winks* )
Welllllllllllllllllllllllllllll..........................
This few weeks had been the most comfortable time in my Uni life (Excluding the exam moments which turned me into a total freak!)
Joining different group of people having dinner together.
Hang out with my coursemates and college mates...
Ended up meeting ShiYun and left my group *AWKWARD!*
But seriously, meeting Yun just made my day.
I don't know why but I'm very happy to meet my Kuantan friends when I'm not in Kuantan.
Just make me feel so, so, so..... You know, the back to home feel. *sweeeeet*
Ah well, I'll be home soon. REAL SOON.
2 more days and bye bye uni....
I'll be crazy baking stuff
I MISS MY OVEN!!!!!
Sighhh....
I wanna write more but just got a call to go downstairs to study.
Great timing.
Did i mention I have another paper to go?
Hahahaha....
I'm too into holiday spirit.

Oh oh oh!!!!
Can't forget this
Happy Birthday LeeSeungGi~!
<3 (I know you guys think I'm crazy but it's very important for me to wish this!)
It's tomorrow anyway, I'll wish again tomorrow.
XD

Till then..... Jo = )

Not being ME~!

2011-12-07T20:26:00.002+08:00

Sigh....
It's been months now since I entered Uni
But somehow I'm still not used to this new environment.
It's so weird.
I can't be myself here.
I can't believe I'm actually this quite
And not laughing out loud like I used to.
All the HAHAHAHAHA and banging on table and stuff like that....
So hard to do something that you always do when you're in a different situation.
Sad case la.....
Seriously....!!!!
I can't mix in to this new situation!!!!
Now I know why people get emo when they enter uni...
Arghh~~~
If only they offer us to continue studying in our secondary school after form 6
How nice would that be??!!
I don't even have to trouble myself on what to wear.
At least I still get to watch SeungGi on the internet. (Better than nothing XD)

Mentioning about SengGi,
I wanna go Seoul badly!!!!
I wanna go for his concert on this weekend!!!
Sad man!!
= (

And I have time to camwhore XD
Who cares....
Not many know about this anyways~~
This is seriously not for public especially when I'm in Uni.
= P

JoJo's forever same smile~!

Rise and Shine~~~

This is what happen when you wake someone up too early in the morning (CRAZY!)

WooHoo~!!!! cut my hair! Forever won't grow long!

The one and only!

2011-10-16T20:28:00.000+08:00

I'm so addicted to this song!!!
OMG....
All time favourite singer.
I listen to this song so many times till my roommate can't stand.
The power of LSG! : D
Wanna date? : )

OMG......... Time to update!

2011-10-03T18:29:00.002+08:00

My blog seems so dead!!!!
Haven't been able to update since since since........ long long time ago
Awwwwww.......
I miss typing so much!
Now that I have unlimited internet access, I can update as many times as I want!
Yeah....!!!!
But I don't think I have that much time.
Thanks to the college I'm staying.
So many activities since the day I entered uni!
Did I mention I'm finally in uni??
People, I'm in university!!!
Living in a university!
Staying like a university student!!
Nothing great though.....
Having homesick!!!
Miss my family, my dogs, my friends......
If only they were here too.
Anyways, back to topic!
Since day 1 I entered, I never knew they've arranged so many events for us.
University orientation> college orientation>block orientation>family day....
I hope the list ends there.
I haven't even started studying.
And my lecturers..... Urghhhhhhh.................
They're good in making people feel sleepy.
So many assignments and presentations!!!!
I wanted to go back to secondary school life so much.
EAT SLEEP PLAY in the class.

Oh!!! I forgot to mention this!
Seniors here are sooooooooooooooo scary!
Feel like they'll eat us up any moment!
It's so tiring for us to fulfill their needs.
There's a week where the girls in our block get to sleep only after 1 or 2am!
Crazy right!!!!!
I miss my seniors so much.
At least they play and chit chat with us.
Unlike now. All they do is scold scold scold.
And they say it's for our own good.
What kind of good?
Eyebags?? Sickness?? Fatigue??
So many of us visited our uni's college thanks to them!!
Crazy people!!!!!!
Test 1 is on next week and we still have so many things on!!!
Arghhhh!!!
Most of us are already planning on where to stay next week even it is just the 3rd and 4th week we've been in this college.
Sad case right!!!!!

I wanna go back kuantan so much!!!
I want my family!
I want my bed!
I want my tv!
I wanna watch Seunggi!!!!!!!!!
That's the thing I missed most!
Sighhhhh.....
Another 3 weeks and I'll head home!!!
Perseverance is all I need now!
Till then.........

What's new? = )

2011-04-26T22:34:00.003+08:00

Lee Seung Gi!!!!!!!

Yes! He's the cute guy with a charming smile on 1 night and 2 days.

I watch the that programme twice a week just to see him!

Ahhhh!!!

He's so adorable!

Listening to his music now.

Soooooo nice (though I don't understand a single word)

But it's so relaxing and very touching

I can't find other words to describe him.

He's really really cute!!!!

I'm so gonna watch all of his dramas and listen his songs!

♥Lee SengGi!

Jo Alone Again

2011-04-12T10:45:00.006+08:00

My sisters left me!!!!!!

Sobs.....

I was crying all the way back after dropping them at the bus station.

And there's this guy who stared at me in his car.

Crying while driving is so not a good thing to do!

But I can't help it!

When I reached home, no one greet me.

I'm back to facing four walls and a tv with a dog.

There's no one to talk to now.

Sigh.... I'm sad......

And I'm still crying.

Hope this wifi never go missing.

Cause this is the only place for me to talk (type actually)

No one to sleep with

No one to talk with

No one to play with

No one to quarrel with

= (

Times Flies...

2011-03-31T21:41:00.003+08:00

Haven't update my blog for a very looooong time.
Hahaha...
Partly is because I don't have internet access.
Yes! Again! I wonder what happened to that free wifi services....
Too many users like me I guess XD

Anyways, about ME now.
Went for a 4 days trip to Sabah.
Yawn yawn.... Nothing fun or interesting there.
I rather stay in Kuantan.
I didn't even eat any seafood!!!!!
No crab, no prawn, no lobster, no clam, no nothing!!!!
But it wasn't that bad cause I'm allergic to seafood and my lips were cracking.
The worst part was my dad wanted to take a look at UMS.
A total NO NO for me!!

Last week, went back to school for Anugerah Kecemerlangan.
Some sort of ceremony where I'll attend only because I'm in the list.
Haha!!
I know... Bad!
It's my first time and my last time to be on a stage to accept any awards during my secondary school life.
A bit late right?
But better than nothing.
We have to dress in a robe!
For pete's sake! We're just 20. We haven't even enter university.
And why on earth do they have dress code if they already planned something for us.
Total waste of money for me to buy something appropriate!
At least we look better than the younger ones.
Imagine those 16-year-old kids wearing them.
*Laugh!*
The best part was the cash!
RM250. Not bad!
Took some pictures.
Unfortunately it's in my sister's camera.
Can't upload!
Sobs!

About my job.
Gosh... I'm so bored of it!
Those kids really drive me crazy.
I wanna quit! So badly!
I can't take it any longer!
I wanna go to kl.......
Have to wait and see.
Hope luck is on my side
*crossing fingers*

I guess that's it.
I brag about my job so many times till I don't feel like mentioning it.
Just makes me sick.

Guess Who?! XD

2011-03-04T21:27:00.003+08:00

It's obvious I'm free now.
I thought it'll be fun to do something silly like this.
I laughed while typing this.
Believe me.
I think so hard about you guys and realise we did quite a lot of silly things together.
The more I think of you guys, the funnier things get.
You guys are really very cute at times!

Now, this is how to play this game.
Simply read those characteristics that I write and guess who I'm talking about.
1)______________________
This person is a real blur one.
Always lost in our conversations.
Very funny and sociable.
We always gather in the room.
And we adore this person grandmother's food!
Hahaha... We crave those food so much especially fried rice!

2)_____________________
Hmm... This person is a strong silent type.
You'll never see her in anger.
Well-mannered, polite and lovable.
You'll never find any friend like this person.
But... Don't under estimate this person's stregth.
A whack will give you a big bruise.

3)_____________________
A person who is good in academic and non-academic.
Very well organised.
Always working hard to achieve goals.
Look strong outside, but very fragile deep inside.
Loves pink A LOT
My listener when I'm down.

4)_____________________
The scary one....
We always get molested when this person is around.
Very hardworking in reading certain type of articles (you know what XD)
Has great command of English
Very cute and adorable!
We'll never get bored when this person is around.

5)_____________________
This person is a DIY freak.
Good in handcrafts and lots of other stuff.
Another no temper person.
Gets a little silly at times.
But is a very fun loving person.

6)____________________
The emo one. VERY!
Complains about almost everything.
Good in basketball and mathematic.
And an excellent eater!
Used to have the most special hair among my friends.
But it seems they're back to normal.

7)___________________
My taufufah partner!!!!
The one who brings me for food.
A future accountant (Am I right??)
This person always wants to win.
Teaches me lots of cantonese words.
Including the bad ones = P

Guess them yourselves.
This is too easy.
And I think the clues that I give are pretty direct.

Dilemma

2011-02-25T09:44:00.003+08:00

I have a weird feeling now!
It's like....
Before taking result, during taking result and after taking result,
I still feel so freaking nervous!
The problem that I have now is to choose the right course and the right university to enter.
I know what some may think
"Just pick whatever you're interested in!"
Well.... I wish I can do that
BUT I CAN'T!
Know why??
Cause I might and I will choose to be a pâtissier or better known as pastry chef
And my parents will slaughter me for good if I chose that course!
So... Still thinking hard.
Accounting is the only proffesional course I can choose now.
No I don't want to be an educator.
My little chicks ruined that dream of mine.
I don't want kids yelling at me "teacher teacher teacher!!" anymore.
Business management?
It's like the whole world is studying business management.
It's becoming a common course
It seems that any graduates you ask on what course they took, they'll answer you "Business"
Finance... Hmm....
it's okay for me but I'll still be studying that subject under accounting.
I might as well just take up accounting.

It's so hard to choose.
I know what I want to be but I can't opt for that.
I might have that slight opportunity if my result is slightly lower.
See.... Good grades bad grades equally bad!
Gives me headache for no reason!
This is killing me!

Till then,
Jo....

To That Someone

2011-02-21T17:39:00.004+08:00

Hey... You know what?
This is the first time I feel like thanking you for dumping me.
Thanks to you I studied so hard night and day
Fill my time with homeworks and tuitions just to forget you.
You chose the right time to leave me.
Thank you thank you thank you.
If it wasn't because of you breaking my heart
I wouldn't have worked so hard from the beginning.
And thanks to you
I got nothing else to think of besides my studies.
At least my hard work paid off.
And this just proves the power of breaking up with you.
Though there're some miserable nights when I sobbed just because you're not around
Well.... I don't care anymore.
Know why?
Cause I know it's not worth it!

I won't ruin myself just because you left me.
Instead, I become stronger.
So much better than you'll think of.
It feels so good right now.
Without you... So???
I'm still breathing, walking, eating...

People! I got 3.75!!!
Though I'm not the best, but I've put in all my efforts.
Better than my expectation.
Thanks to all my friends for all the supports and encouragements.
You guys are my best buddies ever!!!
2A for my econ and general paper, A- for my accounts and B+ for my maths.
A bit disappointed with my maths but it's still okay overall.

One lesson learnt.
Love isn't everything.
Stand back up from the place you fell.

Prove them wrong and make them regret!

My Valentine ♥

2011-02-15T19:08:00.005+08:00

No! I don't have a boyfriend!
BUT
I get two kisses.
One from my 5 years old kid in the kindergarten
And another one from my grandma.
Haha...
I know it's funny.
It's been years since my grandma last kissed me.
And that little girl....
It was so sudden.
"teacher.... *muackz*"
Anyway, this proves I don't need a boyfriend to be loved!

I received a news too on valentine's day.
Not that someone had a crush on me or anything like that (though I'm wishing for that. Just kidding... XD)
Apparently, STPM result will be out on next Monday 21/2
Which is 6 days from today.
AHHHHH.............
Yeah... That's the exact thing I did when my friend told me.
My sister was so annoyed by my screams she wrote it on the newspapers in both sections.
Mum and dad saw it but they didn't ask much.
It's kinda early to release the result on that date.
Imagine.... If the result is good, then you'll have a bundle of joy.
If it turns out bad, you have to suffer for 7 months before you'll enter into local uni.
Saddest part is you're not even accepted in any local uni.
How sad is that!!!
Better not think much.

I guess that's what happened on my valentine.
Oh ya, and I lost my voice mid way teaching my kid.
It got worse this morning
= (

Heaven!

2011-01-29T00:02:00.002+08:00

My long awaited day had arrived!
I'll be FREEEEEE from this very day...
Hip Hip Hooray~~!!
No kids, no shouting, no heart attacks
I'm in for a lovely week <3
Waiting for my friends to be back.
I miss them loads!!!
Miss crapping the most though....
It's like our routine.
Everytime we're together, the chit chatting times will be never ending.
Talking about these makes my mouth itchy already = D

The thought of no kids for a week really puts a grin on my face!
I feel so bad for feeling this way.
But I guess this kind of thought is acceptable, No? = P
There's a few cute ones that I'll miss though...
Well... I better enjoy the week before heading back to the jungle.
It's pretty wild out there.
Believe me... very wild!
Like monkeys jumping all over the place swinging form branch to branch.
Haha...
Maybe I exaggerated a little.
But it felt that way to me.
You have to be in my shoe to understand me.
I know... They're just kids...
What harm can they do??
A lot!!!!

Just finish baking.
Have to rush for orders.
Oh so tired~~~
Have to continue tomorrow.
$$$

Updates!

2011-01-24T09:35:00.004+08:00

I think it's a bit too late to update about what's happening in my life recently.
But better than nothing rite? = P

First of all, I'm in my twenties now!
Sad case!
But the good news is, I'm not officially 20. (I will not admit until it's my birthday!)
When you're young, you wish to be older so you can do 'adult stuff''.
When you pass your teenage life, you wish you could turn back time and be young all over again.
Sigh.... Let's just face it.
Let's age gracefully~ XD

What I'm doing now??
Oh nothing... Just hanging around my house.
Stuffing food in my mouth, baking 24 hours a day, watching every single shows and advertisements on the tv and sleeps after every yawn.
Hahahaha....
That's just what I wish to do after finishing my exams.
Unfortunately... NO!!
My life didn't work out that way.
In fact, I'm now a teacher.
Teaching, screaming, chasing pre-school chidren.
Yes they drive me crazy!!!
I was like.... AHHHHHH~~~~!!!!
In my mind of course.
Otherwise they'll think I'm a freak.
But the nice part is they're seriously cute.
I call them 'the sweetest devils'
I also give tuition to a 9 years old girl.
She's the most adorable girl!
Though a little mischievous which makes me go nuts sometimes.
At least she's better than those little chicks!
I got to say, my job is pretty simple.
All I have to do is make sure she finishes her homeworks before going home.
And if it's still early, I'll just give her do some exercises.
That's all!
Easy earning money when you're a teacher.
Though the way they call me makes me feel so OLD
But look on ther brighter side $$$
And the fun part is, I'll have holidays whenever they're having their break!
Ain't that the coolest?!
No works, money keeps flowing in!

What else??
I have to start baking for chinese new year cookies!
Had orders already but I can't make them too early as it'll not taste as good as freshly baked ones.
I keep telling my mum I'll bake later but she doesn't understand it.
Seriously, cookies taste awfully bad if they aren't fresh!!!!
But no one seems to agree.
All they want is cookies right in front of their very own eyes.
Who cares!!!
I'll do everything at my own pace.
Thought of doing cupcakes on valentine.
But have to see.
I don't like doing things half way.
Is either do or nothing at all!!
Besides, my old faithful eaters aren't around!
Who'll eat for me then?
Might as well wait for them to be back.
Chocolate truffles, cupcakes with swirly cream, valentine heart shaped cakes~ *dreaming*

Oh oh oh!!!!
I forgot to mention my Singapore trip!
Well, I think this post is a bit too long.
Will brag about it in my next post!

*winks*

For Real!

2011-01-22T00:35:00.004+08:00

Yes!!!
This is for real!!
I finally have internet access!!!
Woohoo~~~!!!! *jumping/hopping/clapping*
Yay...!!!!
Had been waiting for this for so freaking long!
It's a bit too late now.
Will upload some pictures and videos
And of course update my stuff (believe me, there's lots of stuff i wish to blah out here!)
Anyways....
l'll continue writing tomorrow.

Nitez people~!

Happy New Year

2011-01-01T16:08:00.004+08:00

Yay!!! It's 2011 guys!!!
Happy new year to everyone~!
It was pretty fun last night
Though it's just the 2 of us ( ShiYun and me)
We did silly things like 'listing potential boyfriends', nail polishing and we drank 'you know what'
Hahahaha....

There's nothing much to do when there's only 2 people in a room
We did lots and lots of gossiping (as usual!)
And we constantly check on Mr KS's profile to see whether that 'someone' posted anything on his wall
Unfortunately, NO!
KS, if you're reading this, I must tell you something.
Yun and I are very DISAPPOINTED cause that 'someone' didn't post!!!
But we spammed your wall anyway XD

That's pretty much everything.
The sun is out today!
Bright and shiny to warm up the gloomy weather!!!
In 2 days time I'll start working.
(please please don't cry. Otherwise I'll cry with all of you *sobs*)

p/s: I deleted my cbox cause there's many weirdo leaving comments there. Anything just comment on my post. Baking will resume tonight (hopefully!)

Bake To Baking!

2010-12-17T15:21:00.002+08:00

Exam ended!!!!! *hoorays X100!*
And yes I finally started to bake!!
CUPCAKES!!
Will think of baking other stuff from now on.
Cause I seriously hate my frosting!!!
I'll do some other things!!!
Christmas is just around the corner!
I'll bake a christmas tree and yule log tomorrow!
Yay!!!

Miss Out!

2010-11-18T21:52:00.002+08:00

Have to write another post cause I forgot to upload some pictures.
Dumb right?
Here are the pictures for today's celebration
I'm too lazy to write.
Till here..........

The Birthday Gurl~!

I baked these!! Believe it??

Aren't these the cutest??!!

I finally manage to get my frosting right!

Soooooooooo happy!

Surprise Surprise~!

2010-11-18T20:04:00.003+08:00

Had loads of fun today!!!

We celebrated yun's birthday (though it's a bit too late)

We woke up like.... 6.30am!!

Haha... Cause we thought that she's going for gym in the morning.

But she didn't!!

Anyways, we couldn't manage this without the help of her brother!

Ya! Zhen planned it out for us so that our wicked plan works! (naughty naughty!)

We crashed into her room while she's still super blur.

Just in case you guys can't imagine the way she look,

Fret not!

We recorded it!!! (I know! We're BAD!)

Last Day of School

2010-11-16T14:03:00.002+08:00

Oh yeah it's the last day!!!
Too bad I still have to sit for my exam.
I guess it's not the last day for me.
Well, 1 more month to go and I'll get total freedom!
Muahahaha.............

Getting rid of this uniform!!!

Quiche

2010-11-12T17:25:00.002+08:00

I know... I should concentrate on my studies now.
And not day dreaming about food...
But I couldn't resist it!!!
So yeah... I baked XD
Hahaha....
Seriously, I have to stop baking!!!!
The funny part is my parents didn't stop me from doing so!
All they say was "You still have time to do these?"
Are they hinting me not to bake??
Well, they should've tell me straight to my face.
Or maybe lock me in the room whole day and serve me my meals so that I'm not allowed to step out of my room.
Something like detention.

Argggghhhhhh.........
Fine....!! I'll study tonight!
By hook or by crook!!!
I must study!!!!
Books, please love me.
I know you love me...
Me and you have a special bond, right?

I present...... Q.U.I.C.H.E. = )

Say AHHHHH!

2010-11-10T13:43:00.002+08:00

Looks like everyone is stressed by exams.

Yeah... I'm one of them.

And like everyone else, I wish this would end fast!

Well, nothing comes easy.

STPM, I love you as much as I hate you!

Get it? XD

The scent of freedom!

Ooohhhh......................

A Minute

2010-11-08T16:16:00.003+08:00

A minute ago I thought I've found my long lost friend.
Browsing through her photos to seek for confirmation.
When I confirmed that it was her, all I can say is "I'm too late"
I was shocked to see her fb wall full of messages with RIP
I can't believe this.
I was so happy that I've finally found her after years of searching.
And now I am so devastated by this news.
It was just hours ago when she left this world.
I still can't believe that it's actually her.

The cheeky girl who sat next to me for 2 years during maths and english tuitions.
We goofed around and had loads of fun together.
She's the one who made friends with me when I'm alone.
I really missed her.
How much I wish she's still alive.
I never had a chance to talk to her for these few years.
And I never would.

RIP Shan, I miss you

Guess I'm Right

2010-11-05T22:49:00.005+08:00

Seeeee!!!!

All guys are alike!

Mark my words

Whether they're handsome or ugly, rich or poor, tall or short.

They are all ALIKE!

All the sweet talks turned into white lies

All the promises are brushed away like yesterday's dandruff

Can't they be more responsible towards their relationships??

Or the problem is with us girls??

Oh brother, whatever it is, it's none of my business!

Know why?

Cause I don't believe in true love anymore

Happily ever after?

BLAH!

Let's just keep that sentence for fairy tale.

We all know well enough that it'll not happen in real like.

Some say I'm turning into a men-hater.

I might...

Who knows?

SHOUT IT OUT!

2010-11-04T08:56:00.003+08:00

Look! I don't know what went wrong with me lately.

Those dreams are really killing me!!!

I seriously hate people whom I dislike constantly popping on my mind.

I know this is a 'long long time ago' story.

But I just couldn't help it!

My brain isn't functioning the way I want it to work.

Gosh..........

Are there any prescription or medication to forget a person???

I'm an absent-minded person.

Why can't I forget about the people I wanted to put out of my mind!

It's so annoying and I hate to blog about this topic!!!

But somehow I have to find a way to blah everything out cause this had been bothering me for days!

And I can't stand it!!!

I need help.

I don't want this to interfere my life...

Move on ain't an easy decision to make.

I've chose to move on but.......

This is a nuisance/ disturbance/ irritant in my life!!

Please get out of my mind...

All I want is a little peace!

I don't want to be bothered by this problem.

I don't want a tear to bring me down.

I don't want my feelings to be all tangled up.

p/s: In my dictionary, there's no such word for FOREVER!

Kiwi Cream Cheese Tarts

2010-11-01T21:55:00.007+08:00

Oh yeah I finally baked these tarts!
Damn I feel so good now!
After postponing it for almost a month.....
It's quite simple actually.
Just mix, bake, pour and garnish.
And I tried using the mini tart tins that I just bought yesterday.
Gonna buy more tomorrow.
It's so darn cute and cheap!!!
I coated the inner part of the tarts so that it wont turn soggy when I put the cream cheese in.
And I end up with extra melted chocolate which I eventually poured it into the tiny shells.
So... Ta-da~ Chocolate tarts!
Have extra cheese now
Hmmm.... What's next??
Cheese cake!!!!
Yipes~!

The Accidental Chocolate Tarts

Flower Kiwi~

These are the tiny ones!

The midium size. ( I'm too lazy to cut the Kiwi!)

Playboy version XD ( I used cookie cutters)

Here's the recipe!

Base:

250 g unsalted butter

80 g icing sugar

1 egg

440 g all purpose flour

Cream Cheese Filling:

250 g cream cheese

80 g icing sugar

Lemon/Orange rind

Lemon/Orange juice (I use half an orange)

1) Mix the flour with sugar.

2) Add in butter and use rub-in method till it resemble bread crumbs

3) Add in the egg and knead till it becomes a dough

4) If it's too soft, put the dough into the fridge so that the dough hardens a little

5) Mould the dough into the tart tins. Use a toothpick to prick the dough and bake for 15-20 mins (depends on your tarts' size) at 180 degree celcius.

As for the filling, cream the cream cheese till it soft. Add in the icing sugar and beat again with a hand mixer or a beater. Finally, add in orange/lemon rinds and the juice. The filling should look like curd.

I didn't have any lemon at home.

I used orange instead.

But the taste is still marvelous!

Another Craze~

2010-10-31T09:48:00.003+08:00

Oh boy.... Can't wait for Christmas!!!
The season to be merry~~
Having sugar cookies in my mind!
Now i'm crazy over these cute little edible babies!
Ahhhh~~~~
Waiting for that day!
STPM, please over a.s.a.p.
I can't stand YOU anymore!!!

By the way, attended a malay wedding yesterday.
Saw Pahang Tengku Muda's wife.
Oh so pretty!!!!!
She's so gorgeous and elegent of course!!
The whole event was rather boring.
The only interesting part was the handsome pianist ♥
And the singer who sang anuar zain's song.
Woooo...........
Nice~!

If I Die Young

2010-10-30T09:05:00.000+08:00

Ever wonder what you'll do if one day you died??

People, if I die young, please remember me.

And I'll always love you guys ♥

Special People

2010-10-27T11:07:00.007+08:00

Keeping you in my mind is the one thing that'll I'll always do
Everything you've help me for these 9 years
Reaching out for me when no one else could
Lending me your ears to listen all my upsets
Encouraging me whenever I'm down
Each and every thing you've done for me, I APPRECIATE it lots!

You're like a sister to me for you've shared so many wonders with me
Under the same rainbow we've went through life's happiest and toughest moments
Now is the time for me to say that I LOVE you

Being your friend has gotta be the most joyful thing that happen in my life
All the laughters and cheers you've brought not just to me but all of us
Opening your chirpy side is what makes you so SPECIAL to us

Sharing our life's bittersweet is what we do
Holding up for each other whenever we're crashing down
Enduring all those heart wrenching moments together bonds us even closer
After what've we've been through all these years
Need not me to say how IMPORTANT you are in my life.

Jaunty as you are that makes me smile whenever you're around
Each time you show us your cheeky side will bring a grin on everyone's lips
No others can be who you are for you are such a LOVABLE person.

Tanjung Jara Resort Trip

2010-10-25T11:18:00.005+08:00

I finally had my wish!!!!
Manage to escape the hustle and bustle of life. (I seriously need a little peace!)
Took in lots and lots of sunshine and fresh air.
I'm not that satisfied cause it's too short and the food wasn't as good as I expect it to be.
We spent less than 24 hours there and not to mention my embarrassing moment.
I fainted in the gym room...
my dad and sis have to carry me out.
Lucky no one was around.
Just a housekeeper who so happen passing by that area.
And another bruise on my knee after knocking onto something which I don't know what it is, obviously!
Anyways.... I still enjoyed the day.
At least I get what I wished.
Though what I write here sounds boring, but believe me, it's relaxing and soothing!
The whole environment was so serene and all you hear is the wave crushing on the shore.
The light breeze that blows and kisses softly on your cheek.
No worries or what-so-ever.
You'll be pampered during the whole trip.
The best part was the people there are super friendly and you'll get royalty treatment.
They serve your every need!
All I did was eat, sleep, eat, sleep...............
Yeah I gained weight.
But I don't bother.
I'm not starving myself at such a situation.

Paradise~~!!! Ahhh....

The reception.

Beach! No crowds~ Me likey~

On the hammock~! Slept there for 10 minutes cause no one was around!

Overall, I released all my problems and burdens there.

Time to work hard, Jo!

Wowsers!

2010-10-20T20:27:00.002+08:00

I know it's bad to gossip.
But if it'll make me laugh, why not??
At least it'll kill my boredom.
And update myself with the latest and juiciest news of course!

*winks*

Baby ♥

2010-10-15T21:32:00.004+08:00

I was digging through some old pictures at my Friendster profile.
And look what I've found!
Pictures of baby Jerry.
It is almost four years now since we've first took care of him.
Back then, he was just slightly larger than our palm.
Can imagine how tiny he is?
Oh he's such a baby.
We pamper him a lot.
And he still acts like a baby whenever he's with us though he's an old dog now.
But he's just too adorable.
You'll never get mad of him.

Jess gave him this stuffed toy to play with.

See his short leg and tiny body. Don't suit his big head = P

Look at his sweet smile! = )

So baby. His teeth were growing back then...

Jerry hardly visits us anymore.

Partly because we have our own dog already (Same species with Jerry)

But I still misses him.

We took care of him since he was a baby.

There's a special bond between us.

Shattered Dreams..

2010-10-09T09:44:00.002+08:00

Owh great...
My neighbour is not moving in tomorrow.
And there goes my purpose to bake.
Well... I have to wait some other time then.

Thanks to those pesky mosquitoes!!!
Annoying blood-sucking monsters!!
Insect dracula.
Humphhhhhh............

Tartsie = )

2010-10-08T21:44:00.008+08:00

Finally!!! It's weekend again!
I've been looking forward for this weekend long long long time ago.
That's the only time I can do what I like most.
And what makes me happier than BAKING!!
I had search lots of recipes online.
Having tarts in my mind whole week.

Ooooooo...........
Can't wait for tomorrow.
Will be baking blueberry cheese tarts, kiwi cheese tarts,
And my very own new creations.....
Read bean/green bean/black glutinous rice tarts with coconut pastry cream as filling.
I've tried to seach whether anyone had thess same wild ideas in the internet.
Too bad no one make them before.
So I guess I'm the first silly person to do these desserts.
Hopefully it works.
I might even add green tea powder in the red bean tarts.
Green tea and red bean goes well together, Right??

I thought of these new recipes because I have tight budget.
Yes I do love baking but if the ingredients are so expensive.
Why waste so much of my time and effort when I can buy them with the same price outside?
So.... It pops out in my mind.
I'll use something that I can get anywhere and super cheap!
I can get red beans, green beans and black glutinous rice at any supermarket.
And it's super affordable compared to fresh fruits like kiwi, strawberry or blueberry.
And in country like Malaysia, these fruits are under the luxurious list as these fruits cost RM10 or more per 250grams.
I know.... It's so pricy~!
As for the filling, I'll use fresh coconut milk.
Mark my word, FRESH!
This is the advantage living in a small town area.
I can buy fresh coconut milk or coconut shred easily from a sundry shop.
And at a very very cheap price.
RM1 each for a very large amount. ( I'll take some pictures tomorrow)
If compared to cream cheese......... cheese are way more costly!

As for the result, I have to wait for tomorrow till I bake those babies.
I've baked blueberry cheese tarts before.
And it's so freaking yummy!
I hope my new creations are as good as the cheese tarts. *crossing my fingers*

I'll upload some pictures tomorrow.
Hope that it'll be a successful day tomorrow.
Pray hard~~ = )

Love Changes Everything

2010-10-06T22:37:00.002+08:00

True... Love does change everything.
As in everything...
Just had a talk with one of my old friend.
We talk much.
Mostly on my past relationship and his present relationship.
This conversation brought back bits and bits of memories.
Of course I'm a little sad now.
Knowing what I've sacrificed ain't appreciated.
And how dumb I am to do this and that for him.
Sigh....
Do regret a lot.
But, what can I do now?
A word REGRET will not turn back time.
It's a lesson meant to be learnt.
Though it may seem so hard to evercome,
at least I know I've managed to hold myself better now.
I admit I've sobbed my way through many nights.
But it makes me a stronger person now.
Physically and mentally.

Remember,
Though a tear may be ever so near,
Must always think of the good thing ahead.
Though the sky may turn dark,
There'll be a brighter day moments later.

Overweight!

2010-10-05T23:11:00.004+08:00

Hmm....
I think I should start cutting down on snacks and desserts.
My sweet tooth is causing my weight to increase!
Bulging tummy, big bum bum, flappy arms....
Sigh....
My waistline had disappeared.
My face looked like it's swollen.
Looking back on my older pictures makes me go OMG!!!!

Besides that, I can't get my proper meal on time.
Breakfast at 10.45am (usually I'll eat secretly before that time cause I'm terribly hungry!)
Then I have to wait till 2.30pm for my lunch. (thanks to my school!!)
When it's dinner time, I'll be either still to full or I have to wait till very late before I eat.
(I prefer to skip my dinner cause it's pretty unhealthy to eat after 8pm)
But I always end up with growling tummy and snacks is the best way to solve my problem.
That's why it's hard for me to choose between to eat or not to supper.
I always choose to eat as I couldn't stand starving throughout the night.

And that's what contributes to my recent figure.
I know my problems but I couldn't solve them.
Have tried numerous times to diet but to no avail.
Many suggested different type of ways to cut down body weight.
You can even search it online and they're many outcomes with uncountable solutions.

But it only worked for few days as most of them involve longterm regiments.

Depending on individual, different approach will yield different results.

Well, there's always other options like liposuction, slimming tea or slimming programs.
But it's a little dangerous and of course will cost you a bundle.
If you're loaded and you're willing to take a risk,
By all mean, go on...
If you're the scaredycat type (like me!), try doing more exercise regularly and drink plenty of water!
I hope it works!!

p/s: It's almost midnight now. Waiting for my mask to dry.
I'm a green monster XD

The Cycle Of Love

2010-10-04T21:39:00.004+08:00

When it comes to a situation where 'a boy likes a girl' or 'the girl had a crush on that boy' thingy,
Everything seems so simple.
You just accept that person into your life.
You see all of your partner's angelic side.
The charm, the look, the sweet smile, those dashing eyes, perfectly sculpted figure.
Everything that makes you go WOW WOW WOW!
You wish to be by their side no matter when or where.
The one you'll share your deepest secrets and whisper to them silently.
The one you'll wish to cuddle in their arms and listen to sound of waves crushing on the shore.

Well... This will not take long until you have your first fight/quarrel/disagreements etc etc.
And it'll take not long too to forgive your partner.
First time, yes...
But when things starts to run not as smoothly as you thought it will,
Everything turned upside down.
Then you'll begin to think.
Having flashbacks on what happened between the two of you.
You will find the flaws of your partner and your partner will think that you're the one should be blamed.
In the end, you guys will start pointing fingers at each other.
Picking up all the mistakes and making judgements.

Somehow, love turned into something ugly.
Hatred breaks those special bonds which once hold the two of you together strongly.
Anger starts to fill the minds of both of you.
When everything are unbearable, the perfect 'solution' was to break up.
The person you once cherished so so much in your life,
The one you'll sacrifice for,
The one you'll protect from all danger and harm,
Now seems so unpleasant, so intolerable....
From friends to lovers and now enemies.

Cute Little Things

2010-10-03T23:23:00.002+08:00

I finally baked!
After resisting for 2 weeks cause of my trials, I finally did it!
And I'm so proud of myself till I feel like crying. *sobs*
It's my first time baking these little babies.
It's a success and the cake. *Voila~*
The only problem was with the frosting.
Gosh... It was so freaking sweet!!
I wonder how those westerners eat their cupcakes.
The recipe even call for GENEROUS AMOUNT!
Anyways, I have to improvise my recipe now.
Was a little worried cause I used a recipe that I randomly picked online.
Luckily it turned out to be good.
Better than what I had in mind.!!

Woohoo~~~~~
I'll be baking them again next week for neighbours house warming.

This looks like a sushi box! I don't know why XD!

These are with sprinkles. I couldn't find anything nicer than these though it's not that nice!

I wanted to use chocolate shaves. But I ran out of time. Ended up with chocolate chips and chocolate rice

♥

These are just with normal frosting. Damn they look so good but it's so SWEEEEET!

These are without any frosting on! They taste perfect just the way they are. In fact, the frosting covered it's chocolaty taste!

I just love to bake!

Ain't these the cutest XD

A Little Little!

2010-10-01T23:42:00.003+08:00

Awesome! My trials ended yesterday!
Hip Hip!!!! Hoorayyy~~~!!!
I shouldn't be happy YET cause it's not my finals.
But at least I'm able to breathe a while, for pete's sake!
And I already knew some of my papers' results.
Well.... That's the price I get for not putting in any effort.
At least I passed.
Questions weren't very difficult.
Just that I can't seem to recall anything I learnt cause I never do any preparations and revisions.
Owh well... That's that.
I'll just have to concentrate on my studies MORE!
(I wish I could do that. *sigh*)

Ohhhh...!!!!!! I spotted another cute looking guy in my school.
Too bad he's younger than me.
It's not like I favour younger guys but guys who're same age with me seems.........
Better not write anything or else I might offend them.
Anywayssss............ He's cute!
AND.... I'll 'admire' him from a distance.
It'll be my last 2 months to be in this school.
Better make full use of it, right???
Geeeezz............. How time pass.
Feel so old now.
I'm gonna be 20 SOON!
I'm aging!!!!
Wait! I haven't even sit for my finals.
Why an I thinking so far ahead??? (Cause I'm a dreamer!)

Hmmm.... Thinking of baking.
My fingers are kinda itchy now.
It's hard to resist! (In my case!)
Feel like baking cupcakes.
Should I???
Maybe not......
Arghhh..... Bear with it Jo!!!
You can bake all you want by December!

6 more weeks to go before STPM starts.
Jo, you can do it!

Bad Start!

2010-09-20T22:19:00.011+08:00

Ooo... My trials started off pretty bad.
Questions were rather hard and none of the tips were accurate.
Not even one!
Luckily I didn't study on the tips given.
It'll be a total waste of time.

Read on the newspaper today.
Am a little bit pissed off!
It's about a couple abusing their maid and even force her on a threesome with them.
Come on!!!
Think people, THINK!
How on earth there's people like them
Threesome is normal in some countries
But with your maid??!!
What happened to these people's senses???
What was running in their minds when they're 'doing' with a maid?
A maid??!!
I still can't believe it.
This society is turning into something bad, real bad!
They even physically abused her with belts and irons.
Damn these people are so so so immoral!

Had my retainers on for these few nights.
Man I was so happy when my mum passed me my box of retainers!
I thought I lost them when I moved into this house.
I searched everywhere but I just couldn't find them.
I even when back to my old house to search for it.
Anyways.... At least I have them now.
The bad thing is, it hurt so bad!!!
As in freaking pain!
I even have ulcer on my gum!
I've visited the dentist many times to fix it but still............

See the bling on my teeth!

Yea I can't close my mouth properly with my retainers in it =.=

Couldn't sleep last night. Ended up taking these pictures.
I know... I'm lame = P

Ignore my messy hair. It's 12 midnight and I'm not bothered on the way I look!

Trial

2010-09-19T20:00:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow marks the first day for my trial.
And... I haven't touch any of my books!
I know... I'm that lazy.
But I really really really doesn't have the mood to study.
Studying have to depend on mood?
For my case, yea....
Gosh...
Kill me!!!!
I'll study later, maybe.
I don't know.... I have tough time to force myself to study.
It's the first time I totally ignored books during exam.
What's wrong with me??!!
Sigh...

I want to get good results for this trial.
Seriously!
But I ain't motivated to study at all.
I sucks!
Can anyone throw me to a river and just drown me to death?!

A month?

2010-09-18T09:07:00.002+08:00

Hmm....

Missing him. Wonder what he's doing?

Posing in front of the shop? = P

"wondering where I am lost without you

And being a part ain't easy on this love affair

Two strangers learn to fall in love again

I get the joy of rediscovering you"

Cant stop missing u ♥ K ♥

Latest craze!

2010-09-15T13:09:00.002+08:00

Ain't these the cutest!!!!
I'm so making these after my STPM!
They are so darn good looking and I hope they are delectable too = )
Owh I can't wait!

Cute to the max!

On The Go

2010-09-13T23:15:00.004+08:00

Yeah... I'm writing on my blog again.
My fingers get itchy and I had loads of stuff to blah out.

Firstly, I bumped into him
But not in person.
Maybe I should put it this way.
I bumped into... HIS CAR XD
Gosh... I always get to see only his car.
I mean... Come on!
Can't I just see him in person!!!!!
Well.. Forget it!

And... I've been sitting in front of the laptop the whole day!
Brought out my mathematics homework.
I didn't even manage to finish 1 question!
Damn it!
Instead, I was browsing for recipes.
Had tons of recipes to try.
Sadly, I couldn't lay my hands on any of them right now.

Having many thoughts in my mind.
Wondering what to do, what to say...
I'm a little fed up with myself now.
Somehow I can't think straight (don't get me wrong. I'm not thinking anything dirty!)
Am I finding trouble?
My feelings are wearing me down.
Gosh... I think I screw up my life.
Please get out of my mind.
Can I get a short break?
Are there any heavenly island around?
Feel like lying on a hammock.
With the sea breeze blowing so gently...
Nothing but fresh air and wind.
Man I need to escape from this life for a while.

Who will know what future beholds?
Who will ensure there'll be a better tomorrow?
For every yesterdays we had experienced,
Never ever look back or regret, but learn!

Oooo..!!!! 1 important thing!
I thought of turning this into a food blog.
Just so that I can stop writing about 3883.
And of course it's my passion for baking too = P
Hmm....
Should I???

Hard Feelings

2010-09-12T00:39:00.002+08:00

Sigh... I guess I really liked him.
I miss him...
Miss bumping into him.
Miss texting him.
Miss his voice.
Miss his midnight calls.
Eveything...
I miss everything about him.
And I can't get him out of my head.

Somehow I wished this works though I know it'll never.
Felt like texting him sometimes but I don't want him too feel like I'm falling heads over heels for him (although I am, obviously!)
Just that I hate this sort of feelings.
First, you gave me high hopes.
Then, you crush me flat.
I don't like it.
And I know I must get over with it.
Keep reminding myself "Forget him, Jo!"
But I can't!

My trials and finals are just around the corner
And I'm writing stupid stuff here instead of studying!
This is what happens everything I fall deep.
I need someone to pull me out.
Felt like been locked in a dark dungeon
Where you get to see a glimpse of light shining through a hole.
But no matter how hard you tried,
You can't grasp hold of it.

I need some program to reset my brain.
Suck out all the useless stuff that's driving me crazy!
I want a little peace in my mind.
And it seems like no matter how hard I tried, there's still something sprouting out of my head constantly reminds me of those things!
How am I suppose to concentrate??!!!

I'm really really really unsatisfied now!
I want everything to be the way I want!
I don't want to play by the rules of someone else's game!
Though I may sound selfish but I SERIOUSLY IN ALARMING SITUATION!
Found myself pretty weird nowadays.
I'm afraid of people.
I dislike hitting the malls cause I'm kinda 'crowd-phobia'
I rather listen to people complaints than to complain about my stuff.
Talk less makes me feel a bit out.
But my mouth is somehow partially glued.
And I hate people giving me weird stares.
(Though they are not but I somehow felt it that way)
I don't know...
I just feel weird myself.

Gimme a break!

You Can't Always Get What You Want

2010-08-15T12:31:00.000+08:00

Hmm... I changed my mind.
I don't like him that much after all.
Not until when Sha gave me those comments.
He's an ideal boyfriend.
But still... Nah...~~
I better start forgetting about everything.
Thinking about it makes me feel silly now. Dumb right!!
Never mind.
I learnt my lesson.
He's too old for me anyway... { console myself = ( }
Talking about fate.
I saw him on the road.
Just like that! What kind of coincidence is this!
Sigh...
Jojo, don't think too much anymore.

Talking about thinking too much
Damn I feel like slaughtering someone!
Is guys like him make me wanna chop them all off!
Come on!
If you wanna let go of someone, just let her go!
Why dilly dally and fool her around??
Don't you have any senses??
Better don't mention him.
I feel like slapping him after hearing what he did!
p/s: not 3883!

I miss my friends very much recently.
Don't know why...
Maybe they always lend me a shoulder to lean on.
Someone I can rely on.
Aren't they better than a bf??
= )
Love you guys.
Be back a.s.a.p.

I'll Be A Fool For U!

2010-08-11T17:01:00.000+08:00

Sigh...
Maybe I think too much.
I just embarrassed myself in front of him!
Now he knew all the silly things I posted on fb.
How dumb am I?! Very!!
Why on earth he check out on my profile??
And I still don't understand how he manage to view those status I posted.
We don't have any mutual friends!
I don't get it!
Arghh...
Man... Such a disgrace!
And he only told me right after I gave him cake!
Gosh... How terasa will he be??
Sigh...
I don't want him to know my feelings towards him!
But now, he knew everything!
He read every single post since March till now!
Damn...
Feel like digging a hole and bury my head in it!
Why am I so stupid?!
Surely he'll avoid me now.
And I'm avoiding him too.
This is really a lifetime embarrassment!

Happiness...

2010-08-07T19:19:00.000+08:00

= )
I'm so so so so happy these few days.
From the first day I know his name.
Everyday he'll call.
Talking to him on phone is fun.
Shocked me a little when I knew his age.
But it's okay, I guess.
Anyway, I won't think too far.
Being with him now is good enough already.

<3 K!

Suhweeeet.....~!

2010-08-04T16:47:00.000+08:00

Ha! I went out of school early today.
Reason was simple.
I don't sit for any papers today but I want my attendance for the day.
So, I told my mum I wanna head back home earlier.
She picked me up around 10.20am.
Accompanied her to bank for a while and went and bought lunch.
Just yesterday the girl who did facial for me told me not to eat too much of oily stuff.
And the stall we went to, believe me, their food are kinda oily for my condition now.
So, I told my mum 'No'.
She went on to buy her lunch and I told her I'll find my own lunch later.
And in my mind, all I think of was the vegetarian shop.
Main purpose was to meet him. = P
Went there around 11am.
First glimpse was to look into that corner shop.
Sigh, he wasn't there.
So I drove off and went straight home.

Around 12pm my tummy started growling.
Thought of going to that vegetarian shop again.
This time, no matter he's there or not, I must buy my lunch or I'll be in deep hunger.
And to my surprise, he's there.
Parked my car by the side. (Already knew he's in there somewhere but dare not look in!)
The funny part was, when I was about to get down from the car, he stood right at the corridor.
As if he's waiting for me to come down ( maybe I perasan a little bit)
Anyways, said 'Hi' to him as usual and went in the vegetarian shop.
When I put my tiffin carrier on the counter top, I saw him walking approaching the stall beside me.
I was like... Come on! Seriously?!
I continued choosing the dishes that I want.
Just before I started leaving, had a little conversation with him.
It felt like as if I'm about to have a heart attack!
My heart were beater at a much higher rate, beyond normal.
It was the first time being so close to him.
To my surprise, his body doesn't have a slight smell of cigarette smoke.
I know, I'm crazy sniffing on other people scent!
And the best part was, I finally know his name.
It even shocked me when he asked my phone number!
Of course I gave.
I would be a dumb ass if I didn't give him.
But I didn't have any nerve left to ask for his number.
Asking his name was already too nerve wrecking for me!

Well, that's that.
And I'm more than happy it happened today.
Glad that I skipped classes today.

= )

It's Just A Little Crush~

2010-07-29T21:04:00.000+08:00

Currently at The Pawz.
Ate Sphaghetti Carbonara.
Yum~!!
Tried other food too.
At least better than 'Stesen Satu'
Yuck...
Disgusting!
Mashed potato made from powder! It's so obvious it's prepacked mash potato powder!

Many things happened recently.
And I'm glad I got nothing to do with it!
You can't imagine how intensed the situation is now.
You don't wanna ever get involved in it.
Cause you can't make up your mind whose side you should be.
Sigh.... = (

It's been almost 2 weeks now since I last seen 3883.
Miss him so much = )
You may think I'm silly.
I think I am too.
But I cant help it.
Just continue dreaming.
At least it's a sweet one.

Watched 'Music and Lyric' last night.
Damn... It's good!
The cause of me addicted to the song 'Way Back Into Love'
Nice~!

I missed this week's GLEE.
Missed many songs!
Luckily I have all of them already.
Yay...!

Missing him. = )

Satisfying Craze and Crave

2010-07-21T22:15:00.002+08:00

Went for a gathering last nite at saffron ( cause kerlee and I craved for roti canai and burger badly! )
Purpose was to meet JianHow before he leaves Kuantan tomorrow.
As usual, crap and gossip were part of our conversation.
In fact, I don't think I ever had a conversation with friends without any crapping or gossiping!
Hmm... Human's nature = P
Had load of fun, seriously!
You can't imagine how loud, noisy and hard I laughed!
Wait...! Maybe you do know if you know me well!
Anyway, I laughed and laughed and laughed till my jaws felt like falling apart and tummy cramp!
Except for that part they tried to persuade me to watch a video with zombies ( or was it vampires? Whatever...!)
Apparently it was suppose to be funny and I should laugh
But...! The surrounding was to noisy to hear what the script was about.
It was changed from english to hokkien but I couldn't listen to a single thing and I'm too chickened after hearing those eerie spooky sound!
Overall, it was amusing.
We teased each other like we used too
Damn....! I miss those moments.
Owh... And yeah, KerLee managed to eat her roti canai and I manage to eat my burger!
And... I spotted a yellow STORM!
I kept checking out on that carplate and was at ease when I knew it wasn't him.
I never want him to see my laugh like a crazy girl for no reason.
How embarrassing would that be?!

Watched GLEE last night.
It was all about ballad.
Man... Those music were so beautiful and touching! ( Though I already heard all of them )
Songs like 'endless love', 'I'll stand by you' and 'lean on me'.
My oh my... I had goosebumps after listening to those songs!
Gosh... I love GLEE so much!
Their songs are so so so... I lost out of words!

My fringe!
I finally cut it!
And I look like a silly joker now!
Sobs... Have to bare for few weeks or probably months for it to grow longer.
Sigh...
Well, forget it!

Hmm... Kinda miss him.
Hope to 'bump' into him on friday!
= )

Heaven and Hell

2010-07-14T17:00:00.000+08:00

I got a very big shock on sunday night.
I was having dinner with my parents at a restaurant.
As usual, I'll look at people everywhere I go.
Out of no where, I saw someone resembling him.
Not thinking much, I thought it's him.
To be honest, I was terrified to the max.
All I was thinking were "why is he here", "how can I be that unlucky" and things like that.
I didn't even dare to look up to take another look at him.
When I finally have the courage to do so, I looked up!
And so happen he was looking back at me.
I stared at him for few seconds and look down again.
I was so scared to see him.
I don't know what I'm scared of.
But that feeling of fear was all over me!
I kept repeating those questions in my head!
I really do hate that sort of feeling.
Then suddenly it came to my senses that that fella is not even in the peninsular of Malaysia!
So how on earth I can meet him here?!
It took all my guts to look to that direction again.
And I'm glad I did so!
It wasn't him!
Thank goodness sake!
The people around him wasn't his family members.
I stared a few times at him.
Damn! He look so alike him!
I'm so not returning to that restaurant again.
That second when I realise it wasn't him, it felt like someone pulling me out of hell.

Well, about 3883.
It started of with a single crush.
But I think I've went a little deeper.
It's beyond ordinary like.
I know it sounds weird to love a total stranger.
But... I can't help it.
It's so hard for me to resist.
I can't stop thinking of him.
Every single time I pass by that row of shop, it's a must for me to take a glimpse into the shop.
As if something is attracting.
It's hard to defy such gravity!
I know it's silly to like a guy without knowing anything about him.
Not even his name.
But I do fall head over heels when I sees him.
And everytime cars which resembles his pass by, I would check out the carplate and hoping is his.
I do get over-reacted sometimes!
Thinking of him brings smile on my face.
Brings joy to my life.

Happiness is around the corner.
Who knew thoughts will give so much delight in one's life

= P

Sayonara~

2010-07-03T13:20:00.000+08:00

It's time to say goodbye to our seniors.
They'll be heading a whole new life else where.
Will miss them a little.
Hope they'll be fine there.

Just finished my acc paper test.
Gosh...
Feel like dropping my pen and leave the building that very instant.
It was so freaking tough!
Or maybe I'm not well prepared.
Never study, never do revision.
What kind of result do you expect!

It's Saturday again
Another week pass just like this.
Sigh...
Aren't there any exciting things happened?
World Cup?
Nah.... Not a fan of football.
Not after C. Ronaldo is out!
Owh.... Such good looking hunk should stay longer on the game! = P

Hungry right now. Pasar malam tonite!
Yesh....!

3883!

2010-07-02T20:55:00.000+08:00

Awww.... I'm currently at old town!
Saw him here!
He waved at me!
Ahhh...
Hehehe...
Damn...
I'm on ecstacy now!
He's still sitting opposite of me!

= )

Should I?

2010-06-30T22:33:00.000+08:00

Maybe I should start studying now.
Gosh... Im so lazy I feel like stranggling myself!
Why can't I put in more effort now?!
Is it that hard? Come on J!
Arghh...!!
Im so fed up with my own laziness!
Are there any medicines to cure this kind of sickness?
Sigh....

Mum is on the phone with my sis now.
Talking about my phone.
I got a feeling my sis will whack me when she's back.

T.T having mix emotions right now.
I need a dose of 'CHEER UP MOOD' medicine!

P/S: on diet plan = P

Aino = Oh No!

2010-06-29T17:18:00.000+08:00

Lols.... That's my daddy's first reaction when the uncle told him the price of this phone. He bought it for me anyways :-) Im still kinda dumb dumb at using this phone. Stil not very used to it. But as long as I can go online with this phone, it suits me just fine.
Well, just had farewell party for our senior 2 days ago. It's always fun to be with them. This time we get to laugh as loud as we want cause it's at my house (tak yah jaga muka = p)

Having a bad flu right now. Having a runny nose. Nvm. I'll skip school tomorrow. Hehehe...

Saw 3883 car just now. Was tracking him but couldn't see him. Sigh... What a waste!

p/s: please don't tell out my stories in my blog. No fun having many people knowing about something
:-P

I Know....

2010-06-20T20:33:00.004+08:00

Cheers! I'm gonna be a proud owner of SE AINO soon.
(Only if I don't regret it last minute)
I got a feeling that I will back out.
Sigh.........
It's just a phone!
Decide la Joanne Lee!!!!

Nothing much happened this few days.
Feel like a busybody during this holiday.
Especially about YM and KS stuff.
Hehehehe....
Hope they'll make it!!!
*Crossing my fingers!*
And as usual, complained lots of stuff to Yun.
So does she = P
Gossiped a lot about the people around us.
But it's the only way for us to release all our stress out, I guess.
Since we had so much problemos.
And not to mention we couldn't hang out as much as we used to.
Sigh... Miss those good old days!

My cousin Sha just broke up with her bf.
Feel sad for her.
Knows exactly the situation she's going through now.
Hard to move on, can't get over it and keep thinking of the sweet moments.
Ya... I went through that too.
Though it's hard but still it's a lesson learned.
Hope she can cope with it.
Seeing her post those sad stuff on fb do gives me a little heartache.
The exact same feelings when I broke up.
Kinda weird.
She broke up around the same week as I broke up last year.
Well, she'll do fine!
We came from the same family.
Our heart are trained to be as hard as steel!

Listening to Khalil Fong's songs.
Now I know why I friend went head over heels for him~
Superb!

JoJo will stop blogging from today onward.
Seriously can't blog anymore.
This time not because of internet access.
But I'm not having a laptop anymore.
Till I have my handphone = )

3883 ♥!

♥ 3883

2010-06-17T19:58:00.003+08:00

I was devastated on this day last year.
But not today!
And not anymore~!

Actually kinda sad today
Not because of 'him' for goodness sake!
Haven't seen 3883 in 2 days.
Saw his car today = )
Was so so so so so so so so so so so so so so happy.
I'm extremely overjoyed!
But too bad couldn't see him in person.
Was a little disappointed = (

Well well....
People say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only 1

JoJo miss peeping him = P

3883 ♥

my 19th

2010-06-16T17:24:00.002+08:00

Yay.... I'm officially 19.
Yeah.... 1 year older.
Nothing special today.
Though I wanted to meet him so much...
Feel like sms-ing him and say "Hey, today's my birthday!" = P

And today is also the day where chinese eats rice dumplings~
I forgot what's the occasion they eat dumplings = P
Anyway, I've waited for 18 years to reach this day.
My mom born me out on this exact same day 19 years ago.
She said she was eating rice dumpling when I was about to pop out.
My grandparents said that I'm very greedy and eager to come out to eat those dumplings.
Well.... I think I proved them wrong.
I don't fancy rice dumpling...

Hope JiaLi and WenNee are having a blast too cause we share the same birth day~

Thanks to KerLee's mother for preparing a delicious lunch for me.
Thanks to WeeShean for calling me even though it's late at night = )
Thanks to David for calling me for 15 times in the middle of the night! (Sorry for not answering)
Thanks to Bao for singing me birthday song all day long (As in WHOLE DAY~)
And thanks to the rest who wished me a very happy birthday.
Appreciate a lot...

I'll be making a wish tonight.
Wanna do it at 10.42pm~~
Crossing my fingers~ = )

♥

♥

2010-06-14T22:21:00.002+08:00

Saw...........
Miss........
Satisfied.........

Hell I'm happy.
I'm smiling from cheek to cheek.
Though it's a short moment
But at least I get a sneak peek after 3 months!

2010-06-11T19:12:00.002+08:00

Just realise I haven't updated my blog for a long time.....
I'm just too lazy.
Though I'm having holidays right now
But I'm still attending a minimum of 4 consecutive hours of tuition.
Hell true!!!!
Kinda miss those good old days when I really had holidays on HOLIDAYS~
Hello... This is so not holiday!
There's no space for me to breathe.
And I can't chuck in so many things into my brain at once!
I need to absorb slowly..... As in seriously slowly~~~
Well well.....
I guess I have to speed up my brain's speed
My birthday is just around the corner!
Waiting to celebrate with my grandparents = )

Movie Craze

2010-05-22T12:57:00.002+08:00

Despite all of my entertainments had been 'moved out',
I still have my laptop and the internet access (thanks to whoever that line belongs to = P)
Well.... Had been watching lots of movies these few days.
And I've watched most of them back in the past.
How much I missed those shows
'Parent Trap', 'A Cinderella Story', Bedtime Stories', 'Enchanted', etc etc...
Some of them brought laughter to me while others just makes me cry...
You know... those romantic and 'happily ever after' shows~
It only happens in fairy tales, I guess...
You can't expect a knight in shining armor with his well groomed horse waiting on your doorstep with a rose on his hand asking you out on a date.
I mean... If we're still in the eighties, we might get a chance to feel those romantic feelings.
Guys in their finest tux all nervous to bring girls out for a ball and dance with the melody of musics played so soothly.
But now.... All guys are dressed in jeans and shirts. They bring girls to clubs and jumping and hopping along with those rock musics.
Sometimes I felt that my parents' generations is much more happier and more romantic.
As for love... Happily ever after... I don't think it will happen.
fantasy will remain as fantasy.
And reality... It's been by our sides for as long as we live.

*Lyrics from a song "A life goes by, Romantic dreams must die"*

Pretty true, it's too far to be grasp.

p/s: I'm switching to writing diary soon. Partly is because I won't be having internet access anymore. Besides that, I need a little privacy...

KANTOI

2010-05-08T13:11:00.004+08:00

Have to post this!
A song from Zee Avi.
Into her right now!

Semalam I call you, you tak answer
You kata you keluar pergi dinner
You kata you keluar dengan kawan you
but when I called Tommy he said it wasn't true

So I drove my car pergi Damansara
Tommy kata maybe you tengok bola
Tapi bila I sampai... you, you tak ada
Lagi la I jadi gila

So I called and called sampai you answer
You kata sorry sayang tadi tak dengar
My phone was on silent, I was at the gym
Tapi latar belakang suara perempuan lain

Sudahlah sayang, I don't believe you
I've always known that your words were never true
Why am I with you?
I pun tak tahu
No wonder la my friends pun tak suka you

So I guess that's the end of our story
Akhir kata she accepted his apology
Tapi last-last kita dapat tahu she was cheating too
With her ex boyfriend's best friend, Tommy...

PAUSE!

2010-05-02T22:04:00.002+08:00

Won't be blogging for the time being.
Will resume after moving and probably after exam.
Had quite a good chat with a stranger today.
He asked for number.
But I didn't give.
= P
Tak da kimia !!!
Hahaha....

I'm Tired~!!

2010-04-27T15:41:00.002+08:00

Gosh...
Now I don't feel like moving out anymore.
There's so many things to do!
Clean this clean that
Pack this pack that
Move this move that.
Tired man!
Can I get a maid or someone to help me??
I seriously need some help!
cleaning up my room is tough enough already
Now, I have to decide whether to throw those things or not!
Argh....
Can I just throw everything and get new ones so that I don't have to pack my things?
= P

Scary man!

Brick Of Wall

2010-04-25T19:32:00.004+08:00

With the recent weather,
And the same routine I do day after day,
I'm starting to feel boring about my life.
So dull... It's just like a piece of paper.
Blank!!
Not a word scribbled on it.
That plain boring.
Gosh...
My life ain't miserable.
But it's not interesting.
Couldn't blog about anything, for pete sake!

Kill me!

Just For Fun

2010-04-23T18:13:00.003+08:00

FooWeeShean~~ This is specially for u~ since u wanted me so much, I upload this pic so that you can laugh and smile all the time~

Don't be a crybaby anymore!

Secrecy Turned Into Madness

2010-04-19T18:19:00.002+08:00

I know I'm seriously mad now.
Not as in angry mad, but more of the crazy mad.
I haven't seen him in more than a week now.
Gosh...
Saw his car today, but didn't have the nerve to look into the shop
Why isn't he standing outside as usual??!!
Otherwise, I'll get a glimpse of him.
Sigh...
Have to wait for tomorrow.
Hopefully I'll get to see him.

p/s: I miss him...

Charity Drive!

2010-04-12T13:02:00.003+08:00

Had a blood donation campaign yesterday.
Nothing special happened.
Many of our friends came to support this activity.
Actually, we were kinda pissed!
Of the location and of the way the people who in charged of the venue.
I mean... How can they just give our spot to others after promising us??!!
It's a blood donation campaign!
Hello!!!
You gave us a small corner where no one will notice us.
We can't even use full of the 10 beds because of inadequate space
Your electricity turned us down.
And how dumb of you not fixing it or even check whether it's working or not a day earlier??
You sent electricians.
So...???
You wasted our time and made us worried!
And because of those irresponsible management people,
we couldn't reach our target of 200 bags of blood!

Luckily we had fun on that day.
Otherwise, I'll slaughter those people!!

Had been quite emotional these few days.
Cried everytime after watching sad movies or touching stories.
Gosh....
But it's okey, I think.
This prove I'm not a cold-blooded person!

p/s: I wanna see him!!! Haven't seen him in 3 days time!

He Waved At Me!!!

2010-04-09T18:21:00.003+08:00

Am I so shocked to know that...
Went to buy my dinner as usual.

The sweetest part was,
He stood there.
Gave me a friendly smile,
And started waving at me like a little child!

It was so cute.
My mum saw him and asked "You know him?"

Goshhh... I never knew he would wave at me.
Cause I haven't seen him in a while.
Woohoo~~~

*blushing*

U6A4

2010-04-09T18:18:00.004+08:00

See how happy we were???
Believe me!
Many things happened today that turned our smiles into anger.
Boy... Will we remember this day!
May the rounded, fat and short teachers roll off!

1 thing to be happy about.
Our exam is postponed!!!

Somehow...

2010-04-07T23:31:00.003+08:00

Somehow I wish I could be everything that I want.
But I realise that there are nothing perfect in this world.

Somehow I wish I could turn back time.
But I realise every second passed is a lesson learnt.

Somehow I wish things will turn out as planned.
But I realise God has paced our life and everything is predestined.

Somehow I wish to die fast.
But I realise many people around me would miss me if I'm gone.

Somehow I wish people wouldn't judge me by my appearance.
But I realise it's the nature of human to do so.

Somehow I wish someone would answer all my questions in my head.
But I realise some questions are meant to be unanswered.

Nothing last forever.
Love is now or never.

Sunshine = )

2010-04-07T23:04:00.002+08:00

Just found out that there are quite many people who peeps at him.
Seeee.....
I'm not the only crazy fella who likes him so much!
Something funny happened today.
We PBSM members were having a brief meeting at Dataran Inspirasi.
Then.... We realised he was about to walk pass us.
So... We stood there and look at him walking by.
Our eyes were nailed on him.
Most of us gazed at him... Seriously scary type!
He didn't realise at all.
But his friend saw our acts.
His busy body friend told him!
He turned back and look at us.
We were like... Oh oh....
Now he really knows we are 'stalking' at him!

Goshhh... He's such a cute one!
Very adorable! very good looking! And 2 years younger than us!
So charming!

And his friend, Monchichi!
Or better known as Rainbow!
Another cute fella!
But we have to becareful on what we converse if he's around.
Cause he can understand chinese.
Can't simply praise them in front of him.
Imagine how embarrassing it will be once they know we big sisters like them!

S.M.I.L.E.

2010-04-05T18:26:00.002+08:00

Love This Song!

2010-04-03T19:33:00.000+08:00

What is someone like you doin in a place like this?
Say Did you come alone or did you bring all your friends?
Say whats your name , What are you drinking
Think I know what are you thinking
Baby whats your sign tell me yours and ill tell you mine
Say Whats somebody like you doin in a place like this

Ill never be the same if we ever meet agaian
Whooooon't let you get awaaay
Say if we ever meet again,
This free-falls, got mee sooo, kiss me all,
Night, Don't ever let me go
Ill never be the same if we ever meet again

Do you come here much? I swear ive seen your face before.
Hope You don't see me flash but I cant help but want you more, more
Baby tel me whats your story I aint shy don't you worry
Im flirtin' with my eyes, I wanna leave with you tonight.
Do you come here much? ive gotta see your face some more
(some more caause baby i)

I'll never be the same - if we ever meet again
Won't let you get away-ay - say, if we ever meet again
This free fall's, got me so
Kiss me all night, don't ever let me go
I'll never be the same

Karnival Sukan 1 Malaysia 2010

2010-04-03T18:55:00.002+08:00

An event that will be organized every year by SABS sixers.
The board of MPPT6 had been working hard to ensure the success of this event.
But not all did their job according to the list.
Somehow, we non AJK MPPT6 felt that there's no unity in the board.
As if there's three different gang of people.
People misunderstanding each other.
There's no respect for each other.
No teamwork, no coordination.
Nothing....
And it'll just make things worse.
Everyone has their own views and opinions.
Everything was kinda mess up.
But I still think they manage to pull things off.

Had been running up and down.
Never knew registration could be so so so tough.
By the way, I didn't win a thing
But I was so happy to see SABS male team won the 'tarik tali' event.
I shouted like a maniac.
I sounded kinda man though...
But who cares???!!!
There's no cute hunk for me to crush on.
As long as there's no one attractive, I don't mind how I look or sound.
Of all the shouting, I partially lost my voice.
My throat hurt so bad right now.
And I think I'm gonna be sick within this week.
Oh, and I sprain my butt. Again!
Sighhhhh.....

Thanks to KerLee, Bao, Jen, Bian and Ann for helping me out.
I wouldn't manage to do everything without you guys!
Muackz~~~
Love you guys!

p/s: Had an early 6.30am breakfast. The next meal I had next was around 6.30pm. 10 hours interval without food. I'm glad I didn't have gastric or whatsoever

Yawns....

2010-04-02T23:40:00.002+08:00

It's quite late now.
But I'm still awake.
Having an important event tomorrow.
Don't feel like attending.
Cause my whole body is aching.
Every part I move, no matter to the left or right, front or back.
I can feel the soreness.
I can't even drive properly with my stiff arm.

Bored... Tired... Exhausted...

It's so hot right now.
I stink to the max!

Learn To Be Lonely?

2010-03-30T15:34:00.006+08:00

Smile

Don't frown

Are there people around you
To be with you all the time
Protecting you from harm and danger
Guard and guide you all the way
Pacing road to your future
Comfort and care for you
Cherish those little details you do for them
Appreciate every 'thank you' you've said
Accept every 'sorry' you've apologized

Are there people beside you
Constantly accompany you where ever you go
Sat by your side when your heart breaks
Lend you a shoulder to cry on
Cuddle you up in his/her arms when you're sad
Puts you in their mind every minute every day
Shower you with love
Spreading joy together

Are there anyone up there
Listens to all the prayers you've made
Grant your wishes and dreams
Gives you the will and power to stay strong
Creates magic and unexplainable events that happens on you
Makes you believe that there are miracles in this world
Allow a little fantasy in our harsh surrounding
Of fairies and angels taking care of us

Family, friends, enemies and strangers.
God makes world a better place to live.

Live your life!

A Little Little..

2010-03-29T21:04:00.003+08:00

♥ ♥ ♥

2010-03-29T20:41:00.002+08:00

I miss him.
haven't seen him in a week.
the side view of him doesn't count!
Miss him a lot...
Can I see him tomorrow?
Can I can I can I????????

♥ Happy being at the right corner at the right time.
♥ Doesn't mean I have to own him.
♥ Don't have to be devoted and be hurt in the end.
♥ Having conversation with him.
♥ Giggling about him.
♥ Missing him.

p/s: PaiWan helped me to destroy my 2008 belated water bottle birthday present.

And I'm so so so so so HAPPY!!! = )
Muahahaha.... Shuts! I shouldn't have returned that watch. Otherwise, I'll be able to smash it! Dumb Joanne! Next time, don't go against yourself!

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ JoJo miss him a lot
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ JoJo will see him tomorrow~~~~

2010-03-29T19:57:00.004+08:00

I think today is not my day.
Many unwanted things happened.
Kinda sad, disappointed, moody, etc etc...
Sigh...

Had a dream last night.
Ain't a good one.
Any dream with him in it is nightmare for me
School was rather boring today.
Nothing interesting happened.
We had to wear a silly red ribbon for some anti-drug campaign.
Talk about that dumb PIBG fees we have to pay.
Stupid larhhh...
Make us pay so much.
Want us beg under the bridge is it??!!

Went for my very first threading session.
Pain like mad!!!
but at least my face is smoother!!
Love it!
Gonna do it once a month!
25bucks... Not too expensive~

Quite clumsy today.
Spilled drinks on my grandpa >.<

Two Can Play A Game

2010-03-28T22:28:00.002+08:00

F*ck to whoever that person who keep text massaging my mum.
Even if it'll shorten my life by 10 years,
I'll still curse you!!
You useless, idiot, son of a b*itch, f*ucker loser!!!
You wanna play??
Fine! I'll play with you.
Let you feel a dose of your own medicine.
The revenge starts tomorrow!
No matter how much it'll cost me,
I'll harass you till I'm satisfied!
Who you think you are??
You're just a stupid jerk.
Brainless!

I curse you!
Curse you curse you curse you!!!!
Don't even think we're easily fooled!
Tomorrow you'll die!!!!
DIE!!!!
YOU ARE SO DEAD SUCKER!

Tiredness OVERLOADED

2010-03-27T21:34:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 7am this morning.
Went for breakfast as usual with my grandparents.
Had lots of toufu!!!
My favourite~~~ Yum yum yummmmmmm........

Did some baking right after that.
Broke my own record this time.
Didn't know I could bake so fast.
Specially for Firdaus.
Cause he asked me so many times and it's kinda bad to turn him down.

Went for my 2nd breakfast of the day around 9am.
With KerLee and Bao.
Boy I was so full that time!
Hang out at Shean's place for a while after that.
Sobsss....
She left to Malacca.... Againn...
Miss her so much...

Head to Semambu badminton court after that.
Saw quite many people whom I know.
Most of them are familiar faces.
They were talking about a handsome guy at that moment.
But... He's not that good looking larhhh...
He looks like a duck to me.
I don't know why...

Purposely went to that vegetarian shop today.
Just to show KerLee the guy I was talking about.
We couldn't see him at first.
When I'm done, we get to see him!!!
But only his side view t.t
Purposely turn another round to see but he went in, I think.
Sighhhh....
Oh.. He wore like the others now.
Maybe that's why we couldn't spot him.
He look so different!
Prefer him wearing those office look.
= ) So good looking....
*Dream dream dream....*

Went to ecm around 4pm
Met up with Firdaus and Jiali.
Was half dead that time.
Was exhausted though I hardly did anything.
But I was fatigue.
Eat again....
I've been eating for the whole day!
2 breakfast, 2 lunches, 2 dinners....
And the funny part is... I'm on a diet.
And that is so not dieting!!!
All the calories.... AHHHHH........
(Someone said I'm broader now! Damnnnnn..... Diet again!)

Tomorrow... have to wake up early.
Very early....
Have to wait for Monday to see him again = )
Oh ya... Don't feel like giving up.
Want to continue my 'peeping' activity = P

p/s: Jie is back. Expenses will be fully paid by Jessica. Muahahaha... Trimming my brows tomorrow. Better be good!

There Goes My Dream....

2010-03-26T20:16:00.002+08:00

Sighhh....
Have to give up now.
He smokes....
Ahhh... A perfect image!
Shattered with a few puff of cigarrette..
Gosh.... What a waste!
I mean... Such ideal person, so perfect!
But with a little flaw.
Well... That explains no human is flawless or perfect.
Damnnn......

Laid my hands on crochet for the first time today.
Made a flower = )
Quite ugly though....
But....!!! It's still a flower.
Learning to make other things now.
Hopefully I'll be talented enough to make a scarf.
For that special someone = )

A Wall To Lean On

2010-03-25T23:46:00.002+08:00

Well... Haven't seen him since... since... since...
Last Saturday t.t t.t

Well.... Hardly studied this week.
Many of them went to stadium to help out for some MSSM thingy.
And the class was practically empty.
Only half of us were present.
Nothing special happened in school
Only the JPAM stuff.
I would have blah out a lot of rubbish about that whole course.
But since they're giving me allowance,
I'll shut my big fat mouth = P
I'll never go against with money!

Currently, have been hook up with DIY stuffs.
Learning crochet and tatting..
Finger hurts... Strains my eyes.... Not to mention a total waste of time.
But I can't help it.
It's kinda fun..
I wanna learn to do those stuff ( even my mum gave me a 'NO'!)

Gosh... it's almost midnight now.
Am watching AI.
Horrible!!!
Only some were good...
Having school tomorrow.
Very lazy to go... very reluctant.
Tuitions will be from 1pm to 5pm
Feel like giving up this instance.

Jess will be back on Saturday for Ching Meng.
Ben is coming to.
Hyuk Huyuk Hyuk....
Boy... I can't wait!!

P/s: In GLEE craze!

Eeeepppssss....!!!

2010-03-22T22:09:00.002+08:00

Didn't see him today.
Sighhhh...
Well, at least now I know his dinner break is around what time = P
Feel like a stalker right now!
Haha...
Kinda disappointed.
Waited whole day but couldn't manage to see him T.T
Looks like I have to wait for tomorrow...
"The sun will come out~~~ Tomorrow~~~~
Tomorrow~ Tomorrow~~ I love ya~ Tomorrow~~~"
Maybe I sound a little pathetic right now.
Goshhh....
Have to stop this nonsense fast!
Before I go any deeper...
"I think I better leave right now~~ I'm getting weaker and weaker~"
Aaaahhhh..........
No I'm not desperate!
No I'm not deprived of love!

Why must he speaks such nice English to me??!!
Why??!!
I wouldn't fall for him if he spoke some 'chapalang' English.
And he's not banana = )
He can speak cantonese.
Owwwwww.... My ideal boyfriend!!!
Too bad he's just a dream.
Too far to grasp.
Will go later tomorrow.
Otherwise I won't be able to meet him.

All Smiless....

2010-03-20T13:34:00.003+08:00

Yipes...!!!
Saw him again just now.
Hahahaha....
Went and buy my meal as usual.
Saw him standing at that corner again.
He really don't look like he works there.
He doesn't dress like the other workers.
Maybe his post his higher??
I don't know....
Somehow he don't fit in that situation.
He'll be standing there whenever I sees him.
Seems like his job is standing there to 'attract' customers!
Lols..

Well....
Manage to say hi to each other before I enter the shop.
When I'm done with my meal,
saw him again.
I thought of maybe just smile at him and leave.
But he asked,
S: "Did you leave your keys in the car again.??"
Gave me that weird stare.
J: "No....!"

Ended the conversation with 'bye bye' of course!

Sighh... He'll remember me as the girl who forgets her keys.
HAHA!!
>.<
Still don't have the guts to ask his name!
But I have his number = P
Gosh... Feel so evil!
1 more thing!
His english is superb!!!
Too bad he's unavailable.

Carelessness sometimes leads to happiness

2010-03-18T19:43:00.004+08:00

I was clumsy again to forget to pull out my car key.
It's the third time already.
But I had 1 great experience.
Not to mention that cute guy who lend me his phone.
Indirectly, I have his phone number now! = P

I went to buy my dinner as usual at the vegetarian stall.
I didn't realise that I've forgotten my key.
Until I touch my pocket, I went
"Shit! Where's my key?!"
Ran quickly to the car right after taking back my change.
Damn... The key was in the car!
Went to a electrical shop which was next to the vegetarian stall.
I asked a malay guy whether I could use his phone.
So happen there's a chinese guy there too.
I thought that that chinese was just a customer.
Without a doubt, he handed out his phone for me to use.
I was like.... "Thank you thank you thank you"
I didn't know how many 'thank you' I've said.
So... I called my mum.
She didn't pick up her phone the first time.
I have to make another call.
When I was about doing so, I look at him and said "Sorry"
I don't know why I said 'sorry'.
Then... My mum finally answered my call.
Told her that I'll be waiting at the electrical shop.

I stood outside of the shop, of course.
So embarrassing!
That guy overheard my conversation (I must have spoken quite loudly and clearly)
I returned the phone to him and of course thanked him, again!
He giggled a little and say "You left your car key in the car?" Showing me his smile.
He might have laughed if I wasn't there.
"Yea..."
It was a total silence for a moment.
Then out of a sudden, he initiated our conversation.
S: "You come here very often to eat?"
J: "Yea..."
S: "I work here. But I never see you before"
J: "Really? I didn't see you before too"
S: "Is the food nice?"
J: "Edible..."
S: "Terrible??"
J: "EDIBLE.."
S: "Ooo....I haven't try their food"
J" "Why?? No meat can't survive?"
S: "Ya... *giggled* Still studying??"
J: "Yup... Form6 this year"
S: "Oo..."

Silence for another moment.....

S: "You stay around this area?"
J: "Yea... Behind there (pointing!)"
S: "Near PeiChai?"
J: "No. Near the basketball court"
S: "Basketball court..(Thinking)Near.... (Still thinking) *I gave him a look* I think I know where."

I smiled.... Conversation lasted around 10mins.

S: "I think your mum forgot about you"
J: "*giggled* She wouldn't"

Silence, again....

My mum came to the rescue in time.
Cause the shop was about to close.
J: "Bye.."
S: "Bye."

Turned back and say it for the very last time "Thanks a lot!"

= )
Standing there with a total stranger and having such conversation was kinda fun, actually. Well, that makes eating vege a happier moment. Too bad I didn't have enough courage to ask his name. = (

p/s: Those conversation were just part of it. Couldn't recall back all.

Pai Mia la...

2010-03-13T18:54:00.002+08:00

Had my first Starbuck meal last night.
Hey... I'm no rich girl. What do you expect??!!
Went for Popular book fair.
It was by far the worst book fair.
No interesting books to buy.
But I manage to buy 4 Archie comics
It was so darn cheap.
1 buck each.
Wallop every one of it.
Too bad they only have 4.
SObs...
Hope they replenish their stock soon!

Something happened during tuition class today.
They were calculating birth dates and describe ones character through those digits.
Apparently,
Those characteristics about me weren't that accurate.
But, just for fun.
At least they nail right some.

Having flu right now.
I always have flu whenever there's 4 hours of tuition.
Tired man...

Junior Craze!

2010-03-11T21:57:00.002+08:00

Lols... Everyone knew about the person I'm crazy-ing about.
I can't resist it!
It's like... I don't know how to describe that sort of feeling.
Will be seeing him for the last time tomorrow.
Sobs..
Have to wait 1 week to meet him again.
But it's fine.
Found a way to....... Hahaha... *secret*

Dreamt something last night.
It was the sweetest dream I ever had.
Gosh.... Those heart-warming moments.
Somehow I wish it was true.
But it's ok cause dreams are usually better than reality.
= ) thinking of it just makes me smile.
Can't imagine how happy am I.

Will begin my tuition marathon tomorrow.
Hope that I won't fall sick.
Otherwise, my head will be swaying all day long.
Started with my studies.
Gonna crack my head with those books.

Sighhhhh.... Got a feeling that I won't be going Aus.
Well... It's my fate.
Even jie is going.
Damn...

Brainless jerk

2010-02-28T17:11:00.004+08:00

I can't believe I have such neighbours.
Go round complaining about my dogs.
Think my dogs are like yours?
As dumb as the owner!
Come on! Use your brain a little.
We have dogs because we want them to bark at strangers.
Unlike yours! Dumb like hell. Whole day eat sleep eat sleep.

Use your common sense a little, willya?
Pissed me off man!
Those kids were playing firecracker noisily.
Even noisier than my dogs.
Why didn't you complain about them?!
Cause you're just a big fat jerk with a useless brain and a stinky mouth!
You even poisoned my dogs before.
Is human like you create so much problems to the society.
You know many Datuk's'. So..??
Does that mean you can be bossy?
Bullshits!

You think you can do whatever you like?
You burn your rubbish in your own compound and you think that won't affect others?
Don't you know open burning is prohibited??!!!
We hardly complain about it.
Why don't you complain yourself about this?
Since you're so good at complaining others!
The weather is already hot enough.
And you're adding more heat to the environment.
Don't you think you're very selfish, idiotic, and problematic??
So highly educated for what?!
You didn't even use your brain.
Maybe you don't have one!
Loser!
Feel like spanking you and slap you gao gao!

You just make me wanna move out of here faster.
you're elder than me. So what?
Don't even dare to think my mum can be easily bullied.
I'm gonna scald you with hot water, peel off your skin, chop you into millions of pieces and feed to stray dogs!
I will never respect people like you.
You don't deserve to be respected!

4 Hours!

2010-02-27T19:31:00.002+08:00

I can't believe I made it.
But ya... I did it!
Studying for 4 hours a day.
Yippeeee....
It felt so great!
Tried to study more than 4 hours but couldn't take it.
Cause I wasn't in my comfort zone.
Had to sit on the floor for 4 hours!
My leg cramped like 4 or 5 times.
Was at my new house.
It's like my studying heaven.
No entertainment or whatsoever.
Just a radio accompanying me for that 4 hours.

Did something really stupid today.
Told my mum not to buy a new set of tv. >.<
It's for my own good actually.
Cause without television and internet, I'll definitely study no matter how many hours it'll take.
Somehow, I felt the pleasure of studying.
Gonna crank my books again later.
And... Going for more tuitions!
Yay...
Loading myself with lots and lots of homeworks and tuitions.
Love this kind of life.

p/s: I didn't mean to be that evil. But I couldn't help it! *MUAHAHA!*

I'm Perfectly Fine!

2010-02-26T11:39:00.003+08:00

Pay RM80 for a medical check up.
Boy that's expensive!
Kinda embarrassing to be 'checked' by my own uncle.
If it's someone whom I don't know, maybe it'll be less awkward.
Anyway, I'm healthy.
The whole fainting thing might be because of over fatigue.

STPM result was announced yesterday.
Saw mixture of emotions.
Some were devastated. Some was happy.
Some were smiling of joy. Some were sobbing of sadness.
There's disappointments, overwhelmed, surprised....
Really salute those seniors who get good results.
Wonder how they arrange their timetable.
Wanna be like them.
Don't wanna be like those who cried or disappointed.
Well, gonna take my studies seriously now.
Since I don't have any 'distractions' = P

I think I'm kinda wicked and bad in a sense that
I'm a little happy to know some bad news about the people whom I dislike.
Well, it's human's nature.
Or should I say... "It serves him right!"
Hahaha...

In a year time, my juniors will be doing the same thing as I'm doing now.
I'm the 'kiasu' type of people.
So... I'll study hard... And I mean it!

Geezzz...

2010-02-24T15:42:00.003+08:00

Going for medical check up later.
Crossing my fingers = P
Hope there's nothing serious about the whole fainting.
Create such a big fuss because of a faint.
Parents can be over protective.
But in a good way...

Accomplishments

2010-02-23T22:08:00.003+08:00

For as long as I've lived in this world, I hardly accomplish things that will make me proud of myself. It pops up in my mind now that I've failed so much in so many things. My studies ain't superb. My love life went down the drain. Is like there's nothing for me to be happy of. I was once happy 2 years ago thinking I've found my soul mate. To think back on those things, just made me realised that it was by far the worst decision I've ever made. Ignoring parents advices not to do so and so... And I've done those things that the word 'regret' can no longer be used in my situation. There are times when I wish I could just go back to the past and switch everything back to normal. But that's way beyond imagination. I know I shouldn't talk about this topic anymore. It happened ages ago. And the reason why I'm doing so is to rethink, reevaluate on those mistakes that I've done.

For some, it may be as easy as a snap. For others, it may not. Though those passion ain't there anymore and I don't have any feelings on that issue anymore ( thank God!) It's still part of me cause it happened once upon a time. It's like history. Digging out your past to pace a better future. What matters now is future. I don't mind what people say about me. It's their freedom and I can't seal their lips and stop them from talking bad about me. Just let it be and take them as a guideline to view on myself. They might be right about me in certain situation. Who knows? Everyone has their flaws and imperfections. Imagine the whole world is full of people who are flawless. There'll be no one to be compared to. No healthy competition. How dull would life be? And for those people who think they are really that good, look into the mirror! Look at your own reflection! And look into your inner self. Do you grow this pretty to be so cocky??

I'm born this way. Who do I blame to look this way? My parents? Or myself? Although sometimes I push the responsibilities to my parents, but deep in my heart I knew I couldn't blame anyone, except for those with big mouths. It is up to me to change myself for the better. I don't mind looking the way I am right now. I do have my own flaws. So..?? Does that gives you an eyesore? If yes, then I'm sorry I couldn't help much about that. If not, why don't you just get lost or jump into the deep blue sea. Who are you to give a statement about me? Do I know you that much? No! So..?? What's the problem with you? You think it's funny to pick on other people's flaws? Try to stand in other people's shoes and feel how awful it is to be teased by others.

These people really pissed me off. But they give me the will to make myself a better person. They just make me wanna prove to them how wrong they are and regret of what they say to me. At least by that time I'll leave a better impression to others. Someday I'm gonna write a big 'L' on their foreheads. Losers! I'm so gonna bring you guys down! You are so dead! Idiots!

If I manage to do that. Ha! That will be the biggest accomplishment in my life. Another 2 years or so... Boy, I can't wait for it.

Tumble Down

2010-02-23T15:49:00.002+08:00

Exam started this morning.
Guess what?!
I was late for my exam = P
I didn't do it on purpose. Of course!
Fainted at home this morning.
Sighh...
What's wrong with me!!!

Woke up as usual around 6am.
Was a little dizzy at that moment.
Never thought much about that.
Went behind to open back door so I can boil a kettle of water.
Felt something wrong when I carried the kettle.
Boy... Dizzy like mad.
My whole body went from normal to super cold.
Then it went damn hot and cold again.
My legs were unable to sustain my weight anymore.
Slowly kneel down and lay on the wall.
Doze off for a while
Was subconscious at that moment.
Can feel the heat and the coldness alternating.
Was sweating and shivering...
Lay there for around 5 minutes or so..
Went to my mum's room and told her I''m not going to school.
Head to my bed and fell asleep.

Woke up around 8am.
Was feeling a lot better.
Mum was about to lecture me again for skipping school.
(I didn't go to school yesterday = P )
Explained the whole story to her.
Quite shocked at first.
Not knowing why I fainted...
She fetched me to school around 9am.
Manage to answer only 5 maths questions.
Sighhh...
Didn't had the mood to continue even though the teacher is willing to give me extra time.
Most of my friends asked why I'm late.
They thought I overslept...
Hahaha...
"Fainted larhhh..."
Some of the teacher asked too.
My form teacher even called my phone number.
Too bad I was sleeping...
Didn't notice my phone was ringing.
Ohh... My friends called me too.
Sorry for wasting you guys credits..
Really appreciated their concerns.
Thanks guys...

I was as fit as a fiddle in school.
Nothing went wrong.
I'm just glad I didn't faint in school.
SO EMBARRASSING!!!

Burpss...

2010-02-22T13:29:00.002+08:00

Less than 24 hours before my tests...
What am I doing?
Blogging... Obviously!

Studied a while just now.
Cause I had to teach my friend.
And I'm so sorry...
I couldn't teach much cause I wasn't prepared.
Didn't do any revision at all!!!
Joanne Lee!!! You are 1 lazy bug!!!
I can't help it!!!!

Oo.. And I have a side income now = D
RM30 per trip. All I have to do is collect cheques and bank them.
Went to dad's friend's house last night.
Remind me! Never go to dadd'y friend's house anymore.
I was bored to death and not to mention those stinky men with their cigarrettes!
Ewww... Disgusting!
And dumb Arron!!! Message tak reply!
Teruk man!

S-I-C-K!

2010-02-21T13:44:00.002+08:00

I don't know should I be happy or not to be sick right now.
Happy because I wasn't sick during cny.
Gloomy because I am sick and exam is in 2 days time.
Haha! Haven't touch a single book or flip a single page.
(Only on Archie comics = P )
I'm a goner for sure.
I can imagine all of my papers will be fully scribbled with red pens.
Mostly crosses and a few ticks. T.T
I know I should be studying right now.
But....
Sick brings my mood down.
And my bad moods made me lazier.
Then, my laziness brought fatigue..
Conclusion, I'm too tired to study.
Lamest excuse in the entire universe.
Ahhhh...!!!
And the weather is freaking HOT!

Will be skipping tomorrow's class.
Do I look like I bother?? No..!!!
Gawddd... All I'm thinking now is tuitions, classes, homeworks, tests....
Thinking those stuffs give me goosebumps.
And I thought the only thing that will give me goosebumps is ghost.
Sighh...
Nightmare man...

Can I end my life??
So dull and boring..

I need a vacation... Or vacationS...
I want my new house!!
Why is it so hard to pick a sofa???
Is that so hard??!!
Kill Me!

Raw-mance

2010-02-20T11:52:00.002+08:00

"Must find a guy who appreciates you. Don't cry for a guy who doesn't appreciate you"
Yun's mum advice...

Haha... Even my mum doesn't say this kind of thing to me
(cause my mummy doesn't know I WAS in a relationship before. = P)

I won't cry for such a loser.

Most of my friends will be leaving today
Sighhh.... Really miss them a lot.

June and Sa had a wonderful cny even though they weren't here.
Sa had her very first white cny. How nice...
June celebrated with her housemates..
How I wish to visit them!!!
Just so happen that my STPM clashes with all the important dates.
Now I couldn't visit all the 'worlds' that June promised to bring me.
Have to wait until that exam over...
*grumble grumble grumble*